a heart of scandi thoughts

i was like my heart is gonna be mine to broke
not let it stolen , broken - if somebody will be the thief let it be me
to many scars i have remind me of all the guys that me , distracted
and it probably never gonna be we
and im sorry if im a bit out of focus
but im trying they say its all about the timing
the support you keep around and the people i ship
just know that you got my friendship
a heart in scandi , full of awkwardly
thoughs about this and that when we chat

my update on my befriend ...

so i have manage to go into the the site , just dont know how many times i dial your number ( how many times can you do that until you be labeled psycko haha ) i am so excited and im a bit nervous , because i dont make friends . period . im very shy and introvert . just sit and blog basically . and now and then , i head to ibiza to get down .... 

but i will work this out , its a promise , hang in there x 

you never know what life deliver

 felt more free in an wheelchair
then on two legs , cant feel my face
while i lay here in my hospital bed
but if i going down , find me in a hospital gown
never been this high but i can feel your arms around
all those teenage years i spent ...
falling , crawling - black and blue
heaven and blue , bruised inside but to heaven sent
never say never because you never know what life ...deliver ?

this is an an shout out to my new muse that going by chapter 3 ( because i have no other title for you )

today i add you .

i got rules for when i write about you here :
no names , cluses only . you find them .

and i try to be discrete .
but im obvious .
as you might notice
haha

vagabond

i wore like time to whip up and excuse
before i this relationship , loose
and sorry it took me like an summer
but it me that long for recover
didnt really thought you would hand me your number
so i figure you wore touring the heatwave
and thought when you back in the studio again
i chat with you my friend
but lets bets be honest we always here , hang ..

nothing with this fictional

4pm and he send me an dm
he got a girl at the home
but he treats me like am someone
4pm and he text me an dm
add me on the social
hand me his number
i be like yeah sorry i need time to recover
from this because this better then my first kiss
tells me im special isnt that fantastical ?
and the best part of this
nothing with this is fictional

cancel your plans

tomorrow i gonna add you
tommorrow we can chat
about this and that
dont matter if it i talk crap
i hope you see beyond that
summer is over , and now i have recover
from this summer blues , all i want that juice
yeah , i have decided to make that call
tomorrow , cancel your plans
because here comes an new an friend
but then again that you knew
after all the stuff i here , said ...

we

got´friends on high place so dont you dare mess
more feelings then drake but i dont really care
he got that electric feel , im that swedish cool
the best part with him is that he dont care
how i roll
if i walk , crawl or in my chair
if im rich or on health care ...
in a land of disrimination
and segregation
but that not you and me
its only we

a celebration , not discrimination

this is out of the world and i have forget about your girl 

not that i wanna take her place or think i would her , replace 

she got that model face , hard to replace or compete with 

and i bet her heart is very soft and sweet 

because im that girl who rather sit comfty in friendzone 

then be somebodies number one  observing 

and fangirling 

but sometimes i my insecurities get the best of me 

everyone is looking so perfect for me 

healthy and normal 

so why would people like to be friend with something abnormal

meanwhile im that girl trapped in an fucking chair 

got an condition that is really rare 

and sometimes i dont even like to brush my hair 

yeah I'm not Cher 

... and i got insecurities about my body 

teenage angst when I felt like nobody 

but you make me feel like Elle Wood 

and that is pretty cool how you make me rule 

my neighborhood 

and its kinda crusial point to every part 

because im not here to break any heart 

just empower the world and lift them up 

because you are not able 

it doesnt mean you cable 

and we all models in my eyes 

its just the world that disciminizes 

music inspiration . I CALL THIS MOOD OF MY BLOG ( BASICALLY MY FAVE SONGS HAHA )

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4dAA6oTjI4ltUYKgZ1HQq9?si=pBg2F7Q4Sm6pSwj6lcf1XQ

13 reason why to conquer my insecurities and fear

the leaves have turned orange and red
but i still remember what we had
and i still cant forget how we met
over internet because i barely meet people IRL
so the fact you appeared from TRL
is kinda mind blown
times flies but please , dont this friendship out grow
there is a reason why i havent shown , 13 ones
but im working on it and one day i will appear
when i  conquer my insecurities and fear
that day is almost here

that friend with no cent

i am your friend with no cent 

but this relationship is not for rent

got friends in high places

but yet that ground to Earth 

and i bet you hate timewasters 

clout-chasers and when everyone say yes 

i say no , not that i want to go ... just life 

and you understand because i can tell 

that you just wish me nothing but well

 i never expected to see your face 

the hole in my heart have been , replace

im that broke friend with no cent 

but around you i feel like im heaven sent 

vip access , no question asked

he was like just take the vip access , i see you there backstage 

and i know this might be wrong to write about you but ever writer need a plot 

i hope you dont mind if my version the stars is in the fault 

love them guys from inn , got them in a special Place in m vault 

but this guy got find the key to make me low key 

and with him , i grab the mic but skip the karaoke
he was like just take the vip access , no question asked
see you after the show but if im an no show is because im multitask
write about the good times but never go out of line
confetti on the floor and neon alerts , i have to protect my heart
because my brain is not that clever in this kinda matter