wing it like an eyeliner

i am aware that you will find an new spark 

but maybe you have a place in your heart 

the girl who made you into an chapter

how you became the boy who learn me to wing it ¨

wing it like an eyeliner 

how you became my one hit wonder

and made corona , hot girl summer 

i am sorry if i am a bit dumber

but you such an dasher 

that you slide in like an dog sleigh 

 

THEN ; NOW ; FUTURE

the insecuries that was in my hair 

feeling like i wore so ugly 

deep inside i know i look pretty

but nobody really acknowledge it 

not quite like him that look like an daydream

who swept in faster then an ambulance when i fell

out off the wheelchair and this is how i find an friend 

who looked like an angel and sound like an superstar 

but i rather like to hang around local bars 

and pick up doctors that look so handsome 

the feeling of you have my back wore pretty awesome 

i hope you know that and never forget that

that i support you , then , now and future 

THE MALL

retirement felt like being in heaven sent 

pampered with spa treatment 

how you style me so pretty 

when i felt like i wore so ugly

with no hair but you did not care 

that is good trait of an carrier 

having empathy and sympathy 

for somebody that been through rough time

and i remember how you made me fell out out my wheelchair 

when i caught a glance and lose my balance 

and fell into your arms 

how my alarm became my lucky alarm 

and you became my prince charming 

but i truly had no idea i would find here 

went all over the world but the thought you appear so near 

how you brush me up with make up like an make up artist

made me feel like i wore in the hands of an real , stylist 

I LIKE MY DJS LIKE I LIKE MY DOCTORS - with skills

i like my DJS LIKE I LIKE MY DOCTORS - with skills

i like my nurses like i like my bartenders - able to pop pills 

to hang with me you need to be an dealer and dont get offended 

by the things i blog and everyone know that i like to write about 

my friends because i do cherish my memories ... 

Från och med du

du får mig tändas som en stjärna 

slockna som ett tomtebloss 

hur du får mig att rodna som om jag bar rouge 

och jag vet jag har mer problem än Vogue 

men du får mig känna mig okej 

ok i slutet av dan 

det är vad som är värt 

jag vet att besvär 

var värd någonting eftersom jag träffa honom

du är kapitlet jag alltid ville skriva 

för du hjälpte mig att leva

och dom andra är bleka i jämförelse nu 

ja det är från och med nu , du 

DU FÖRFÖLJEN MIG SOM TOMTEN

Som en snöboll föll jag för dig 

som dina armar var kramgoa när de hantera mig

hur du plocka upp mig som nytt fallet snö

tittade dig i ögonen och , höll på att dö

men det är ju inget nytt

hur du log med ditt pepparmint leende 

och fick mig glömma mitt beetende 

hur du gjorde mig bekväm runt dig 

fast jag var så piss ful 

men du gjorde till och med 

coronan kul 

hur du blev min stylist som om jag var din snögubbe

du kramat ihop till av sista snön  

hur du gjorde att mitt hjärta lös som en snölykta

dina fingertecken  är fortfarande på täcket 

som om det var ett snötäcket 

minnena av dig har förföljt mig hem

som om du var Tomten 

LET ME INTRODUCE DIOR

 in the thick of healing 

you give me that feeling 

that i been searching for 

almost better than an new Dior 

how he made me feel like i wore girlfriend material 

with style me like i wore an pop princess 

make me think i wore a hair model 

except the part i had no hair 

but he did no care , he made me feel like i wore an supermodel 

and i remember when i first saw him i fell out my wheelchair 

never did i thought you be my new carrier and favorite character 

how you made my make up , brush me up when i looked - fucked up 

but yes i know where i stand , as an friend 

and i like how you become more of an carrier 

how you got strength like a soldier 

empathy like the best brother 

how you make me look the sweetest 

but act like i am the worst 

COOLA KILLEN

jag vet jag är lite för mycket 

men bättre än tycka för mycket 

än ingenting alls 

du är som kompis hjärtat runt min hals

bilden jag aldrig fick men vad gör det 

“ för jag har dig på facebook “ 

och inga kapitel är bättre än han 

jag vet varför för jag är flickan som kommer dö 

var nära att göra en gång , i början av corona

men det varför inte jag där , låg inne 

på Niva , och hur mycket jag uppskattade dem 

det var Garnisolen som fick mig lära mig , leva 

igen , kommer ihåg hur jag föll av rullstolen

när jag såg ditt hipster look och jag kunde se det komma 

du skulle  bli bl ett nytt kapitel i min bok 

ja jag kommer ihåg hur jag kände mig så down on life 

för typ två minuter innan jag föll in i dig och fann min nya vän 

hur jag kände mig så shitty , osäker för du var var så pretty

den där coola killen i gänget som alltid stylade mig så lit

yeah . i kinda loved it

jag har aldrig mött någon som dig

 runt om hörnet 

är stället 

som jag bodde

för ett tag sen

min kärlek för garnisonen

är enorm , mest för dig som hjälpte mig

när jag föll ur rullstolen 

likt en katapult när jag såg dig 

trodde aldrig du lämna avtryck i snön

men alla vet när vinter är över 

kommer alla minnena dyka upp från tön 

och jag tycker du borde ha extra lön

för sättet du behandla mig , som en skönhet

när jag var så ful ,en nakenkatt men du fick mig känna mig perfekt

och faktum att du bara är student men hade hade sådana skills

gave me chills , feels " to be honest it wore pretty surreal "

