SPIRIT 'OF CHRISMAS

reality is pretty shitty but you make me feel shinny as a box 

when you pick me up¨from the floor and scared me like jack the box

so stunning in your uniform that slide in like red 'guy , through the chimney

did i mention he wore kinda , dreamy , handle the elderly like it wore your family 

his eyes are bright light just like the christmas light 

she is fell for somebody in a middle of a snow fight 

he pull her up from snowball , how you voice wore like a gospel 

read her like a bible verse ,like it wore a  your chart 

yeah i came in as your patient , you became my doctor student 

 wore falling for an angel in the middle of the danger 

i think you must be from heaven , sent i

yeah i be your little elf and even if my life is a living hell 

there is one thing i believe in and that is the spirit of chrismas 

heavy christmas

he slide in like that saint claus 

but this year is difffrent 

some of us gonna be to heaven , sent

and some of us gonna stay ... absent 

not even the children will get a present 

and the dinner will be cancelled because of the virus 

yeah who hijack saint saint claus ?

the whole world is mourning 

Christmas musical

outside is pretty shitty but inside the retirement house everything sound like a Charismas musical  

there is the dancers , so jolly and merry the main character -

with that perfect vocal , visualize and i dont know if this a fantasy 

but when i lay in  coma , and was in limbo

it was like a bloody disco 

with festival within 

i dont really know if it wore a dream 

but it sure wasnt a nightmare 

feeling that festive holiday feeling 

with lights in green , red and gold 

i dont know how i got out this 

but its wore highest on my bucket list 

little did ï knew i would living up the elder people

 who is quite cranky but grew on me , like my own little family 

but ï love the younger ones , how they held my company

yeah it wore quite magical  , never thought i would fell like and angel from heaven sent 

with the older people in the background , you keep me safe and sound 

but what i most like with the retirement i become to heaven sent 

when i got a guardian angel , is it funny you can find help by an stranger 

christmas charm

he slide in the chimney  with faith and hope. 

 eyes<bright light just like the chrismas light 

she is fell for somebody in a middle of a snow fight 

he pull her up from snowball , how you voice wore like a gospel 

read her like a bible verse ,like it wore a  your chart 

yeah i came in as your patient , you became my doctor student 

 wore falling for an angel in the middle of the danger 

i think you must be from heaven , sent 

think you are santa little elf because everything with you is just perfect 

so giving of your body mind and soul , its hard to not fall'

