to the guy who know how to treat woman right

i like the comfort in the music 

the healing powers of it 

you should be proud of that

in the worst nights when my spine ache

and i cant stop , shake , when all my legs is do break 

i dont think somebody like you ever come through 

in that way but when i lay on a segway , halfway to highway

i got the red alert , and im so proud over you got your time 

to sit down with me in a hospital gown , im not like those beauty queens 

but maybe you like some girls that got another reality and is not all about vanity

i dont know you really but you seem have a great heart , and what i can tell

your parents raised a men who know how to treat a woman 

because you got that empathy and sympathy but to be clear im not a  charity case 

even if i sound like a basket case 

Marshall Mathers

it must been a decade but the moment i enter your hug 

i knew you wore somebody i was about 

i remember how naive and new on this i wore 

but you just embrace me when  i enter the door 

i admit it wore hard to get over 

to see you with an new lover 

maybe she make you happy as you did to me ? 

well i wish the best for you guys and have recover 

from this brutal heartache , and find something better

something that really in the end  , matter

self care and how to love yourself 

design your own life and set goals that you stick to 

so when i got home from england i made dream map 

and decided which part of the world i wanted to see 

all to shake you off but i carry you along 

like that damn karaoke song 

yeah i was in shatters 

and now i wonder if it just wore some fun banters 

well for me you wore like Marshall Mathers 

when you spit it out 

an unlikely friendship

 there is a record i got on repeat

about how we first met here on internet

i been visualize it since i wore a teen but wore only a dream

but then you came around and i dont know how you me found

of all the beautiful chic you can click 

 of all the avatars out there how  likely to find a star 

behind it , i know i seem a bit suspicious but that's the thing with internet

you never know who its behind the picture but i decide to believe its you  

that i not feel in the darkness whole because you kinda my ,,, idol 

and apparently a friend , i dont got many so if i only have one 

you would be fun to have around 

so i guess this story have a happy end 

House of Cards

 he can make a house of cards 

remember how you wore my king of heart 

it felt just like falling into a movie scene

dream , you ... pick up me like an made me your queen of heart

you hade such an great poker face and i wore amazing by your statues 

features and how you withdraw and i like how you won me over me with Uno 

and with become and duo , playing games during your break , yeah i appreciate that 

isnt it crazy how we roll the dice in yahtzee and it felt more like a collective

then a retirement , we all had our clicks we wore put in 

i wore the girl in the corner , documenting everything

and i remember the smell of dying 

but it switch to a colleague of beans 

i remember how i thought your voice sound like a musical 

every word was so lyrical 

made me easy to write a poem  because you are a living one 

HOPE YA ALL WELL AT GEORGE

 so i remember how i was feeling insecure about the inn 

first time i met him , what would his friends think 

of somebody like me , that got a condition

never really though they got friends or family 

that went through it so i wore in good company 

hanging at george , during 2011 but it was a special time

and meant very much to me and i appreciate this because you guys 

give me a certain freedom and i hope life treat you well 

that your girlfriend understand that this has nothing to do 

with love , it just you seem to get me like nobody ever had 

and i  remember being insecure when i enter the door 

but your hug embrace , maybe it where wore love 

or something near and i remember how you guess stood and , cheer 

me on when i sang karaoke on that friday night , it was the greatest time 

because i never felt this fine 

hanging in the presence of  him , bex , sam ,   cooper john marty and pete

and i never really wanted do a hit and run 

but everyone know everything good is sweet and for me it was complete

that heart of yours

 i was somebody you used to know

at the boarding school 

next door 

study art but discover i  had an heart

you gave me mixed signals 

whated my friendship and stuff 

i dreamt of you in my room

that you would enter 

but i wore just 

a banter 

and im cool with that 

+happy im not give my all 

let my dress ,  fall

for the first guy who my address 

i bet  you thought i wore kinda useless

but we all have to begin , somewhere

with truth or  dare 

but i think that heart you wear 

is pretty great even if you wont , admit 

that you and i wore an hit 

but for me it wore perfect 

lost in a dream

 i wish it could stay like this

sometimes  i feel it in my dreams

watching you on the computer screen 

the poster i got on my wall 

so bright and tall

i like to watch your work in studio

have been in the crowd at the disco 

best time ever but this i better 

hanging home and chat with you 

about things i want you to knew 

i know its been ups and down

that i blame tantrum on 

when we fell out 

but some how i pull you in 

its quite a dream 

im not a girl from a movie scene

but you known a couple few of them

which made me insecure but you reassure me i was  beautiful

in that dm , yeah you have a wonderful way with words 

probably with girls  but you made fell like i was one of them

so i picked up a paper and pen and begin to write about how i met my friend 

and how he thought my poems wore amazing which is the greatest thing a person can tell to me 

hope you know , you can always dm me 

dancing to my feelings

i like his klein eyes and his baby blue costume 

it cant be a fluke because we  been through this 

chat politly but for me it wore , perfectly 

i can see you whenever i like but i choose not 

to control my trigger better now because you know

with our history , i dont want to ran away because of my honesty 

people tend to do that  and i learn  with time to run and hide 

then acknowledge my feelings but you make me dancing to my feelings 

and in a world full of ache and pain , you became the thing that remain 

the best person i met on internet

it feels like a new friendship

something fresh and perfect

you got yours and i got mine

and i am just fine 

with that 

now and then i look on your gram

hope you send me a dm 

you know you can do it like 

all the time when you get time off

i love to see you slide in my inbox

but i get if you dont want to 

because my story kinda suck

and im sorry if i get stuck 

on you , repeat 

you like the best person i  met 

on internet 

restrictions

the restrictions of corona

makes you rethink what you doing 

wore you going and where we heading 

all this boarders that set up between us 

make us safe but feel desperate for human touch

all this online sites that promote dates and a potential soulmate

but why even attend when you can get intimacy 

because you scared of this germs 

am i the only individuality 

who are rather have , privacy

than having you hear , near 

the thought kinda give me , anxiety

but then again you always , near  

to dior

today i wore happy to send that damn dm 

to dior , that i imagine he waiting for ( not ) 

