friendship is timeless

i used to run in the garden

free like a child but now body carry this burden

is like it wearing a heavy weight i cant shake 

and it feels a bit like im an a walking earthquake

never now when i will fall , so i have to have processors on call 

in case i get a seizure , i dont remember the last day i was well 

isnt it depressed but there a moments i look back with fondness

and i do believe you meet some people for a reason 

do you believe friendship is timeless ? 

i do 

i remember when i played with my friends , hide and seek 

they all smiled , went and hide but i them never again found 

heartbreaker

nothing with this is logic but at least i can say
what i did was epic , took that friendship request away
maybe i was scared for your position
not being able to handle my situation
mama told me i would be a heartbreaker
she knew it from the start but i learn to listen my heart
shut them down , punks that just want one thing
marrige guys who already got that ring
got your messages , all four , im just not that girl who always check my phone
got like billions accounts and you slide in wrong but dont stress , i think we are a awesome poem
yeah i knew i dont make sense , dont work but fly all over the world - no time for dms
i working on my dream and you should be on my team like i am on yours , i even head abroad
to see ya but you never show , i hope your parents know what kinda dude they raise
once you wore my film but now you are not my franchaise because i sing on a better verse

we gonna be friends

if there a hint in the midst of the haze
because i have hard to take it in
you fragile like that midsummer dream
got those candy crush eyes that are addicted
i dont remember nothing what said
because all i wore trying to act cool , not react
like i usually do and you wore the best thing that
ever happen but everything is forgotten
you got that amazing eyes but all i can tell
you the guy who is broke me out from my shell
cherry lips and hand on his hips
you can get me so easy
as long you acknowleage my epilepsy
they tell me to back off , i tell them ha good luck
i dont give a fuck and you i am gonna make you my mate
just wait until i make my check mate

dont block me

i see you like a billboard

golden stars and spotlights

neon light and flashlight

i see starlight 

you are an daydream , i know who i am 

that cadet on the podium and rock the stadium 

i know your scene very well

because i know people who kiss and tell

cant really get that you are star but so grounded

yeah yout the backstage king and i dont get 99 percent of what you living

but that little part you let me in , is a freaking dream and i make it mine

please dont make me declined 

cut ties

so i remember  when i noticed that status update
in a middle of a dancefloor with confetti raining over me
gold became black , you stole that summer and i never now
... how somebody could go from warm to cold
they say you should check up on your strong friend
somebody that is loving , in with the new , out with the old
this is not mourning , is a celebration that you been loved
and you will not know it yet but this wore a blessing in disquise
if you one have rise , you will be able to cut the ties

Romeo and Juliet

it all begin like a fairytale , one of those shakespeare stories
but not evey love story end up being magic , this one wore quite tragic
couldnt see it from the start because i lost myself in the haze of your heart
nothing is logic when it comes to feeling but something with you is appealing
people say he is evil but i know the truth because i can tell in your eyes , got that glimt of a devil
insecurities , dont we all got them and put it beside he was the guy that took that the stride down the aisle that winter when all the boys didnt know , how - if that wasnt true love , dont know what but apparently we wore on wrong path ...

Stunned

put away your mastercard , send me a valentine card 

you know i got this , with all my poems 

candy and chocolate and diamonds

put them away because i like dms 

beyonce told me all about romance 

self care and independent but you came in like heaven sent 

we all need somebody to carry them , a song or friend 

always prefered stars because the celebs love their fans 

is what i been told , never thought you would become of me , a stan ?

because obviously you like them and that how i got a friend 

Old Fashion Love in a Modern world

put away your mastercard , send me a valentine card 

you know i got this , with all my poems 

candy and chocolate and diamonds

put them away because i like dms 

the key to my heart is show a bit humanity 

symphanty and emphanty and i know you got that royality 

but i got this hun because my loyalilty is quality , is all about equality 

dont do rings if they isnt silver rings ,, that third wheel rule is cool 

kinda like old fashion love , is that cool ? 

platonic , yeah i know im rare - like a unicorn 

like that one in a million 

but who want to fit in a world of golddiggers and fuckboys 

dont say judge those who got need but i got 99 problems 

and dont always like to check my dms , just sometimes 

LOVE BIRDS

you make my heart expode and i can tell you either be  good as hell or a devil
make the love birds sing and finally i feel iike i am , living , bring me back from death
i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad because you the best thing i never had