for the christmas charm  when you had me under my arm 

it kept me calm  so i woüldnt fall 

like a snow angel

his eyes are bright light just like the christmas light 

she is fell for somebody in a middle of a snow fight 

he pull her up from snowball , how you voice wore like a gospel 

read her like a bible verse ,like it wore a  your chart 

yeah i came in as your patient , you became my doctor student 

i wore like he slide just like the best present 

looks just like a snow angel , i think i just become to heaven sent 

No borders when it come to xmas

they say this wore better back in the days 

.<when we wore younger life has to get<mentally stronger 

before we go seperated , how families and lovers 

gonna be  merry when the virus put an border 

/between us , no joy to the children 

and tbe mourning of elderly at retirement 

the fear for the poor that will be heaven sent 

an virual xmas

outside is glittery but inside is pretty shitty 

nobody laid down the foundation for the holidays 

everyone wear ugly sweaters because why the hell does it matter 

when you cant be together and take a chrismas pitcure 

all the lonely souls that stay alone , please pick up the phone 

and call your grand mother for a hour or two 

respect the distance with virtual calls , this might be for the long haul 

but reach out to friends because there will be an end of this era to 

just an other memory that is breaking . a reminder of whats on the stake 7<

like a snowfall

i fell over him like a snowfall 

he swept in like wore the angel 

of mercy , heavens mr darcy 

he pick me up like hot chocolate 

hands around my neck , always had my back

still remember the flagrance of coco , that always made me so loco 

the only guy that made my wheelchair , pullover - beat a bit stronger 

in this wintertime , some people come on a bit ... stronger  

Snowball

his eyes are bright light just like the christmas light 

she is fell for somebody in a middle of a snow fight 

he pull her up from snowball , how you voice wore like a gospel 

read her like a bible verse ,like it wore a  your chart 

yeah i came in as your patient , you became my doctor student 

 wore falling for an angel in the middle of the danger 

i think you must be from heaven , sent 

wings like that , yeáh i think he is an snow angel 

dress for make me success 

OLOF

his eyes are bright light just like the christmas light 

she is fell for somebody in a middle of a snow fight 

he pull her up from snowball , how you voice wore like a gospel 

a slippery road down the corridor that made you an perfect character

little by little i where build up Olof ,  for a season 

but i knew you are here to change my life for a reason 

cold days

now when you older life gets colder 

than you have to learn to mentally be stronger 

when you have nobody to belong 

t here is only one person you , belong 

deep inside you know you havent done anything wrong

but your relatives just cant seem to get along 

so you have to walk away for your own best 

now you dont know where you belong 

but then you see people reachh out 

that you thought you had fall out 

with but are really beautiful underneath 

Snowchild

i never had felt like my heart , melt 

and i knew i wore falling deep 

for you like a snowflake 

and it break my heart 

to departure but i love to arrive 

all thought at first i worse scared 

because i never been great with structure 

but ´you held the  perfect lecture 

and somehow i begin to recover 

from my brain injury but i hated it would it be ... over ¨

but i love that you made me , stronger 

santa tell me

¨

i never knew what to wear

but you help me with ,the style 

¨brush my hair , pick out what to wear 

 my own stylist , frankly have always been on my bucket list 

and you got that perfect taste so dont let it go to waste 

on somebody else  , i remember how you treat me so gently 

like i wore made of cotton and remember when i fell on my button 

you help me up like an coffee cup , arms around your neck 

help me back in the bed , always there to aid like friend 

this was i knew wore the chapter about to begin 

angel of mercy

what should be a celebration 

has become a mourning of the nation 

i knew i wear my heart on my sleeve 

but when you been through so much grief 

you take ever chance you get

try to  make every moment , perfect 

flawless , when the world is a mess 

elder people live in loneliness 

in retirement , waiting for the angel of mercy 

meanwhile single people cant even get Mr Darcy 

kids throw tantrums because they dont get what they want 

but everything i want is to get back to how it was 

this damn virus build borders between us 

 

fell for an angel

¨

i never believed in angels work until i met him 

a messanger of god , with such a holy spirit 

merry and joyful , kinda fell in love it 

tend to do it of on habit , but its like an dream 

seems like you actually care who i am ¨

never been know when to take up 

this with my diagnose , like a coffee cup 

but he read me like like a chart , like i wore somekinda art 

i like that with you 

snow angels

last chrristmas i gave my heart to somebody special 

know i know what i really , really want 

i remember thinking will would became a great poem 

eyes like that , action better then fiction 

thinking boys better in books 

¨never thought him 

would be a crook

then i met jim 

took ages took forget

with an accent so perfect 

¨thought i had died 

.... but i am happy to get out alive 

met this guy christian in retirement 

i think you wore the reason reason i survive

half way to heaven , when i  crash landed 

in your arm like that me , mended 

Frankenstein

i guess im not the one that will alone 

this this at Christmas' , ¨who wont get presents or gifts 

that will spend time in 'hospital , retirement 

and people mourn the death when their family become to heaven sent

ï guess 'm  not the' only who will be lonely in this fesive time 

when 'chrismas time is cancel for  uncertain time , thats not fine 

if this is an end of a era and beginning of 'a new chapter 

that doesnt seem like , end right 

falling like a snowflake

i remember when i fell for you like a snowflake 

never thought i would be be such a flake ¨

falling in love in quarantine

please make it least to valantine 

ÿou wore the key to my health 

yeah you are something else 

and i hope we can still be friends ?'

excuse me if i keep him

it wore straight out of a hollywood film 

when you slide in my heart 

like i pop up in your chart 

do you know you my heart , restart  ?

it was the doctor student and the patient 

'remember when i attend straight from the hospital 

after laying in 32 days in limbo and now went to retirement 

when i went to rehah  to became heaven sent 

i wore linger between death and life 

when i you met and after a kiss from the reaper 

nobody have seen so perfect , so excuse me if i keep him 

bui you quite an lovely daydream 

never wanted the curtains to call 

because 'you can make every girl , fall 

nutcracker

you  dive in my heart 

¨like i pop up on  at  your chart 

 do you know you my heart . restart ? 

it was the doctor student and the patient 

'remember when i attend straight from the hospital 

after laying in 32 days in limbo and now went to retirement 

how i fell when i saw you eyes , i thought i become to heaven sent 

but you pick me up like a coffee cup and i still remember the fragrance 

of that Lima - bean , yeah it was like the sweetest dream '

dont even know if this wore real but it sure have some appeal

i remember how we played a game which i wore in your team 

never so included in something and i recall does bad jokes made me laughing 

but it wore you and this is how you kill miy condition with grace 

treated me with respect and honor - made me regain balance 

recover from my injury even though i didnt like because i knew there is a home 

i dont really belong but its where i felt most at home , how you dress me like a pop princess

your voice sounded straight like a high school musical and i like the way  you had your way 

with me when everyone just scream and kept a noisy environment

you are the reason why i love the retirement 

... and look forward to it  

An diffrent holiday

'

i hate that we cant meet over the holidays 

why do we have to go the separate ways 

all the malls are closed and we cant get out 

to eat chrismas dinner , wonder how many families will fall out ?'