but to be clear i am quite aware of my awkwardness

shyness and how complicated i am around guys 

specially those  who wipe my ass

but i figure you are an professionalist 

specialist 

it just me overthinking stuff again 

i recall how i felt out of my wheelcare

it was like levitating and you had my back

there and i know you choose a perfect carrier

it really fit you person , i could tell 

i hope its ok im write to you , now and then

i feel like i find a friend 

and i hope you find time for text back 

after you work nine to five 

thanks for listen for being there 

listen to my probs but more doing a amazing job 

and just to let you know a woman like an  listener

but all  i  wanted was a good carrier 

and i got the greatest 

a dream is a wish that comes true

 some people touch you 

even if you didn't though you had a heart

i like the way he portray me like art 

or can read me through the chart 

how somebody can touch you just like that

and some you will forget over the years 

i never get how some can discharge

 you from your heart

and you have to restart again

i remember back then how i lay in the respirator 

not know why i wearing this hospital gown 

helpless powerless and underdress

how i was overwhelm by the situation 

not being able to speak , heard or walk 

everything i do is being a profession 

on  falling at catwalk

its been a year now since i fell out my wheelchair

and into his care , i remember meeting his eyes

i think their wore some connection made but i knew 

that is a line i cant cross but i most admit i begin to make stories 

in the corner of the retirement , i  made it to my little fort 

of imaginary friends but maybe some friends comes true 

because they say a dream is a wish and so are you 

who protected me during this time and even felt of the quarantine

i know i am a heavy story

 so i am so happy you acknowledge my poem

remember how we chat about this and that in that DM

how you told me i wore a great writer and you shall know 

because everything you touch is like ... awesome 

i think its quite weird how you can become

friend with somebody you never met

how you would become the person i never would forget 

somebody that i have admire the shit out 

for the latest decade and it was like a grenade 

in my chest explode , every piece in the puzzle 

got together when you and i find each other 

in this madness world and i become that internet girl 

lets stay like this , forever - a mysterium  that  talk with each other , in the chatroom 

yeah you the missing piece and lets be friends . you can always slide in my dms 

whenever you like to chat and i will never forget when you did that 

strangers to friends

so i am so happy you acknowledge my poem

remember how we chat about this and that in that DM

how you told me i wore a great writer and you shall know 

because everything you touch is like ... awesome 

i think its quite weird how you can touch a heart 

without knowing that person but i feel connected to you

so i think i wore reaching a peek this week 

when you send me that request in hangout

i must admit our friendship been on and off 

but  you made me feel cool enough

that i was good enough 

to hang in your company 

even though i had my disability

and why i really admire in you 

see that this friendship is 

true 

friend for a trial

 it all begin at the boarding school 

where i went to study art 

who i lived in castle for a while

made a friend with the neighbor

but i think i wore his friend for trial

maybe because i wore act a bit like a child 

 always been overprotected but you made me feel , selected

embrace the time we had , short and sweet but it was complete

i remember how you and me begin to plaÿ games and watch film 

how it end up with send up dms

and i'm not sure if you still are my friend 

but i don't know when it went to dead end 

maybe i wore just a fashion statement 

throwout piece , but i dont see friendship like this 

hangout

its hard to recognize a dream

specially when you see it on computer screen

but all i can tell tell something with you 

would become an antidote in my note book 

we been chatting for some quite time

and season went, rejections

 and happenings  and suddenly came back

like what kinda miracle that you come comeback

im the hospital girl so far from your scene 

but i can portray up quite a dream 

world just for you and me 

my i never thought you would like 

invite  me 

to that hangout party 

i dont care about the starlight or shine 

as long you dont care about this condition

 of mine 

saw your face and got inspired

i like how you caught 

me and i decided you to be

my next plot 

i think it all started with me

falling out the wheelchair 

into your care  

how you held me up with two arm

i was occupied looking down at my feet 

but when i looked up i choke up 

because i never really seen anything that cute

with intelligence and grace that fit that face

yeah , i recall how i thought  i was gonna be

insane at retirement  but then i was like 

¨saw the next plot twist and i was nevermind , this " 

like a fish in a tank

the resurgens of that i'm going to be okay

i still remember how i slip away like a segway 

 so much pain and agony to enter the new ward

where everyone observed me like a fish in a tank

like i wore famous ,i still recall how never took  down the drapes 

and how awkward it felt being watched , like i wore blamed 

for who i am but then comes wonder woman and  knock hard on the window 

and gesture to them  to let have me have some privacy when i changed clothes 

for that i will her , always love 

click

i recall when you find me on the litter of twitter

of all the beautiful chicks , you on mine - click

how we chat a bit about this and that 

then you slide in my instagram and i was like damn

do i got a fan in somebody like you , it all seem to good to be true

we chat for a while , mom got suspicious because you knew 

but then you  came back for like third time and now i seem to have a hang on it 

and sorry for all my tantrums in the chatrum but as an epileptic , we deliver fits like u do hits

always been hard to open up but for you it seem to be easier then i ever could figure out 