hur du fick mig känna mig som en hårmodell även om jag var skallig

och hur du stylade mig som en supermodel och målade mig som en makeup artist

allt var så fint och intimt

och jag hoppas du vet att jag aldrig mött någon som dig förut

chills

 something with him give me chills , 

the way he slide into my life wore surreal 

how he gave of an performance

and stole my heart from that , moment 

made me forget about my  appearance

i wore such an mess but you made me feel like an hair model

how you style me like an supermodel

in those pampers , my clothes dont feel the same now 

something with him give me chills 

made me believe in your skills 

comfortable in your hands 

and i like to believe that we wore more then friends 

local heroes

 just like get an diagnose and learn you never will become healed from it , how hard it is to accept that the old , the one you known and how i hold on to the things i now and love , thanks for understanding me better then i do , this is why you are the best carrier and i fell in love with your character from the day one   how i stumble in and out , just so i wore about to fall out my wheelchair but i like that because it sorta remind me of an festival , where everyone except you for who you are , i like how look like an international star , it made me fall like an falling star , how you became my local hero without an cape , your eyes wore my sweet escape and i hope everyone know 

Look like an good kisser

he got an hipster look and you probably an great kisser 

do i have to get a mistletoe to get a kiss ?

is littarly the only thing this year i wish of claus 

that it would become us 

but i do get it - is not like i am the perfect 

girlfriend to have but i kinda am great in some ways 

because i am loyal like an fan , stan like an groupie 

and i do follow you like an puppy 

handtag fandtag klapp

som ett tomtebloss

du fick  mig blossa upp

fortfarande kommer ihåg 

hur jag föll hur rullstolen

när jag såg din blick

hur du gav mig så bra 

intryck 

hur du blev mina

handtag , famntag och klapp

dock låg och väntat efter en kyss

men jag är tålmodig men jag tycker du ska din chans 

för vi två kunde bli legendariska vänner 

men jag är okej om det inte så du känner 

ville bara säga mitt , när ska du säga ... du ditt ?  

address people with an smile

you give me the information 

dont need an explanation

i like the way you make me feel

how you make me able to heal

when everything is shitty

you make me feel like i am pretty 

and that means a lot for somebody who is sick

i know that stats and i know you probably not in love 

but i like to think platonic thing is amazing 

so this one is addressed to you 

that always felt bullied , alone and secluded

this is for the people who need an smile

now and then , welcome people with a smile

not turn the back with an goodbye

people need to be , embraced 

and it all start with an acknowledgment

that will make the receiver , heaven sent  

 

disney on ice

 the anticipation begins by the first advent  

i recall how you made me , heaven sent 

felt out of my wheelchair and how you made my heart , melt

how i drop and my legs just gave up and how you slide in

like an blizzard 

how you stroke me like an cat

how you made me feel like an hair model when i wore bald

and swipe away all my insecurities , i hope your mom and dad

know how awesome you are - your my favorite local star 

 how you made me feel somewhat comfortable in that 

ridiculous epileptic hat 

and truth be told that's what friends do , support each other 

… that why i come to love you like an brother 

that help me walk when i was lit close to falling over 

you made this wonderland into disney on ice 

fall for you , would not be an surprise 

its not like its the first time , not even the second 

i have a reputation for break record 

fasten then you notice what happen 

Niva till Garnisolen

jag brukade känna mig så osäker i den där 

jävla epileptiska hatten 

men du strök mig som katten 

har aldrig känt det för 

och jag kommer ihåg jag trodde killarna på Niva 

var bäst för räddat mitt liv ( en kille hette Kristian ) 