during this and i hate i even how i cant get a mistletoe kiss 

but during this time its risky , with all this germs in the air 

what used to be a fairytale of new york became nightmare before chrismas 

when every festival is cancel because of this virus - building borders between family and lovers

and we dutch sneezes like it wore bullets and hide for undercover 

caught in a snowball

so i remember when i left 

the best person i met 

funny enough i him met him in this isolation cell 

quarantine bubble after been through a lot trouble 

i remember when i fell in your arms 

and you  pick me up like that coffee cup 

yeah i remember i fell like the first snowflake 

how you became the mate i could rely on , not run from 

i remember how you handle me so gentle of course i got smitten 

when you stroke me like a kitten of course i got bitten

an nation in mournig

what should be a celebration 

has become a mourning of the nation 

i knew i wear my heart on my sleeve 

but when you been through so much grief 

you take ever chance you get

try to  make every moment , perfect 

you got the must wonderful eyes i seen 

did you know i think you are living daydream '

his arms are so manly , his smile is so friendly 

the way he glance over to me in the cover 

¨babe come over , never wanted this to be over 

short is sweet but you make my poems --- complete 

when the grinch stole christmas

 

i knew that life is hard so i send you this Christmas card 

in this time when we cant be together to know . you are loved

i knew¨its hard to be merry when even gift giving is cancelled 

and gatherings are a big no-no  , you cant even eat charismas dinner

because of fear to get convid which is hard to get rid with ...

 so this is to all the old souls that sit home at the retirement 

have nobody to share the holiday with - to the children who dont get any presents 

because grinchen stole Christmas but at least we can be together - more the merrier 

but life will get worst before gét better , take care about yourself and anyone else

in this time we live in , we will get through it together -care for each other 

like it wore your friend ,  that you willing give a  helping hand 

or it wore your ¨sister ,brother , father or mother 

Better then Saint Nick

i never have felt a guy melt 

like when i your hand , held 

have never have a summer so cold

and i will probably write about you 

when i are like 90 years - old 

yeah you be the one that got away 

the one that took my breath away 

something with you is better then saint nick 

because you give me winter magic 

smug over this < 0

you  dive in my heart 

¨like i pop up on  at  your chart 

 do you know you my heart . restart ? 

it was the doctor student and the patient 

'remember when i attend straight from the hospital 

after laying in 32 days in limbo and now went to retirement 

thanks to covid , i wore livid but then i saw you ¨

and kinda fall for you tend to 'do that it when i seé someone i  adore'

i know from that day you wore a new chapter , era in my blog 

since i gö't that hug which i am pretty smug ( over )   

do you mind if im ÿour pretend lover 

Snowman

i met the snowman in april 

he wore my home for a season 

probably be love h for a reason 

that you already get 

i wore on a slippery slope 

when i drop in your arms 

you carry me like a  knight 

when all i saw 'was flashing light 

hands around your neck ,¨got my back 

slide like mickey and minnie on ice 

what a suprise - you  dive in my heart 

¨like i became your patient on your chart 

winter blues in july

I rememeber it felt like with winter blues 

in july' when you help with the bags

how you handle all my ditty luggage 

always clean my  clothes and pick out 

my new outfit 

how you woke me up with that sounnd

yeah i kinda get used to hang around 

you ,i i remember somebody yell at you 

because spend much time with me 

but its fine by me 

i wouldld mind your  company 

it made me less lonely 

our moments

i remember the place be quite magical '

'even though it start quite tragically

depressed but at least i wore well dressed 

when i came .  attend - never knew i would make a friend 

protector and soldier  , cute as a button - of course i became smitten 

like a little kitten . fell flat in your arms when we met 

yeah this is better then internet - you help me up like that coffee cup 

hands around the neck and always had back - from that day i know 

i would miss ypu like the first snow , yeah i remember you swept in 

like a daydream , an angel in disquise with the best advice 

'

what if

i have a feeling that my friends dont like me 

maybe its because i remind them of what theïr future will be

dark , perhaps they dont like i am in a wheelchair - think its embarrassing 

the way i fly by . i almost gave up ¨making new friends but then i notice your heart 

my biggest insecurity is my health and you can read my diagnose on a' chart 

i tend to run from those i like because i dont want to stand in their dreams 

'... away , but we can always chat in the dms ? 

deadline

i never really wanting any babies 

but you can give me some tonight 

i knew that i die before you 

you be there to take care of them alright 

raise them with your´ moral 

hope they got my hair but your eyes 

your lovely voice and ambition for school 

yeah you gave me health '

babe you are the best person i met 

reality suck but you didnt make me go yuck

remember how i vomit in your hands 

and you clean up me like wore friends 

that wore the best feeling ever ¨

i never felt so comfortable 

but i knew this was on a time table 

of course it is , when i was  had to go ´home '

because damn it , be careful what you wish for 

because i really would just spend spend one  night with the one i adore 

Prince Christian

nothing with this time look like Christmas

wonder how it look at ... Christians ? '

i hate that we became this close 

in this ginger house 

never saw a man with such a ¨moral¨and pride

that took up the stride , with my illness 

made me forget all about my condition 

and for once . felt like a princess

never met eyes so charming '

figures ¨he must be a prince 
and this wore his kingdom 

who knew his country inside and out

yeah i remember countinting down days 

but now i realize i running of fear

because i never had somebody on my team 

and thats make you .... rare 

  