i guess it like a chemistry to friendship that i never manage to work out 

when you give me a hint and like spell it out 

balance and peace

the world  is in a quarantine

woke up from death to this 

feels like a nightmare

but it should be a dream

got a second chance of life 

but all i can do is play 

second life 

im so over being bored 

was even funnier at ward

at  least there some boys 

to talk to who stirred the plot

quite a lot but i dont mind

but i have balance and peace find

with death, but clearly life wasnt over with me , yet 

you remind me of a childhood friend

i think its crazy how we come around

you remember me of a childhood friend 

from a howntown playgrown

how we sat an swing between the break

sharing some memories of what we done

over the spring break

and i knew from the moment you wore the one

but i had wrong before but then you come along

how i made playlists with my favorite song 

cut school just to sing along the yard 

i always wore the geek and you wore way cooler then i 

never thought you come hit my heart in such way i restart

how you went from being a friend in my head

that you protect me from my peers who think they way fierce

i remember it good it felt , to have  a friend again

because all i do is pretend of a happy end 

and its nice to get one that seem to , understand

my situation i am live with , how you disappear 

maybe out of fear when you heard about whats happen

but you have know idea how happy i got during a smoke break

you came forward and give me fire 

yeah i knew i talk to much about people i met 

but its just i dont want you , forget 

thats how you mean for me 

which is weird because basically we never met 

but i like the chat about this and that 

and i know my history is heavy

but i just lay out the facts

also im sorry for writing poems

but you so blimey perfect and a contrast 

to my life and i kinda need that 

sometimes 

Underdog at the clubs

sometimes live dont turn out as you expect 

but i have the deepest respect for the people who accept 

me as i am , a bit broken like a record you listen to much on

like the fave song that you always sing along even if you voice crack

at karaoke but i like the feeling of spotlight on me for something else

then when i get diagnose 

i might not dance a lot but just be  in attendance of health

provide me me with , strength

and for some seconds meanwhile you spin your records 

l dance in my wheelchair 

friend and your fan

 everyone chase followers nobody  want to be a leader

wonder how it feels to always have a cheerleader ?

want to live his dream but not get to famous 

but newsflash every girl is curious 

you got your guard up and i am a open up 

A & Q and im sorry if my story is a bit heavy 

but at least im real and hope is no big deal

you know i support you as an friend 

but i am kinda loyal as an fan 

dont become a distrack

 he got his problem of his own

everyone know him in that damn town

 but who cares about your love affair 

past is past tense  , just a step up to an other reference  

hope i never become one of them but then again i would not mind

if you whip up something clever about me as long is not a diss track

i admire your work and get inspired by your ambition 

passion is everything , what is life without some spice 

and i think you also look nice 

healing powers

She sit at home watching him at the phone

he living his dream that will pull 'you in 

as she lay their in the operation  

he make her ,cable and stable

its like being on   vacation 

i like that feeling of music of healing powers

i know i  cant dance but to this , music

i really try my best   and    for 4 seconds ,   stand

and that why you are a friend

whats happen in lockdown , stays in lockdown

 so i remember when i fell out of my wheelchair 

in to my hot carrier and how  you pick with two arm

swept away by your intelligence , grace and charm 

i dont know how you my walls , disarm

my  personality and crawl into like a mysterium

i like how you stood there in my room 

mixing my tabs like the baddest bartender

how you split my medication 

the coolest vacation 

reee able to leave my life in your hands

and everybody can tell we ar<e ... friends 

i like to be labelled that 

because thats my happy end 

rabbithole

 he is the sweetest con

who had heart won

watching down the rabbit hole

as you my heart , stole

he disarm me with his damn, charm

 and made me fell way to deep 

but everyone knows i only plays to keep 

when it comes to friendsship

Internet friends

we been tossing around the subject

searching for each other on internet

im not sure how long it been 

but it seem like a dream

when you slide in my dm

and a nightmare when my mom

reject as my friend , i was like what a hell

she have no right to attend my chatroom

and was the cause for my fits and tantrum

i dont want to hurt you what about 

but sometimes i cant help but rant

maybe you can relate 

me and my doctor

me and my doctor might split a pill

im might be sicker but hell no im the weakest

know you mixing them like the baddest bartner 

pour it up in a zippy cup just for me to throw up 

you make every medication such a sweet temptation

like a heavenly vacation 

i cant say a word in your presence

but i can like deliver in quiet

a million of sentence

yeah we got kinda weird romance

but by the lonely hours i them , spill out 

soundtrack of february

thanks you Adam for that dm

cant believe i got that a from Tuck 

the illusion of zedd by my hospital bed 

kinda freaked me out and i cant get that 

he think im perfect , when im not 

i really appreciate that , a lot 

so my unconscious  brought me back

when i got sidetrack , you guys help me comeback

when i lived with that brain injury and had to recover 

was so tired and just fell over 

thought it would be like game over but then you came around 

like the sweetest sound , remember not being able to talk or walk 

and my mom was so sad , i felt her presence even though i wasnt present

it all kinda wore like , magic but then again .... music are 

i recall how diplo  made the room to an disco 

and garixx played with the sticks 

i knew everything with this sound crazy 

but its what i experience at my 30 days at the ward 

and i should get an mtv award for get out alive

because when i though it wore my time

i manage to get the hell out and survive 

inspired of my love to music just and nothing else , 

music makes me gain so much strengh and this are some i recommend if you have bad time healthwise or just want a good time . anyway . music heals 

thanks to C

i remember how i fell out my chair , into your care 

and i knew you would be the death of me or the savior

turns out the later 

i recall how you mix my pills , all hundred of them 

like a real bartender and i was like fascinated by how you look so cool

in your blue uniform , costume 

i remember how you smell like an fragrance 

and how you and i wore a beginning of meaning 

something fresh until you saw my ass 

in this house of madness 

you wore the kindness 

i remember how you became my stylist , makeup artist 

and everything on my bucket list 

this year and everything started with me , falling out my chair 

unsaid things

i not to shame to say 

since i had to walk away

how you came along 

like that perfect song

press record , play that accord

if you know what i mean

you came along straight from a dream

slide in the dm and i wore like damn 

yet again , thought you had disappear 

out of love or fear 

but then you comeback 

just like one of those soundtrack

that will be a  red thread 

but i also like the things that goes unsaid 

 

sampling of my heart

so i recall how it went 

when i was through my accident 

and fell out off my wheelchair 

into your care 

i was like making 

friends with the floor

instead of samplings 

when you embrace me

in your arm  and i got knockdown

in lockdown by your charm 

i remember how you stoke the spinal 

core like you do at a vinyl

it was like a making of a song

how my heart had to move on

i recall when i lay in that respirator not able to breathe

so thank you for sending this dm 

its been a rough year healthwise 

and sorry for all my fits and tantrum

in the chatrum but i guess we all have them

but im glad you add me back as a friend

 

the reapers kiss

the boys aint aint a shit 

when you live with a diagnose like this 

have conquer the reapers kiss 

i know this might be the last call 

last time im fall 

but at least i did fell for an angel 

and not for an devil 

kiss and tell

how does you tell

to somebody you like 

you living a hell 

that you about to fall apart

of a broken heart 

how do you mention 

for the guy you attracted to

that you got like a condition or two ? 