yeah your eyes are that candy crush , addicted and im ready to play 

i can tell that you is the king of clouds , soundclouds that break new barriar 

and im the queen of get what i want , I like it how you make evey night 

turn up the volume and back up , drop it low and pop it and rock it 

yeah . everytime i see something i like , i grab because i gotta have it 

Gatsby and Daisy

i remember in midst of the haze
hospital beds and 120 meds
thinking this cant be it
so i made up world that wore more lit
where the sound of your voice
sounded like fireworks
how you portray the walls like that Monet
make me flourish so i can nourish
with that energy you give from every beat and drop
every sample remind me that you are a good example
that one of kind , heart it but i really like that mind , body and spirit
how you can make my world disapper into a fog when i start to blog
and only you can make me snap out of it but most of all i like how you handle my fit
because it take a real man do it , because most of the times i dont get why get out of line
but there you are to pull me back again and thats the true friend

unconditional love

so i remember got diagnosed with my condition

and thought it wore an end of a era and i hadnt begun to live

how will i handle this , to young to figure out how to look perfect

try not to flinch , fit or get a tantrum in public spaces or in a chatroom

you wore the escape from my reality , i know my destiny and got a explaination date

sometimes i wonder if meeting you wore timing , luck or pure fate ?

i have loss friends over having a fit , kinda over it

not my fault if body dont work in my favor or you catch me when im in my worst behavior

but you can also become my my knight and shining armor , my savior

yeah in a world where everyone slide away , its nice to know that you choose to stay 

when eveyone turn the back and clap back - you just are and thats quite lovely

the craft

it something in the water
i can feel it about to cater
the season of love and care
wind , fire , earth and air
all you have to be emotinal
approach and  intouch
with your feelings
one touch and i will let you see
that you been missing out on
me , that little girl that used to be fun
a bit brush up , make up ...
because you have been cover up
that body of yours , forget that you gorges
find self worth and remember how confident
you once wore , because you still that girl
even if you are disable
you just forgot who you wore
but know you wear every scar
like a battle scar

the bullshitter

my first love called me retard but at least of you i got became selected
he got the same dream like you but never really made it , must kick himself
the fact i was the worst at art but i sure know how to catch the attention 
when i break boys hearts , yeah i probably should put in detention
rule breaking and making up some new - that i probably wont follow
first love wore in one direction , not the band
who just wanted to be a friend
and for this guy i didnt eat for the winter
talk a lot but i think you are a kind of a ... bullshitter

not the coolest by the bunch but im not the one that look like a fool now

my first love called me retard but at least of you , i became selected

he got the same dream like you but never really made it , must kick himself

because you think i am descent , i know i am not the coolest by the bunch

but im not the one that look like a fool now and if he knew who you are

he probably would bite his tongue before him said it , look know who made it

kinda - let me have that hot by accessions because highly doubt i get a mention

always got that tension between him and i but wtf , who cares

life is a public affair and i didnt knew how but i know that would take me there

Hollywood thrills

i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad because you the best thing i never had

yeah your eyes are that candy crush , addicted

and your heart is that cotton candy floss , sweet and soft 

do you mind if your my valentine 

 highly doubt but when nobody else around , spin me around ?

i like to blow you kisses maybe it piss off your miss ?
middle finger to the world because im i punk in love  
living that privleage lifestyle , back me up or shut up 
i cant help if im having you wrap around my finger 
know the shit i am deliver , is pretty lit 

Rachel And Ross

he slide in like that Jo bro
protected heart but after that alert
she begin to came around and listen to an other sound
more upbeat and happier then the former chapter
he slide in like that jo bro , be she wore the pants
reject him once because she need a date to the dance
thats the rule , she is kinda old school when it comes to the heart
but somehow he already stuck around , like a song in your head
she was a bit afraid to open up because she just been cut off
but strangly he became the only thing that was familiar in the world of choas
just had to take a break like that Rachel and Ross but everyone know its us
a little pause but you dont break up with friends because of distance ?

dopamine

your eyes are that candy crush , addicted

heart is that cotton candy floss , sweet and soft

you a bit like that gummy bear candy

a mouthful and im always take a handful 

a little bit of pick and mix , some sugar and salt 

you know in my darkest moment im that liquricise 

but in good times im the sugar high , that dopamine 

and living like this is quite a dream because world 

is a freaking candy land 

MEAN GIRLS

one time at twitter a celeb begin to follow me , i was like hell yes
somebody acknowleage my presence and i love how we became friends
thank god for internet because i wore kinda stuck but you made this chapter rock
you know that i dont do chocolate , flowers , candy or hearts
so put your mastercard away , all i do is valentine cards
in form of alerts , every hangout is a date so i count you my first , do you mind ?
there is a reason why im say thank you , next and that is because i had to learn to apprichiate
myself , reject you was the hardest thing to do but i learn that people tend to comeback in their life
maybe if i swipe left wore a sign of time and in time would love somebody else , yourself
i dont see you as a loss , i still remember us as friends , not everyone is cut for love but i liked you never rejected me , you selected me - choose me and i have know im not the best on communicate
with somebody that is so perfect , yeah you tell me a lot of life which i really apprichiate because that is what i search in a mate , somebody who get what im all about
and than my mom come and delete you , i mean who does that ?

clearly inpired haha .

