missed and declined

i remember how ya wanted to introduce me to your family 

yeah i wasnt up for joining that  ... company 

any fool can see i was falling

so why are you calling 

like five years late 

this is not up to do debate 

you missed a good girl 

loyal as a fan

but it doesnt mean i want to see your fam 

this wore the moment i knew who i loved

myself , put my own priority when it come to health 

and really learn to care about myself and secondary

priority is everything else because i just want a good recovery

and you should help me with that if you claiming to be so perfect

recovery of 'us

'

last decade i was all about James 

but i decide im not up with his games

and he should watch out for mine , instead

almost become dead

last decade i was all about him 

but then i fell in coma an woke up and recall , it wore just a dream

i guess i just like the idea of you and me 

together 

but some people arent meant to be in heaven 

they better off in hell ,if you know what i mean 

and im fine by this , took me some time but what a hell 

i recovery but finally i find a new story 

the caretaker

i even go through carrier

to touch my care taker 

i never had a guy that knock me out 

my wheel chair , pick me up like an au pair 

stroke me like a guitar and sang me , goodnight 

with vocals like that .    he made my retirement 

perfect ... 

i remember how much i felt scared for the elderly 

somehow we become more friendly 

i never met a guy treated me like human being 

kindness , sympathy and empathy for all the living 

he got the recipe to make my heart beat 

because when i fell for him 

he did my heart , restart 

 

32 days

i dont want to miss a thing

with breathing and living

i remember when i nearly died

coma , 32 days and lunginflammations

how i woke up , not be able to speak 

but yet heard every word said 

yeah i remember those 32 days 

better then you would ever believe 

when i almost went separated ways 

i show my strength in some many ways 

v för vendetta

c

jag var i ibiza när jag såg bytte status 

fan , käftsmäll , det är inte längre oss 
var det någonsin det 

men alla vet att jag var din fördetta

så V för Vendetta 

såg hans min säga att han aldrig älskat mig

och det var en käftsmäll 

men så insåg jag vi var inte inte ihop 

det är bara så att alla tjejer drömmer om bröllop 

friska eller sjuka , så jag tänkte att du skulle få dem orden 

äta upp , för trots allt jag hade kunskapen och visdomen 

och det här v för vendetta 

Gråzon

i never feel comfortable within in my body

until i met that special somebody

when everyone just roll their eyes 

he wore the one to saved my live

i will forever appropriate that 

be humble an d grateful for that 

i remember  every moment 

how i thought  i wore heaven sent 

when i enter your fell out my chair 

and notice who would , take care 

i love the way that you pick me up 

like an aupair ,  i notice that you got 

a gift that is pretty rare , humanity 

treat people so kindly and gently 

empathy and sympathy 

yes , i wore drowning in them 

so decided to make you 

my next poem 

.,, 

Christian 

glorious

i got knocked out my wheelchair 

when i saw who would take care 

about me , people like you ... 

are quite rare and i could see your gloria 

thats why i fell - he wore hotter then hell 

and pick me up like , he got that kill the illness 

with treating me like a a princess - way 

how you came in my room your Segway 

pick me up me up . like that coffee cup

Love Lockdown

never expected this 

fall out off out of my chair 

you pick my up like like au pair

a feeling so rare - i  gotta share 

yeah i remember you drove me wild

raised me like like wore little child 

gave me comfort and safety 

when i needed it most 

without you , i admit 

i would be quite lost 

chaperons and the princess

I dont like my new chaperon

i prefer when you drive 

me like a chevron

never felt so alive 

like you wore backseat 

as i did ,   shotgun 

yeah i like how we slide 

through the garnisonen 

like it where drive through 

and i guess i wore that 

but for me you guys make it 

perfect 

remember how you slide throught

inbox and really knock me out 

the wheel chair but you pick me up like au pair 

and i really remember how picked out what i would wear

it was like having a own stylist which always been on  my bucket list

how you treated me like so well , of course i would fell 

i still remember that your signature smell 

of coffee , that wore that perfect fragrance to my story 

Baby I'm A Queen

always thought i belong to the freakshow

since you called me sideshow bob

it really got me top off so i decide to tradeoff

to somebody that realize what im worth 

accept my handicap and wheel chair

realize , i am a queen of fucking everything 

so how do you dare  treat me like nothing '

english charm

i came in like a northern wind

got settled and begin to write about the inn

remember how i got attacked by jim 

new to this , got me freaked out 

smack , nearly gave me an heart attack 

he so fit that he made my poems 

... perfect 

dont say a lot to those other boys 

rather stick in my corner 

like an other  wall flower 

but something with you 

got me caught in storm 

tangled , all in my feelings 

with your english charm 

undress my emotion 

i guess you had some love poison

but we good now 

because i realize it wasnt 

but i love in you , just the thought of us 

and that really all what it was 

2020

 this year have been so hard for many people , with the pandemin etc . 

' also been struggle a lot during this times due to other things like i got two lunginflammations , lay in coma 32 day on and off , but luckily survived it , recover in   retirement  , and broken fingers ... 

thats my awesome year lol .

but i met some awesome persons at the retirement that i could write about ( finally ) 

hopefully i ( 'and you ) get a better new year 

XOXO GOSSIP GIRL HERE

xoxo gossip girl here 

remember how became 

my chuck to that blair 

did got how i find 

a such a beautiful mind 

in that lockdown 

how you made me 

fall out that wheelchair

hands around the neck

from that day i knew 

i had your ... back 

felt pretty shitty 

but you thought my dress 

look was wore cute as your little kitty 

xoxo gossip girl here , remember how you said my name 

so smooth and gentle , how you drove around my chair , like it wore a bentley 

i will never forget 3020 , how you slide in just like a character into my poem 

to make my stories , perfect