och han var en kopia av dj zedd 

så när jag vaknade upp ur min koma 

vart jag riktigt rädd 

det var en kille som jag öva upp styrka med

armbrottning och det var martin

och jag gillade honom mest 

för han investerade sig i patienterna mådde 

deras fritids intresse och han och jag hade en viss

del av musik intresse men inte allt 

jag kommer ihåg hur jag börja studera allt 

göra små historier och fortsätta på garnisonen

jag kommer ihåg vad rädd jag var 

för och få reda på om jag testat positiv för covid

och jag minns hur jag vart övervakad , kontrollerad 

som jag gjort något dumt och hur den enda sjuksjökerskan 

som våga träffa mig kommer jag inte håg namnet på 

men jag kalla henne bumbi björnen för hon hade tofsar i öronen

efter ett var det dags för mig att komma till stället jag fasat för 

trott att det är här all människor kommer för att dö 

men du fick mig leva , ironiskt 

ja Garnisonen , var magisk och  perfekt 

speciellt för mig att hitta min , lyrik 

HOLIDAY FOREVER

Let me tell you about a man 

that treat me like an woman

not like an label or tabs 

and since i met st . Christian

i have dips on his lips

like he put his hands on my waist 

when he help me up 

i like the way he look in the uniform

remind me of that red suit , god he is so cute

with that lock , yeah you are the reason why this place rock

sorta like ibiza rock , i remember i wore a bit down for not being head abroad 

but then i glance into your eyes and they remind me of endless summer

i like how you are my Nordic light , local star and that drummer boy

that always come to me and fill me with joy 

never thought i would get this pampered

you not even hit the bar yet but i know you make it

probably became honor student because you deserve it

think it kinda funny that i study abroad but only met , toads

how i went abroad , like twice but no connection

apparently i put on flight mode when i hit the road

but nobody left a mark in my heart like this guy

he wore like meting st. Claus  , hipster beard and around him i wore so awkward

but i like that he made begin write again , that he though it wore okay because storytelling 

is one thing that lay dear to my heart - except the people that make me an better poet 

levitating

have you ever levitate ?

felt the gravity pulls you 

i have 

and i think it wore because i love you 

dont know who you are but i know your character 

and i like what i see and that enough for me 

something always drag me to you 

and it must mean something 

table for 2

he flew in like an angel 

in my life and kinda knock me off 

the wheelchair because he wore that , eh you know 

and i know the nurses will stand in row

to get with you , i don't really care about who you love

all i need is the feeling of healing 

 sorry if my poem is way to revealing 

if i am namecheck you way to much’

but i always do that 

with people who make me feel , comfort 

in their presence 

i remember how i hated to come 

but you made it better then home

how i learned your timetable

 at my mind and how i sat by the table 

in the corner in the common room 

observing when you work 

and how i caught you looking over 

now and then , it made me happy 

because i felt kinda lonely 

but never in your company

winter wonderland

i remember how i fell like i fall for the first snow

like an little kid , had to deal with falling in love

the winter wonderland and make a reunion with an old friend

that wore told wore the myth but i never stop believe 

that he live in the deepest Forest of Finland 

and comes once a year with rudolf the deer 

i remember you remind me about the guy in red suit

how you made me feel good about myself

when you said i look cute 

in that dress , when i was aware my life wore an mess

but you address me as an hair model when i wore bald

made me feel like i wore yours to hold

and how you style me like an supermodel 

is it weird that t became heaven sent

in retirement ?