'rare guys

 '

dont nt really know what to with me ¨

''bu't you knew how to handle me

he know how to diagnose me 

¨when i hardly cant label me

progress this but im glad you did 

berceuse i am finally excepted this 

my condition and what i live with 

i dont wanna fall so tend to run 

when i get to close with boys 

because i know i am a living nightmare

but maybe you one of those rare

guys that actually ,  care 

this is us and how it was

i wore attending retirement 

after being in coma 

dident knew i would to heaven , sent 

for rehab on myself but all i did was find love for somebody else

he had the most gorgeous eyes , klein type - you' know 

of course i would fall in love  , those ones you wanna dive in 

just are a freaking daydream and i couldnt stop and stare

i never seen such a beautiful piece of art 

but the i notice your heart '

and i never felt so rare , honest and pure 

thoughtfulness from it - it wore so sweet ¨

it wore short and but complete 

and if i had to do it once i would , repeat 

every touch wore so gentle , made me crush 

you paint a heaven that wore black , rosy and cosy 

yeah you slide in like a character 

never seen a guy with such character 

strong like a soldier and beautiful ¨like a picasso 

yeah you remind me of leonardo, 

and the time i spent wore like being on a disco 

mostly because í sit in the corner , pretending being you lover  

and your voice is the best feature and hide my face , under cover 

i remember when i fell pretty shitty¨

then you cheer me up with hello¨´ kitty 

it basically made my day - went from dog person to be cat person like 

funny it can be like that , magic <

dior

You slide in like a daydream 

i fell hard and you kiss mý scar 

yeah you pick me up¨like a coffee cup 

hands around your neck , fresh to death 

everything with you was so´¨personal

i just ¨cant ''but i knew  you gonnna swim 

in my ocean Of poems 

you got the sweetest voice , diffrent then other boys 

in a  world that cant handle noice your best feauture is your

 your voice and the way carry yourself with pride 

im lucky to met you because thanks to you im alive 

had a kiss a death but you took back 

smash hit

in the room 50 there is a ghost that belongs to that past 

i am not sure how we met  but i am sure  i never forget

how i crash landed , hit you with an bang

but att least i did some kinda impression 

when i cut the tension

yeah i remember how scary when i arrived 

from the bright light in April 

´how i fell in your arms , hand around your neck

while you got my back when nobody done that 

was like an guardian angel , sweeping by 

drop dead gorgeous in that costume made , 

'just for me working class but' with that ass|

of all the loud voices at the place its only one i cant get out my head 

he chase my like a ghost and caught me when i wore a bit lost 

the doctor student and patient , totally opposite i must admit 

¨but that makes us - a smash hit 

.

Angel in making

¨

slam the doors of the old station 

i never thought i would explode 

in such a lust and passion ,,,

and if you wore the reason i  came 

i wore glad i did become to heaven sent

did you know you are angel in making ?

because you saved my life , on and on 

babe can you tell you have my heart won 

what i like about you

i remember when i met you there around the corner 

dive deep in your ocean , wipe up some poems 

press me down in the bed , help me down 

when nobody wore around to be found

i never break rules but you ...

made  me' feel like rad , a bit bad 

i know i am obvious with this damn poems 

but i cant help the influence you have on me 

the thing with me

i know when i met you i would fall for you 

because the thing with me , i intentionally do 

you gave me those ocean eyes , worth to be in my poems 

got my swept away and knock off my feet litarally 

i was like damn boy , finally some new poetry 

 

my fave setting

this year , was quite like a movie scene 

straight out of Hollywood except ..

it was in the corner of my neighborhood 

ít begin like this , when i fell flat and kiss the floor

because the all action i get 

so i fell in coma , over 32 days it was like a festival

inside my head and when i woke up a nurse that looked like zedd 

beside my hospital bed , try to tell him that but couldnt talk 

'but i have to spell but it didnt went well

 i always countdown to when i would leaving 

¨never got what i would getting 

there is an adress i never l' go back to 

but its my favorite setting 

the idea of you

laying in my room 

felt to get heaven sent 

catch by the gorgeous soul 

but i soak up your mind 

and damn you seem so kind 

this happens every time 

i met somebody i must warn ya

know i tech can have ya

but i like the idea of you and i 

could it be so wrong 

in some else arms  , belong ?=

my fave ritual

laying and watch the ceiling fan in the night 

cant sleep in the comfortable sheets i  ever slept in 

imagine somebody in the room - ghost from the past 

this military place is kinda cold but yóu make it warm 

ring the night personal , need help to swich the radio 

'P3 please , counting the minutes to hearing you walk in 

whisper in my ear , wake up  - thats my favorite ritual  

fashionista on rehab'

the corner of where i live

 where the most beautiful soul exist  

i didnt want to walk out the doors 

but everything here sounded like the the doors

expect from you .he got the vocals that belong to a musical 

and i  loved when ÿou woke me up - helped me pick 'out 

an outftt' for the day not that anyone cared , on rehab ! 