i knew i'm not the greatest 

with my dating life 

spending every night 

up swipe left to search somebody that seems right

that you probably have to end up take care of me

and that isnt alright 

how does you tell the boy you like

about your diagnose 

but i remember you take off my clothes

like you wore a stylist and then put on makeup 

as you wore an artist 

the collectictive

 i remember how retirement used to feel like a collective 

such a fresh air , caretaker but also elderly 

when i  arrived i felt the fragrance of dying 

i recall how i wore fell out the wheelchair

into your care ,  i was like boy life really treat me fair

but then i look at your face and it wore like impossible to replace

until today because the DM got me swept me away 

tight

how does you tell

to somebody you like 

you living a hell 

that you about to fall apart

of a broken heart 

how do you mention 

for the guy you attracted to

that you got like a condition or two ? 

i knew i'm not the greatest 

when my dating life 

spending every night 

up swipe left to search somebody that is , tight 

fell from my wheelchair into your care 

thought this wore it 

looked up and i knew i wore , fucked 

i hate the feeling when i am waay to revealing

 been here before 

laying on the operating table

trying to be able to be stable 

work damn it 

been here before 

restore my body so many times

when i get out of line 

but for once i fell into an angel

how it suck to be me right now

ugh , covid and fall for somebody that who was beautiful underneath

sometimes i wonder how you are , watch your pics and that little cat 

i hate this feeling when i am way to revealing 

but i hope its okay and maybe someday 

when we get over this we can met again 

because i hope you still are my ,,, friend ? 

diskreta vänner

du mixar tabletter 

som värsta bartentenden 

har bra ideal som en kapten 

när det blir kaos 

men jag föredrog alltid 

diskoet 

hoppas vi kan ha såhär föralltid

vänner i diskret 

och hoppas du glömmer allt 

jag har skrivit 

    

like a comeback

 my heart wore burning 

like a hit warning

never thought you appear

 in my dm , my cry for help 

how i went insane 

over that fucking dm 

but you always be 

my jam 

yeah nothing will ever 

deliver 

all the the other boys 

have to forgive me 

because you my track

and i cant believe you comeback 

50 shades of grey

 had a  prediction

about that Christian

that he would be my next 

.... thanks , for being fucking perfect ! 