Carrie Bradshaw

i go to the pub to but never buy anything to drink
it make me think im a fool because everyone with some alcohol
look so freaking cool and i look like a wallflower and end up
all i  wanted to somebody to fill me up
become a duo and stop sing all the solos
but then i got a bit used to have all the eyes on me
and if i gonna give them a show , lets bring it on ...
how so desperately i wanted to be a singular
when everyone around me linked up and become a plural
but i never been great at math so i stick at my own path

the wrong track got me to you

never been the girl who felt the pressure of a relationship
the only one friendship i needed is between me and body
... that was i thought until i met this guy , perfect
you came around and knock out my rythmn , just with a hymn
never been a team but suddenly i think somebody got my back
call me out when im done something wrong and heading at wrong track
not even my reletives done that , all they done is cut me out like i wore trash
yeah im the girl who run when i start to feel a heartbeat but i dont wanna keep on run in circles
always be in movement , thought that friendship had a explaination mark but then you touch my heart and i was like what if we become a team , writing sessions because you got some more experiences
you be the mentor and i be the writer - are you cool with that ?

if you cant handle my curves , you cant handle my girls

i wonder with that artist you claim to be
that thought he wore way to good for me
breaking news hun nobody is for this lips
claim to be that x factor but we all know
the real gang is the crew love
the one that will be there in thick and thin
the worst weigh loss i ever had to go through
but then there come this breakthrough
the only thing i have to get rid off wore , you
just a boy , trying to act like a man
but if you  candle my curves
you cant handle me and my girls

ps . check out jesy doc odd one out .

i was like fuck feeling , now i dancing on the ceilings

i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad because you the best thing i never had

yeah your eyes are that candy crush , addicted

and your heart is that cotton candy floss , sweet and soft 

do you mind if your my valentine 

 highly doubt somebody ask me out 

even if you tech not mine 

but in my poems you are 
and that enought for me so lets kick it 
in hangout , dont need to take me out 
we can stay in and chat about this and that 
it would be kinda cool dont you think 
and i know how it sounds
i like to blow you kisses maybe it piss off your miss ?
well i cant help if im having you wrap around my finger 
im just here and minding my own buisness , kick it in my wheelchair
nobody really dare to fuck with me because i got that disability right 
and if somebody get through my comfort zone , is a rare sight 
something new and i know you are a hot shot but so what 
i like that you played it smart - i like how target that dart 
straight to my heart with that alert , yeah that was how you got my heart 
i was like fuck feelings now im dancing on the ceilings 
yeah you give me that rush , kinda like that candy crush 

so as write about valentine now i take inspiration by my fave celebs couples

people that i look up to , help me become better writer and when i had a bad time help me gone through it with there music , so i dont mention their name but some is clearly obvious

the art of breaking a heart

i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad because you the best thing i never had

yeah your eyes are that candy crush , addicted

and your heart is that cotton candy floss , sweet and soft 

do you mind if your my valentine 

 highly doubt somebody ask me out 

even if you tech not mine 

but in my poems you are 
and that enought for me so lets kick it 
in hangout , dont need to take me out 
we can stay in and chat about this and that 
it would be kinda cool dont you think 
and i know how it sound but trust me im not here for kisses
im just here and minding my own buisness 
i can the third wheel if that is more appeal to be honest , it have to me 
something with you is quite similar and i guess we both got the flare for the art 
.... of breaking a heart 

candy crush

i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad because you the best thing i never had

yeah your eyes are that candy crush , addicted

and your heart is that cotton candy floss , sweet and soft 

do you mind if your my valentine 

highly doubt somebody ask me out 

i think you shall take me out in hang out 

i could be your valentine , you could be mine 

just put it universe so cupid can do his work 

or more like , your fingers deliver 

breakfast at tiffanys

you got that brilliant mind and clever as few 

we both know this isnt that kinda love

but there something with you that take me above

put away your mastercard , send me a valentine card 

you know i got this , with all my poems 

candy and chocolate , diamonds and rings 

put them away because i like dms 

so i know i got a tendency to become a bit attach ¨

but i do your privacy respect , yeah you could give me the world 

i remember you offer me that once but i am not strong enough 

for love and romance , so i write about it insead - isnt it sad ? 