but you seem to know what you do ,''

i remember i always sat with my headphones

couldnld get a ïnternet in my room 

so i begin to listen to all these''virtuals f'estivals ¨

¨¨bummed over not being 'at on 

take care

so i remember when you pick me up like a coffee cup 

hands  around my neck and do you know you made my heart , stop 

how i fell 'in  your arms , hitting the ground was my lucky charm 

because send me that request when i thought i wore pretty shitty 

thats why you are pretty dreamy , sweety 

forever

those doors slammed more The Doors '

leaving the only place i felt at home 

never thought when arrive i would¨'

fall for someone 

but you just the type i like 

i knew i would cherish this memories forever

and damn , you better then a taylor swift character

can we have like this forever ? 

shyness

i remember when i arrived , it where  so damn sunny 

and i recall that elder woman being quite whinny 

with time , she grew on me and this place became quite - homey ! 

the best thing they didnt do it for the money , they do it for the heart 

then i knew our friendship start and i might be loyal as a puppy 

heck , i even have your back like a groupie 

im not fancy like Ari , but i sure throw down a party like cardi 

and i appreciate you here to save me , whenever i take a fall 

gave the time you gave , me 

nobody reälly wanted me there but you did 

quiet as a mouse , listen to some music in the corner 

pretending to be your lover but i knew when would recover 

this would be over because girls like me havent a shot 

so i though i better eat you up 

......... while i can 

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you stole my childhood .

what that hell we done to the wo'rld 

why does it takes for a teen to clean it up 

when the politicians have give up 

is this the history we gonna learn our children 

maybe thats why i dont want have any ?

they preach about a cleaner surrounding 

easy to do with a founding 

flourish and nourish 

the environment

but is it cool that childhood 

what happen with robin hood ? 

taking for the poor 

how can adult be so misbehave 

where is the world i loved 

hey .,  you stole my childhood 

and know we got some bad blood 

love sick

i was terrified in the beginning , maybe you saw it 

crash landing when i saw your gorgeous eyes 

they remind me about Dior , je dior 

i remember how you scared i wore for taking your hand 

but in the end i wore making an friend 

i am grateful for that , thats my happy end 

i though it wore over , recovering but i discover 

it wore only the beginning .- i found a new meaning ¨

a chapter and i appreciate  that  

yeah i remember how we play games in the corner 

you told me i could be your team and all i could think let me never recover 

April

arms around his neck 

ridë me like a piggy back 

i dont like this quarantine bubble 

and i knew it would be trouble

w'hen i exist because l¨truth is 

you not there , exist 

i remember when we first met 

had just came back from 

hospital and honestly wanted to go home

''but then i met you , one day in april |can  begin feel something butterflies 'which is pretty nice but it didnt want me to leave , i remember i watching from the corner ,make up stories of being your lover 

remember everything so i could put down it my diary 

force of nature

i wore channeling the white lights 

uniforms swept by like like headlights

angels and demons 

when i wore a  deer in headlight''

¨

always been haunted

never really wanted

''you swept¨in 'like a force of' nature 

glad you 'kept me even if its' knock 'me off my feet 

misfit

 Do you miss the podium 

watch down at stadium 

do you prefer it in the studio 

kinda miss hearing you at the radio 

have you take cover in the chatroom

you have to excuse my tantrum 

kinda deliver fits like you do hits 

this doesnt make me a misfit <<<<<

hope we never go óutta of style

maybe we are an trend 

maybe i wore never your friend ?

friendship is never out of style 

but i havent heard from it for a  awhile 

silence cut deep , sometimes when i cant help to creep 

'hope you doing well  , not that great in keep in touch 

but i hope you think my poëms isnt for much `?

i have a friend from brighton but i dont call him that anymore 

think we grew apart after he broke my heart 

since he became a chapter im done with 

not sure i will never will cancel this 

friendship

limbo

'

around the police , just cross the road  

didnt knew when i saw you ... 

my heart would explode 

falling  to pieces , fell to the ground 

you pick me up  like a tea cup , coffee cup 

and i remember it was boiling hot 

never thought i would caught feelings 

you made me reveal secrets i never felt 

pour them out like moet , slide in like a poem 

not sure how you did it but something with you wore magic 

i remember how we played this games in the corner 

and you said i be in your team , that was my dream 

come true , having you in my  ... corner during this covid 

how you , handed my pills and how much it kills 

take them knowing you help me with that 

i got better , i like to watch you scroll your shopping site

because nothing i would love to do is go an shop right now 

but i dont mind as i hang out in this curfew 

with the ones i love . ¨do you recall ... 