i remember how i fell out my wheelchair 

when i saw that caretaker 

how he pick me up like that 

little pussycat and help me on the right path

remember how he mixed  my medications 

like the best bartender

have the most beautiful voice 

so different towards to others , boys 

i dont care if you make me hotter then hell

all i want you know , your an real  angel

and little did i knew 

how much i begin to like you 

yeah i remember how you handle me like cat 

take care about me as you wore that 

... Meredith

Upplag

swear by bible

last year i went through a brain surgery 

never believe in anything except 

neurology surgery 

i remember how close to death 

i wore , laid in coma 32 days 

and had to fought my way 

back but thats all i do really 

i recall how i couldnt write 

that was awful sight 

but i used my ipad 

and how my mom

cried when i got a seizure 

that they almost didnt could cure 

i recall watching your live stream

and wishing i wore at the Festival

but what a fuck did life felt quite a carnival

i remember some of my male  nurses looking like 

that Zedd , quite shooking when he stood by my hospital bed

and then Diplo wore making some music but i just liked your lyric 

Jag vet inte om vi är vänner

 jag kommer ihåg

hur jag låg i din famn

hur du höll upp mig 

med din arm 

sedan såg jag charm

och den gjorde mig varm

hur jag plocka upp 

varje detalj 

liksom du plocka upp 

en katt butelj 

dina ögon var så fina 

glänste som solen i spanien 

och du mixar mina tabletter 

som en bartener

och jag kan inte tro att vi är vänner 

when in lockdown ,

hands on my body like nobody

fragile as a dream but way to real

the intimacy between us collide in convid

and im not sure what is right or wrong

all i know im play along 

because you the most beautiful song

and i cant belief you are that strong

who knock me out  in lockdown

but secretly i kinda like it 

you also the guy who made me write in swedish

when i used to leave my feelings to english

secrets

 all i know 

it almost felt like love 

the intimacy in this condid 

you wore your best costume

so dark and handsome 

i will never try to change ya 

as long as you  let me play with ya

how i felt out from my wheelcair 

in your care and how you pick me up with two ... arm

how you become my best stylist and and makeup artist 

that how you my heart , won 

the prisoner

used to feel like it wore a prison 

but if you wore my warden 

i wouldnt mind , nah 

how you help me with everything 

i kinda knew it wore the beginning 

of something big and i march to your drum

how you became my stylist and my makeup artist

then i become the archer and who is gonna be the heartbreaker

is hard tell but i know you made me feelings like i wore in hell 

but in heaven when i fell out that chair into your care 

make a wish

an decade since i attend brighton

but i guess my heart heart 

will go on 

doctors tell me i am strong

so i well get over this pain

dont you know i am dance 

in confetti rain 

after you guys 

been all around the world 

twice but nothing i met

that look so perfect 

like the boy around the corner

and never wanted it to be over 

because you like my make a wish 

the guy on my bucket list 

livbojen

jag kommer aldrig glömma 

när jag föll i  din famn 

och du blev min nya , hamn 

från och med du , från och med nu 

vankat fram och tillbaks 

som en liten livboj 

fången i stormen

och även om det bara var på skoj

saknar jag tiderna på helliden

BOY

never gonna forget how i fell 

out my wheelchair 

because he wore the coolest 

he got everything made for him 

falling for the Doctor Student 

such a cliche  to become heaven sent

for the guy that saves your life 

but i know i got a thing for them 

types , it just what i like 

because they got that empathy and sympathy

could dive in those in those eyes 

and the way you pick me up like a coffee cup

but mostly i like check out your , booty 

because damn you are a real cutie 

Headline

 i cant stop 

write about us

our memories 

mom say i shall let it go 

that i live in dreamworld 

but hey its better then living 

in this fucked up world 

so i see signs

in the atmosphere

and this is probably out of line 

but i cant help if you made 

the headline 

URL GIRL

it wore just like a movie scene 

when i feel in your arm 

i like to hang on to that 

so until thank you next 

i gonna write this text 

i remember how i cling on 

like a broken part 

kinda like how you read me like a chart 

i wore that girl with blog and you the one with a log 

somehow you access it , address it so perfect

dont know how i manage to get your url 

or make you , fall 

its quite a mysterium   

you the best thing that happen to me

you the best thing 

with quarantine 

i know i got more feelings 

then Drake and reveal more then 

that Snake and all i write about is 

heartbreak  , pain and never been kissed 

how i won day will be missed 

highly doubt it , haven't seen any signs 

but everything with you falling in line 

and suddenly you became a inspiration 

of mine 

Gods plan

 i remember how i fell over 

you and thought hey future lover 

yeah straight out my wheelchair 

into your hands and caretaker

i remember fell over him 

like i did at inn 

thought i wore able to walk

but felt over like 

the supermodels on catwalk 

i was like what fuck , is it ironic 

how he look like a dream come true 

it made me quite panic 

in the beginning 

but he is the only guy who treated me a human being 

thats kinda nice to know 

when you impossible to love 

i know my percent 

to become heaven sent 

its ok

but its glad that people embrace you with respect 

it would be like , perfect

i remember when crashed

into you almost to fast , furious and dangerous 

please don't leave me in the past

so i recall how i got my makeover 

by my future lover 

how he fix me up , to better version of myself<

i never really been able to express myself 

when it comes to clothes but he knows 

and that why he get the Bachelor Rose 

how he put my hair together 

and said i wore cute , small things like that matter 

had stay at hospitals forever there comes a underlinding 

oh boy he got got the the qualities that remain

 of a real man

how he know how treat a real woman

became my make up artist  and stylist 

and everything on my bucket list 

but according to me he got he got all 

one hint is i knew when i fall

yeah you made my quarauntime 

my time of life and i will ever remember 

the time i spent i with my caretaker 

fina drömmar

jag ser dig som in famn 

ögonen jag vaknar upp

armarna som tar upp 

när jag faller ner 

du är ögonen som jag ser 

när jag somnar och vaknar 

viskar i mitt öra det jag behöver höra

himmelsk röst och det ont i mitt bröst

att inte se dig längre , mer än i mina drömmar 

Guldglimpen

ingen kommer rädda världen 

men jag har funnit guldgripen

i den här bloggen  

och du vet allt om mig 

enligt loggen 

ja , minns dig runt hörnet 

hur jag ramlade in 

som jag var föll 

hur du alltid hade koll 

tog tempen och mätte upp 

mina mediciner som jag bara spydde up 

hur du torka bort , syran 

ja du kommer bli bästa syrran 

utan dig var jag ingenting 

men du gav mig läkemedlet 

botemedlet 

och jag minns dig bara med värme

allt på karantän , kunde vara värre 

hur jag hatade det i början 

all , ramla i din famn 

men du blev min hamn 

som jag kände mig trygg 

när livet var så otryggt 

så jag håller fast vid dig 

kommer ihåg mig ? 

flickan med bloggen

jag vet det är tusentals om dom

men jag gillar mest att skriva om killen med loggen

Heavenly

i cant believe that i went to heaven 

just when i came home from heaven

how i fell out my wheelchair , into care 

saw your eyes and was like fuck it 

never seen such a beautiful eyes 

it was like i flew on clouds 

and i like the feeling 

having your arms 

around 

 

DRACO AND I

i remember how i fell over 

you and thought hey future lover 

yeah straight out my wheelchair 

into your hands and care 

i wore like like this most be a sign

felt quite bored with the quarantine

so cant you be my valentine 

or whenever we met 

it would be like , perfect

i remember when crashed

into you almost to fast , furious and dangerous 

please don't leave me in the past

so i recall how i got my makeover 

by my future lover 

how he fix me up , to better version of myself

i never really been able to express myself 

when it comes to clothes but he knows 

and that why he get the Bachelor Rose 

how he put my hair together 

and said i wore cute , small things like that matter 

had stay at hospitals forever there comes a underlinding 

oh boy he got got the the qualities that remain of a real man

how he know how treat a real woman 

became my make up artist  and stylist 

and everything on my bucket list 

he so fresh

 though i never find  

maybe he wore just a , dream

but god damn it , he wore the sweetest 

and together quarantine seem some easy 

i know it sound a bit cheesy 

you better then my ¨poetry 

 got that intelligence  

and 

of course your my  reference 

by the first sentence 

to last and i dont want to be your past

but i know i got 100 diagnoses 

and its better to let you live your dreams 

yeah you wore straight out f'or a movie scene 

got the look from fashion week 

everything with you is chic and sleek

read you like a catalogue 

and a love your collonge 

 

Disko pärla

 hon är prinsessan med smärtan 

lever poesi och andas kaffedoft

livet är bättre i retro än på disco

för där finner man brustna hjärtan

ja de regnar som konfetti över oss 

och du är oftas den som som lämnar 

... med röda ögon när du går diskon

humanity

hopeless fell from my wheelchair

into your care

hun trust me i know . you and i cant be in love 

like a doctors order give you love from above

student to patient , heavent sent 

was an hopeless case

but then i fell into your care 

did you knew you got a humanity 

that is kinda rare ? 