Bambi on the ice

just as when you are an kid it begin again 

when you slide in like an ambulance

i knew back then we would be , friends

i remember just with one glance i lost my balance

sorta like Bambi like ice , because you took me by surprise 

knock me out of my wheelchair when i notice you

and how you begin to rebuild me as an human

how you saw me as woman

because all i been put under labels and tabs

but you wore different

MY FAVE LOCAL STAR

the anticipation begins by the first advent  

i recall how you made me , heaven sent 

felt out of my wheelchair and how you made my heart , melt

how i drop and my legs just gave up and how you slide in

like an blizzard 

how you stroke me like an cat

how you made me feel like an hair model when i wore bald

and swipe away all my insecurities , i hope your mom and dad

know how awesome you are - your my favorite local star 

 how you made me feel somewhat comfortable in that 

ridiculous epilepilic hat 

and truth be told that's what friends do , support each other 

… thats why i come to love you like an brother 

that help me walk when i was lit close to falling over 

you made this wonderland , christian 

boys 2 men

i do like growing up with boys to men

and i do feel less awkward around woman

never been that girl who been social adapt 

to keep a promise and always been secluded

from things , not included - just because you are

who you are , i dont care about your status , job

if you look like an international star , i kinda prefer local heroes

anyway , but mosly i love them people who stay

even if i know i give them an reason to walk away

i mean there thousands reasonds but you come back

just like my favorite track

Christmas Tree Farm

you slide in just like santa claus 

pick me up like i wore the biggest present 

under the christmas tree and you really see me 

for who i am , not only labels which i like 

you steal kiss under mistletoe 

did not meant to become , heaven sent

but you no average joe 

the way you make life more , merry

how you let me know which guy i should , marry 

because your caretacter is the difference

 between an boy and an men 

 this is the difference between , friends 

… friends dont look like that 

i can tell by the way he treat 

an human he knows a woman worth 

and the way he got sympathy for my epilepsy

how he got empathy for my history 

i dont realize when my friends became my nurses 

but heck , i could have worse people to back me up

and i don't realize how the hospital environment

would mean so much  but i guess its ´just my scene

because all i do is hanging around there ,

i know i met you for an reason

i remember how brush me like i wore an donout 

how you become my make up stylist and put on some makeup 

you made me feel so awesome , your fingers on my lips 

how you made me sweet when i wore an complete , mess

the way you styled me like an stylist , like i wore an snow man 

your hands on my body like no other , the intimacy of it all

of course i would fall for an snow angel , like the first snow in winter

i kinda fall for you every season and i know i  met you for an ,,, reason 

Santas little elf

you slide in just like santa claus 

pick me up like i wore the biggest present 

under the christmas tree and you really see me 

for who i am , not only labels which i like 

you steal kiss under mistletoe 

did not meant to become , heaven sent

but you no average joe 

the way you make life more , merry

how you let me know which guy i should , marry 

because your is the difference

 between an boy and an men 

 this is the difference between , friends 

… friends dont look at each other like that

and even if nothing becomes of it

i just want you to know

you made me believe in hope , dreams

and how you spread a bit love

for me

when i needed it

christmas dinner

one of my favorite Christmas story is about Helliden where i met my neighbor 

i dont claim it ended perfect but during wintertime it wore pretty damn close

so it wore very much snow during this time in Sweden and i did not sit in a wheelchair 

but when i graduated i  did " JUST MY LUCK "  i remember not feel a lot of supportive

from my school and kinda felt bullied until i become to talk a bit with William

he made my Christmas like magical , fantastical just as ... an winter wonderland 

just by being there and being an friend 

christmas at Hogwarts

he  came in like the blizzard 

heal me like an wizard 

knock me out the chair 

how you became my stylist 

always pick out what i would wear

how you wrap me in the fanciest clothes

made me feel like i wore an supermodel

and an a hair model even if i wore bald 

i like how you made my makeup

the intimacy of it all 

of course i would fall 

out of that wheelchair 

but i like how you pick me up 

like nothing at all

how you got me in the feels 

and sorry if i am reveal 

way to much 

this have end up to be 

more the a holiday crush 

all begin like fun and games

now i end up drop them with namedrop

" no shade " but you made me into an , babe

and thats kinda ... fab

To my favorite care taker

i like best in the retirement 

where i met somebody that wore heaven sent

that did not judge me for who i am 

he more made me more then an ... woman 

i never thought i wore much to look at 

but you stroke me like i wore an little cat 

it wore perfect 

and i like to sit in the  corner 

of the common room 

just listen to music 

or scroll down my old poems

observe you and suddenly i knew i fell in love

like i fell out that wheelchair , in that doctor student

maybe it wore just a case of Stockholm syndrome 

but to be honest i am pretty ok with have it this way 

i remember how you made everything so nice 

made me forget i wore bald , felt like an hair model

basically style me like an super model 

yes i felt pampered at the retirement 

how you did my make up better then i 

and made me , look very fly 

( almost as fly as you )

i think its quite funny honey how i  went all over the world 

but find most comfortable bed around the corner where i live 

and  i really like how you come with my teddy bear 

and blanket , this is why you became my favorite care taker 

blue eyes

there something with your blue eyes 

that reminder me about blue , skies

how you look so heavenly 

and i think you belong on top of the Christmas tree 

i remember how you hit me like the first snow 

how you gave me hope when i almost , gave up

yeah , you remind me of childhood love 

memories with good company 

and somehow this time become more an gift 

then suffering when i met you at retirement 

how i became the guest and you become my host

with time i learn that i not wanna live this guy in the past

so i wore like is it ok if i write you an draft ( or like million of poems ) 

 and  i like how you said yes because its not always people get like that

when i adress my inspiration but you seem mature enough 

to understand we all have dreams , you got yours and i , got mine 

i am sorry if you have to come inside ... 

them 

the dance party

 i wore half up in heaven 

feel down for like the million time

but this time wore different 

because i become heaven sent 

i remember how it went 

i think it wore around two years since 

now i just see you in my dreams 

and i know i should not publish half the things 

that i think off but i can't help if you  make me wanna stick 

save you on a stick and usb , and i know i should push delete

before everything change my life , turn it upside and down 

inside and out , how i forgot to save my memory stick 

right before my brain injury which made it kinda hard to talk again

recall when i woke up from the coma i was laying in a month 

never been that fragile and exposed 

but one thing about me is that i am never lose

even if i am close 

yeah i remember i had this visual dreams about boys 

how life wore like an dance and felt like an trance 

how i wasn't able to talk but i wore able to make myself an own an dance party

listen to that harris on repeat and felt like this must be paradise