how i came with nine one one?

after being in coma for a while 

never thought i would smile 

but then you came around 

yeah 

never felt that safe and sound

how dorky i felt in my epileptic hat 

but you just help me with that 

and ´when we had gymnastics

outside i felt some what , stupid 

but i love the BQQ we had 

because i dont remember the last i one had 

<

peaches

let me intro myself because i for sure wont do it at the disco 

there is a problem why i decline the invite to the studIo'
is you out of my league , kinda a daydream

i dont really know how i am , maybe just a friend 

but im loyal as fan 

i like to watch you there overseas 

catch you in my dreams 

'and i¨ like how you slide in my dms 

do you every watch  me from the stadium 

million people and i have no idea how i got 

your attention in the chatrooom

sorry if i lost you because of a tantrum 

im i deliver fit like you deliver hit 

you got that movie' screen 

and you probably caughtr ought from a daydream 

i dont really know ´wjho i am most of the time 

'but you make me feel like im hanging on clloud nine 

black and blue

you slide in like Spiderman 

become a freaking poem 

got tangled in my thoughts

never saw eyes so heavenly bright 

i think i might just saw the the light 

when i looked at you and fell at the ground 

usually im quite shy but around you i just felt 

safe and sound , maybe its because you fixed my wound

when i wore black and blue , i met you 

nurture my body like it was your own 

and i cant believe i found you in convíd    ¨

yeah´you kissed every part better

'without touch it ¨

¨

.

my inspirations

 1 . boarding school 'guy 

2 . english guy 

3 hollywood scene 

4 . dior ( if you know what i mean 

ïm  kinda obvious in what i write . lol 

DOCTORS AND DJS

is it weird that i fell convid 

that on paper should be like a hell 

but it was  fresh to death 

cutest boys that i met  

caught in this quarantine bubble 

knew that life outside would be trouble¨

but never though i would get home sick 

be in quarantine , feverish dreams 

about doctors and djs 

thats better then hollywood screen 

if you know what i mean ? 

Loneliest girl in the world

nobody know who i am 

you diagnose me but í am perfect as i am 

handing me pills when all i want is your details

i know i fall for anyone that make an impact 

but you have my deepest respect 

i am the wallflower , that nobody spend an hour on 

but you did pick me up when i fell down 

compliment me when i wore down 

this is what make you the best carrier i ever had 

because you acknowledge somebody to hang with 

wish list for xmas

nobody know who i am 

you diagnose me but í am perfect as i am 

handing me pills when all i want is your details

he block my thoughts for a moment in time 

because we live in a scary world but since you slide into mine

i actually felt fine , like this damn virus didnt exist 

thats on my wish list 

for this xmas so i can give you a xo 

but i guess that is a hell no 

Guardian

i dont really know how it started 

but i know i fell in love with the reaper 

learned he wasnt a keeper 

tripped into you arms 

you became my lucky charm 

'that during that time kept me warm 

he head a voice of a angel 

pick me up even if he wore a stranger 

i think he must sent from god 

to become my'guardian 

the new era

we all bored of this quarantine 

but some of us really dig in 

proud of know you 

can you tell i love you ? 

you basically saved my life 

thanks that you kept me alive  

yeah you wore the reason i survived

im very ¨grateful for meeting you 

and i could tell you was gonna become 

a character of my poem ( a good one )

it was a miracle on the elm street 

that i came into this retirement 

and frankly i wore a bit scared in the beginning 

but then i met this cool human being 

that i never met more read in novels

it was you wore a fiction character appear

telling me all the things i needed to hear

when i had writing block and was like , stuck 

you enter the room just to bring me some luck ! 

<

friends

let me intro myself because i for sure wont do it at the disco 

there is a problem why i decline the invite to the studIo'
is you out of my league , kinda a daydream

i dont really know how i am , maybe just a friend 

but im loyal as fan 

i like to watch you there overseas 

catch you in my dreams 

'and i¨ like how you slide in my dms 

thats makes us friends    

'scandi girl

let me intro myself because i for sure wont do it at the disco 

there is a problem why i decline the invite to the studio 

how much it hurt me to say no when i wanted to say yes 

but deep inside i know my health is beyond everything '

nobody see the ´details in how much i put in the work 

and that can hurt but then i find happiness in attending your shows

which i love , four minutes of standing up , watching in the mash pit 

yeah' that is quite' perfect . you have to excuse my fits' 'kinda have them like you deliver hits 

so excuse my tantrum in chatroom 

'somebody like me

i remember how i notice that alert 

red heart , it made my heart . re-start 

again , thought i lost you my friend ?