perfect

 i can paint up a poem with just an sentence

make it seem like it wore an romance 

remember how i felt in your arm

how you came everytime when i alarmed

it was something with your charm

that got me fell of my wheelchair 

but im glad i did it your arm

remember how we chat 

about this and that 

i remember thinking 

this plot will be perfect

weakness in me

remember how i fell out my wheelchair and into my care 

how you pick me up like au pair 

its had to  you became my stylist , makeup artist

remember how awkward it wore when you help me wipe me ass

that wore full of cheekiness and sass 

i remember how we chat about how it is in , convid19

what could be hell became heaven 

because when i wore in your arms it felt 

like i wore from heaven sent 

vvi har alla vår nitch

 har aldrig mått så finnemang 

som när du gav mig den komplimang 

vilket var konstigt för jag såg ut som en tok 

men alla som känner mig vet att jag är ganska klok

kanske inte MENSA KLUBBEN eller som den snubben

men vad då , vi har alla vår nitch 

och jag är den där 

gumman med bloggen 

svänger mellan liv och död 

och  hänger på flygplatsen

och går ner på festival

men är hemma nu 

för jag har inte direkt något , val 

`Peers

i stumble in like i wore assaulted

thought your wore the coolest 

maybe thats why i fell 

from the wheelchair 

glad you pick me up

like that coffee cup

you hold in your hand 

some how i became more 

then a patient , i became your friend 

i remember how we chat about this and that

how i discover my feelings for you 

and how i still got that pics you ask me drew 

so heres to the peers i met and never will forget 

like a teen movie

i always been a good girl and suddenly in such a weird atmosphere 

that is one of a kind who develop to become one of those stories you have on your mind

i remember how i crash in to you  , furious and a bit dangerous 

just come from the hospital , straight into your arms 

i was soo embarrassed by it all 

how i struggle to get up but this girl , always land on top

after i fall you understand my condition better then i did myself 

i wore like he got that style , beautiful smile but damn i could die in his , eyes

he told me all the most beautiful advice without have to say a word 

notice the lessons that he made that him perfect in his line of work

said everything will be alright when im hurt

and it wore straight from a dream

moraler som gör en läkare

 hur ska man säga till någon man gillar

att man lever med typ 100 diagnoser ? 

vet av erfarenhet att du bara sticker 

då jag öppnar upp om mina känslor

men har inte sjuka människor 

rätt att känna 

gör mig inte oförmögen att komma

ta en chans och starta en romans 

bejbi , jag är prinsessan du inte visste ... fanns 

är hög på piller och faller för typ alla killar 

men det är något speciellt med dig jag gillar '

hur jag fall från rullstolen in till din arm 

jag gillar din stil . coolhet och hur charm

moraler som en skriddare 

men passade bäst som läkare

för du har det humana tänket

och jag faller för det betendet 

sympati , empati 

och i mörka tider stannar i ens , kompani 

lovely times

jag är tjejen med ett öde 

som är värre än döden

har haft en dejt med honom

för ett år sedan men det känns som igår 

ja , jag är tjejen som har ett öde värre en döden

haft en dejt and said thank u next

var in limbo för ett par dar , 32 för att var exact

och vill evigt tacksam för att du gjorde allt , rätt 

jag föll ur rullstolen när jag kom in  på rekylen

var typ , fan vad han är cool this will rule 

och jag kunde känna en plot twist är på väg 

because good damn , jonna är kär 

jag fann dig

 kommer ihåg när du stod och förberedde min medicin 

hur du hjälpte mig med tabletterna som jag , spotta ut

förlåt 

ville inte spy ner dina arbetskläder 

hur du hjälpte mig torka mig runt munnen

med dina händer 

det kändes så fint , nästan intimt 

hur ömtåligt det var en dröm 

en levande poem

hur du vart min make up artist 

hur vi stod där och pratade om convid 

hur man skulle dejta nu men jag hela tiden deja , du 

varje alarm signal var en dejt in karantän 

och en potentiell pojkvän 

för jag såg livet i ett nytt ljus 

hans röst var så annorlunda

 och jag minns hur han titta på mig när jag vann 

tipsrunda  , sympatin byttes ut till vishet

och jag vet att det kanske är lätt att vinna på äldrehemmet

men för någon som jag , det händer inte varje dag

jag  vinner första pris - eller kanske jag gjorde  det 

när jag övervann döden och fann glädjen och glöden 

jag fann den i dig 

bejbi

 hur ska man säga till någon man gillar

att man lever med typ 100 diagnoser ? 

vet av erfarenhet att du bara sticker 

då jag öppnar upp om mina känslor

men har inte sjuka människor 

rätt att känna 

gör mig inte oförmögen att komma

ta en chans och starta en romans 

bejbi , jag är prinsessan du inte visste ... fanns 

en epileptiker dagbok ( och en toks )

 kommer ihåg när du stod och förberedde min medicin 

hur du hjälpte mig med tabletterna som jag , spotta ut

förlåt 

ville inte spy ner dina arbetskläder 

hur du hjälpte mig torka mig runt munnen

med dina händer 

det kändes så fint , nästan intimt 

hur du vart min make up artist 

och stylist 

jag tänkte , hur awkard det var 

att falla från rullstolen 

för att ramla i dina armar 

YOU ARE BEST

 dra mig upp på rullstolen

efter fallit ifrån den 

ner i ditt knä 

ser någon jag gillar 

gjort det för många killar 

kan skriva en essä om vad som hänt

hur många broar jag bränt

men mer hur många blad jag vänt

ligger uppe på natten 

skriver dikter om dem som jag gillar 

och mest om dig för jag tycker du 

är ... best 

när omvärlden stängde sig

jag älskar hur han har sitt hår , dina blå ögon och hur du går 

minst det som igår hur jag föll från rullstolen in i min carrier

hur jag föll i din famn , har aldrig haft en sådan ... kram

och jag minns hur du sa herregud , herregud , herregud

när du såg hur jag föll pladask

kommer ihåg hur du att var letade efter min , ögonmask

några extra minuter tillsammans med dig

vet du hur mycket det värmde mig

när omvärlden hade stängt sig 

du fick mig att 

öppna mig 

cope

as the night feel darker 

i start to plot my way out 

now when i am here 

im kinda want to break in 

to the comfort of him 

even if it all wore a dream 

tie a rope and elope 

this wore how i cope 

with being there 

but then i kinda fell 

for my carrier 

så jävla femonal

 jag föll ut ur min rullstol

för att du såg så jävla cool

han är så jävla femonal

han är killen med klass och stil

kändes så töntig ligga här med nallen 

ramlade in som jag var överfallen

hur då såg mig sittandes i hörnet 

sittandes skivandes och fast låst till  , mobiltelefonen 

min drog

jag tycker det är som en film ,  nej en poem

hur jag ramlade rakt in in i dig , första dagen 

från min rullstol och nästan slog dig som  i knuff'

jag kommer ihåg jag tyckte dig var , jättetuff 

men sen lärde jag känna dig på djupet 

hur du du vart militär och alla vet sen länge jag har en thing for a , soldat 

men ingenting är bättre än a good heart , cleverness , empati och sympati 

du vart min drog ,som jag sög in ----  min medicin 

från 

the mysterium

 it wore a beginning of a sekvens 

when you made me , living 

how you treat me like an , human being 

fall out my wheelchair into your care 

and you will be hard to replace 

a mysterium in my room 

how you treated so kind 

who still remember 

who you are as you grew up 

and i sorry if i cant stop shut up

wish i wore your , coffee cup 

vuxenpoäng

han fick poäng när han hindra mig från falla isär 

hur han plockade upp mig så lätt , som jag var hans katt 

kommer ihåg fan vad han är vuxen . hatar denna kalufsen

hur du tyckte jag var sött där jag satt i min rullstol 

låt mig förklara  , du bryr dig inte inte om skönhetsideal

och har älskvärd moral 

kommer ihåg hur du blev min makeup artist 

och alla andra blev statister  ,  du klädde med omvårdnad 

jag klädde mig med rodnad 

och visste när du hjälpte mig med klänning 

hur du sa jag såg fin ut när jag kände mig så ful

hur du gjorde stället så kul , jag skulle tagit med dig hem

men det var fel på timigingen men du gav mig 

början på boken 

jag vet jag är tjejen som inte fixar grejen

men kärlek men vad för vad gör det 

när allt är en lek 

ja , jag lever dagen , skriver om det jag inte fattar nåt om

men respekterar lagen , hatar att jag inte kan ta en kaffe 

men jag delar gärna på en , kudde

drömmer om dig då och då 

och evigt tacksam att du lätt mig gå 

har tänkt ibland när livet är grått

till den enda killen som fått mig , vått 

har även plockat ut , vår låt 

och jag fattar inte att att hjärta kan falla så akut 

men ,  tiden gick och var  glad jag inte hamna i himlen 

i och för sig , när jag föll för  dig från rullstolen 

var det som jag hörde änglar och fioler 

besökförbud

 besökförbud på detta kvarter 

fan , hela jälva värlen är nedstängd 

vad har hänt med livet och vad kommer hända med sexlivet 

nära alla baciller inte är en vän 

livet är så suddigt och svart 

i den här pandenemi 

och det är hopplöst  att tänka på det inte kan oss två 

men om jag skriver ner dig här som en karaktär 

kanske du kommer tillbaka när livet 

du gör mig mer erotisk 

romantisk 

och ärligt talat 

det känns ganska bra

när livet ger inget man vill ha 

new love

i wore took to the retirement 

thought it would be like hell

but i basically become heaven

sent in your present 

i recall fall out out of my wheelchair 

into your muscular , arm

and my heart went nuclear 

he wore a doctor and i , the patient

so a bit blurred lines but good vibes

in this corona times  

aldrig känts mer fri in en rullstol

vi möttes  i ett Kollektiv 

det var som ett annat liv

hur jag föll i din famn 

visste jag hade hämtat hem

hur du sprang med mig 

i rullstollen och förlorade kontrollen

hällde upp en sup och jag spotta upp 

dina ögon sa det är okej , vi gör det igen

hur du var min stylist och makeup - artist

varit i många länder och ständer 

men fattar inte att jag fick vänner 

här , i äldredomshemmet 

omfattades av sympati ,empati 

klokhet och vishet och jag tycker att vi klaffa är 

magi 

jag  har aldrig känt mig som fri 

som i en rullstol , som med när jag hängde här 

och jag vet jag har en tendens att skriva dikter när jag faller

men det vet  ju typ , alla 

frågade jag chans ?

kommer ihåg när jag tog en chans 

frågade dig på romans ? 