yeah this is wasnt how this friendship to end 

maybe its not to late it end ? ¨

how you follow me at twitter 

in world of litter 

you find my avatar 

and im not sure why a superstar 

wanted to talk with somebody like 'me '''

but i am sure am glad he dm me x '

wonders

i wonder how it feels like to live in a dm 

do you know´you look like a poem ? 

you got a way with word 

when the world put up borders'

and you cant even become lovers 

a touch , reach out or kissing  somebody mouth

i guess i should sign up to ´match . com 

but i dont feel like , its right time to date someone 

2020

this year been 'a lot of health issues 

- '32 days in coma 

- lung inflamation x 2 

- virus 

- broken finger now 

di'scoland

i keep on falling guys that either married or gay 

i knew stylish boys way out of my league 

people that just are an dream 

but then you slide in my dm 

realize you wore that Adam 

my idol , i like' since ten year 

then i realize your name and omg how happy how i wore when you following me at instagram 

it make me feel very cool , because to be honest im quite insecure 

but with that click , alert and heart 

you resure 

that im perfect as i am ''

i 'wore in limbo 'land '

when you give 'yoúr' hand '+

and know i belong to d'isco land 

break and entering

i kinda knew it from the start 

when i saw you pick me , up 

like a chat up line that you wore mine 

to portray , how you made my stay 

less - liking me cat dress 

and i still feel the fragrance of beans 

'yeah you slide me in my daydreams 

like that John travolta 

and always wanted you to wake me up 

because you had the perfect voice

so different toward others boys 

big dreams

he got his hand on my heart 

his whole body is made of art 

painted and stein of tattoos 

of heartbreaks and i love yous

he wear black jeans 

and got big  dreams    

im not gonna stand in your way 

thats why i have to let you go 

---- to make sure i wanted 

you to follow 

throwback

it was the coldest winter since i dont know 

but then i meet something that seemed like love 

you grab my heart , dali and i knew it wore we 

how we went in silence down to school 

nobody witness when you made me feel like a princess 

i always felt like a ice queen even in the summer 

years went by , now and then i wonder what happen 

with my wonderland , how it went from christmas miracle 

to nightmare at elm street , but little did i knew we would 

re-visit that time in form of a dm , when im a little bit older 

mature and know this isnt love 

Bang

i am the girl that always on rehab 

and have many reasons to be depressed 

but then i got likes from this celebs 

i like , he is tall as a tree and the fact he dm me 

its kinda overwhelming you see 

most of the time i spend at hospitals 

wearing a gown and dancing by my own

but you , make me feel like i dance again 

thats why i name you my friend 

i cant believe i got your number 

last summer and how my mum fuck this up 

just my luck , and i cant believe you come back 

you are the music i listen to , that always get me back up 

when i fall and i will forever regret , to call 

in a whole world of avatars i cant get that my fave star 

slide in my box - that totally rocks 

the boy i couldnt forget

how shall you date now days 

when we went separated ways 

it been ages since we met 

but with a simple click on internet 

you arrival , please dont go and departure 

because now you chronicle cure 

for loneliness , thought getting friends by this ages 

wore hopeless but since you slide in my dms  

i guess it mean we are friends 

always thought you comeback

you know i wish all your dreams 

come true , like you send that dm 

how you slide in at instagram 

rare

 you press me down in the bed like a bookmark and i nailed you down in my heart with dart . somewhere you got my heart to re-start , dont know how you did it but you left me hanging with my heart , came back - and made it restart it made me restore the faith in human . what kinda superpower do you got ? i remember when you clean my butt , so damn awkward but what a fuck , having a crush on a nurse and what is worst , he wipe you body off but somehow i feel this is the closes love i ever will get . i still feel the energy of of him  , maybe it wore all dream ? how i took of my clothes infront of him and he watch in fear , do you know people like you are ... rare ? 

winter story

for a decade ago i attended this private school for study art 

but all i really did got a broken heart - by you ...

it took me some time found closure , but last year i nearly died 

and i didnt want to end it like that because im good now 

so i remember how i stood by the castle stairs , and didnt know how to take me from there

it was in the midnight when you appear - got that cigg in your hand and help me down 

i was like such a gentleman . i remember how i dance through the snow like i wore a ice princess 

at least you made me feel like that , i hated that year but i didnt hate you  --- just to leave you 

bad boy with a good heart

I remember how i met the coolest guy ever 

he had the perfect sentence to deliver 

an body sculpture of art 

knew exact how to catch my heart 

it wore something in the air 

that tell me you care 

never seen eyes like those 

and i remember how you belong to the bad boys 

but when the dark knight rise , you kept me warm to sunrise 

internet love

when you are young you put me on

like an record , how many time have i listen to that song 

sang to that damn same old song , you jump over my love 

and for a while i wonder whats love got to give ? 

i remember how i drown in your eyes 

how you gave me the best advice 

didnt meant that you become a poem 

but damn you are made it so easy 

when you send that dm 

reunion

i know what i feeling 

it feels like love but also know 

i cant work on it because i dont know how you handle it 

if i would get a tantrum or fit 

so i gave you the silence treatment for a decade 

but then i mature a bit and decide to go for it 

if the world would end yesterday 

wouldnt it good to have catch up 

in a reunion , in a union ? 

slow down

we  should go slow , i dont think i ever been in love 

but something with you takes me heaven above 

i know you far out of my league and maybe just a dream 

but you got a way that make me .... forget who i am 

the way you watch over me like a guardian angel 

honey i met the devil so i know your type ...

and you not the reaper , you are a keeper ...

Just Friends

i like to be your friend , i never wanted it to end 

like that way it did , im over analyze every sentence 

thing i did , do i hurt you feelings with this this poems ? 

i am a professional over thinker , meanwhile you are a professional beer drinker 

never been drunk more in ... maybe hopeless romantic but whatever 

it starts with a kiss , dont have to lead to your heart 

all i want is ... BFF forever 

winter comming

i remember it never felt so alone until that day you came along 

appear from nowhere when i stood at the castle stairs , like that night when you appear from nowhere 

scared of falling down you approach me , gently and took my hand like a gentleman and suddenly i became that damsel in distress . how i slide my hand in yours have never feel more safe and like it should belong there , i remember that winter like the hardest - i hardly could go out but movie nights with you made me stick through and i cant believe it took a decade to find you again ...

next door neighboor

i remember when i came across him 

never thought i would met him again 

but then you slide in my dm 

because i missed your damn face 

so many guys out there 

but nobody can replace 

him at the private school 

i thought he wore so cool 

wearing all black and dr martens

through the years i wonder 

what happen to this guy 

with so many dreams 

so i wore really happy when he slide in my dms 

because that mean we still ... friends ? 

Brush up

i

i like the though of you in the morning 

how you slide in through the door , je adore 

how you brush my hair and decided i should to wear

i like to be your little dress up doll 

from a rag doll  that always seem to fall 

to a girl that standing tall 

i like how you put that gloss 

on me , it  made me feel like kate moss 

and how you had that touch 

of making me feel like a catch 

like i wore princess when i wore hospital mess 

i never forget you

he are the coolest guy i ever met 

and he add me back at internet 

send that comment and i became to heaven sent 

let me be your house cat  , stroke my ego with compliments

likes and love that send me above - i know im get older 

dont mean its getting over . friendship never ends 

and you have always been my helping hands 

every song in my playlist

i remember how i stood in the spotlight 

how you became my first kiss 

now you are everywhere in my playlist 

yeah i never wore his but i wish ! 

i remember how you give me that glance 

made me feel a bit more confident 

... when you embrace with a hug 

i was finally i got something to blog 

about , never really wanted you to kiss my mouth

because boy germs never been intreat 

but somehow you got me to listen on you , repeat 

make me jump up and scream and suddenly you in my dm 

heaven sent

so i remember last year when i arrived to the retirement  

and i met this guy that look like he wore from heaven sent 

got morals like a soldier but peaceful like a angel 

he made me breathless because he made me feel like a princess 

is like he got the perfect recipe to get a heart fixed 

and a hospital girl feel glam and adored 

like brush up with some make 

make me feel that pussycat 

i remember how he woke me up with that perfect voice 

kinda miss that time and how he took the time to play games when i was bored 

i remember when i had that dress but felt like mess , but you said i wore cute 

it make me smile inside and slowly you became an character of mine 

and i do recall how i forget you still wore in the room when i took off my clothes 

how you turned your head because of the  blurred line 

do you recall how you ran with me through the corridor 

i do , and every time some open the door 

i wish it wore dior , je dior x 

how you helped me with the food because i didnt like the elders 

so i order in from mom and got you to help me made it , score 

little things like that , i really adore 

we found love in retirement

he give me that love on the brain 

with on glance i begin to think about romance

of course i almost fall apart when i saw your heart 

hit my head and he wore like omg , omg omg 

every time  he look at me 

he gave me an adrenaline rush 

i never had a carrier  

please dont change 

morals of soldier 

but everyone could tell 

you wore a peaceful 

human 

that boarding school guy

 i remember how you fallow me back in teacher  car , how i didnt want to look in your eyes because you look like a star , i remember how you  smell like smoke and i wore like i will never forget this bloke  ,,, but somehow i did , i hope you forgive me  apperently you did ?  remember when you caught my hand so i could walk properly down the hill , in the halloween at boarding school and how you made me break fall in love , the only rule i ever had . i remember how you gave me a blanket because i always froze , how i always went after you like puppy because i knew i could count on you to pick me up like a coffee cup . how we excange papers , you got the art and entertaiment and i ... the world ... yeah i felt like you embrace most as a friend during that time . The only because you made me time there less lonely