fattar att du inte ville 

för timing var inte rätt

men för mig den var 

typ , perfekt 

hur jag föll från min rullstol

in i dina ögon och hur dina händer

smekte min kropp  , ja bara gav gav upp 

det var impakten du hade på mig 

när jag föll för dig 

och det var typ perfekt 

för du är killen utan någon defekt

din tredje kopp

 aldrig känt mig så friass som i en rullstol

hör jag tappade kontrollen 

och föll i dina armar 

hur du plocka upp mig 

som jag var din tredje kaffekopp 

ja , det var så här vi möttes

kommer ihåg hur vår blickar 

utbyttes 

du häll upp en sup 

och jag , bara spy upp

det var så pinsamt 

men fint

hur du blev något så , viktigt

har aldrig kunnat hitta på nån sån dig

han som kom att blödda ur pennan

och fan vad jag överdriver när skriver 

tror inte att jag har någonsins

eftermiddarna att minnas 

jag lever för att dokumentera

du leverar diagnoser och  jag är dem

stämplad men det är okej

jag är inte längre rädd

when you appeared

out of nowwhere 

yatsy

 jag föll ur rullstolen

och var fan vad pinsamt

du plockade upp mig 

var min stylist

och makeup - artist 

har alltid varit en sak 

på min bucket-list

den enda som sett min bak

det var ganska fint , intimt

... typ perfekt 

ja jag kommer ihåg hur du sprang

med mig till mitt rum 

som en  go cart genom korridoren

hur jag kände du var värsta fartdåren

men klokaste och visaste jag någonsin

mött , ja du måste vara en sagoprins 

hur du hjälpte mig mig med medicin

och när jag spydde upp 

tvätta du mig runt 

kommer ihåg alla skor du köpte 

hoppas du får tid att gå ut ,löpa 

hur vi spela spel 

det var väl där vi vart vänner 

säg att du aldrig försvinner 

jag är flickan med tusan diagnoser

och under om du är inne i mig 

som en nål och skriker av njutning

av alla minnen , du är så femonal 

och jag minns hur jag åkte 

som en fart dåre

hur du hällde up en sup 

brustablett och hur jag alltid fick den upp

du tvätta mig runt mun och sa att det var lugn 

hur vi satt och spela yatsy och allt jag var 

tänkte på damn , isnt this crazy 

 

sketcha som en poet

hur räknar man upp alla diagnoser

hur kan ta alla kärlek seriös

när man springer runt världen

vem finns kvar 

tack gode gud för omvården 

jag  fick från dig på äldreboendet

ja jag minns hur jag föll från rullstolen

in dina armar , de var så jävla varma 

plockade upp mig som en katt 

och jag började sketcha som en poet 

hoppas du har det bra i livet 

jag är så jävla tacksam att du hjälpte 

mig ut i livet 

plåstret på mitt sår

 hur kan säga sin diagnos 

på första dejten 

snubben kommer garanterat  

skippa efterrätten

jag vill ha en sagoprins 

som satt med mig på kafferepet 

när alla skrällde med sina koppar

det var din röst , som lockar 

du var grädden på moset 

fick mig känna som Törnrosa 

när du styla och sminka mig

borste mitt lilla hår 

ja , jag kommer ihåg du blev 

plåstret  på mitt sår 

och

jag kommer aldrig 

komma ihåg denna vår 

sold

you remind me of a sunflower 

fill with happiness and sunshine 

i love it when you wear you hair

just like that and take a dive 

in the your eyes , you grab me 

and pick me up and i love when how , alive 

you make me feel , fell just from your care 

and you nourish my body like a aupair

love when you brush my hair and put some gloss

some how i felt like it wore us 

intimacy , and is quite weird how i fell in love with this destiny

when life wore empty and cold , but i knew when i saw you i become - sold 

Killarna på Gärdskon

 hur säger man till någon 

man älskar att man lever med en diagnos

inte ens en , två nej tre 

att vi två kommer nog aldrig aldrig , ske 

jag var så bitter på män 

men då åkte jag in på akuten 

och fann de finaste rockarna 

nu jag dem , stalker 

gåt runt ditt kvartett 

men hoppas inte att du ser mig 

den här går ut till de gamla killarna

på gärskorn som aldrig , satte på mig cindella skon 

jag gick vidare i världen , uppåt och framåt 

men då och då , tittar jag tillbakåt

ja hur kan älska någon man 

inte smakat 

C

jag föll ur rullstolen

och var fan vad pinsamt

du plockade upp mig 

var min stylist

och makeup - artist 

har alltid varit en sak 

på min bucket-list

den enda som sett min bak

det var ganska fint , intimt

... typ perfekt 

ja jag kommer ihåg hur du sprang

med mig till mitt rum 

som en  go cart genom korridoren

hur jag kände du var värsta fartdåren

men klokaste och visaste jag någonsin

mött , ja du måste vara en sagoprins 

hur du hjälpte mig mig med medicin

och när jag spydde upp 

tvätta du mig runt 

kommer ihåg alla skor du köpte 

hoppas du får tid att gå ut ,löpa 

hur vi spela spel 

det var väl där vi vart vänner 

säg att du aldrig försvinner 

 

har du sett hur du ser ut ?

du och jag flyger på samma moln

du sveper in när jag vill 

mest när jag landat på något , golv

vet inte mycket om dig men det är nåt i dig jag gillar

kanske var det ögonen av sympati , empati 

din vishet , har du sätt hur du ser ut 

i detta äldreboende du är en husgud 

halvvägs till månen

 jag har vart över allt i världen

halvvägs till månen 

för att omfamnas

av killen tvätt emot 

en kvart från var jag bors

är det inte konstigt hur  

livet ter sig

trodde aldrig att du skulle 

gilla mig , rakad och  alltid skakar

bara faller men i alla fall dig 

såg tecken att du gilla mig

omsorg , empati och sympati

menas det här att det vi 

att himmelen har stängt för i natt 

och allt var kaos

kommer ihåg hur du satt 

som en liten katt 

på min säng

distans  , men ändå 

hur jag aldrig ville du skulle gå 

men du var på din fikapaus 

gömde dig från henne 

och kom in till mitt inre

x

im sorry if for shouting out your name 

but i´cling on to the part , babe 

like its was a broken body part

but i make light of the art

and feel comfort that 

you can read me like an chart 

heres to the men and women 

in the the line of work you do

that risk your own life 

i will never forget you 

for save my life 

and the empathy you show 

is weird strangers embrace you 

show you more support your fam 

never do and thats why i have to x you 

this goes out to they cut me out 

when i  needed it most but mostly 

this is a shout out  those boys 

that got raised properly 

by they mother and father 

carved in morals in you 

like no other