i tend to run from people i get close but something with you 

are either driving me mad or become the best thing i never had

chat roulette

back and forth , on and off - have become our song
i would love to something steady but its not how i work
my friendship comes in cycles but its nothing you can , recycle
i come through when i feel like on peak , health wise
and i might come a bit like a suprise but hopefully a good one
all i need somebody to chat with because im not the girl who mess around
people like me tend to be quite sheltered and isolated from the world
but there something with me is a dangerzone but i hope you like i am
the a friendzone

bridget jones diary

i had to find delete you to find myself
but it didnt help much because i cant erase
.... the memories you carved in
wonder if you still recall who i am
if we still on , if we still friends
i think this year is about making mends
with your body , soul and mind
prioritity your self worth and health
and you cant find love in meds
but maybe in friends ?
i try my best to comunicate in text but it easy to get out of context
when you are on a reciepe

i know my heart inside out

there is a reason why i dont let people in

but once in a while there comes that person

who might be able to handle that

i dont want to break your heart

but i know my heart inside and out

and im aware that i cant handle a relationship

platonic , yes and friendship - sign me up

but dont label me yours , this love ours

because some of cant have love even if they want

its not really my fault , lets not put a label on it

we can wing it but please dont

say the words because i am already know

do you think i dont like to say it back

it just i protect my heart , yours and ... everyone you love

you got a heart made of art but your brain is brilliant

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty
that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

remember how we used to be or do does this have gone to your head 

dont be shame to same if it has because i hardly remember who i am 

i could tell by your statue that you one of a kind , your heart wore a art 

but your brain wore brilliant 

put away your wallet , i dont take mastercards ...just valentine cards 

when did it become so complicated to reply , push press send 

but i will probably in april ...

new theme : valantine - i usually write everything in platonic form because im the ultimate friend zone girl ( thirl wheel rock ) so you have to excuse my songs now lol

The Power of A Friend ( when you sick )

the way a body works is quite astonishing

how you pump blood in my heart when it had stop

i know you establishing , well known and house hold name

... i barely know who i am but i respect who your am !

feeling the power of an lover , again - well at least a friend

there a lot of types you can dignose love , platonic or something real

when you got a label like mine being treated like a human being is unreal

the way a heart can treat themself , if you take care of self and find love with yourself

acceptance . you make me everything seem so effortless and i replace my negative thoughs

with a happy laugh , because you purdge my soul of all sadness and now im walking on happiness

and nothing scares me anymore since the day you clean my mind and i left those tantrums in the chatrum , yeah yeah im never really got myself , why im not like everyone else but you made me feel ... comfortable with this - having fits



sorry for the song lol

the runaway bride

we both know this isnt that kinda love 

but there something with you that take me above

put away your mastercard , send me a valentine card 

you know i got this , with all my poems 

candy and chocolate , diamonds and rings 

put them away because i like dms 

never been my thing 

bridal magazine remember me im lonely 

february is the month that screams where is my hubby ? 

having a partner if he is a heartbreaker 

everyone know im the runaway bride 

but i think i want to hang with somebody that treat me like i matter

im not the come up , the hot topic and i should saw you wore problemic

but then again , when it comes to love - nothing is logic 

just a girl who know what i want

are we still on or have go become a .... ghost

i dont leaving things in the past

im not in the best on hold a convarsation

but never thought that you would deliver

this feeling , i know im a wreck - do you still got my back

like i listen to every single of your track , i know i am a bit attach

but nothing in the world is black and white but maybe we can this - right ?

dont know what is a friend if you not smack me in the head

but people hardly do because of my condition like i will drop dead

i dont , im just a girl who know what i want and go for it

MAKE IT RIGHT

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty
that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

we do music that dont make sense , hardly friends 

but you the only thing that click , connect 

and i want you protect because you too bloody perfect 

i dont do the best impressions i admit but at least i commit 

some ups and downs , but this decade i gonna pretend to be a grown up

because is not the fall that make break you , its the comeback 

and we got some making up , i dont get why we start to fight 

all i get that we make it right 

to do because our reunion is long overdue 

Thank Me Later ( like become a character )

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty
that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

something with you made me you better then a poem 

you got that brilliant mind and clever as few 

we both know this isnt that kinda love 

but there something with you that take me above

put away your mastercard , send me a valentine card 

you know i got this , with all my poems 

candy and chocolate , diamonds and rings 

put them away because i like dms 

( getting in mood in valentine haha ) 

DM AND POEM

too young to know what love wore

but you been broken hearts since you was two ?

got that humble mentality and feel empathy 

even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty

that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

but here comes the part i never wanted to be a part of a team 

im the girl who run from heart and probably breaks some on the way doing it 

but i know my part and i play it well , i like to head back to that joint

where you show up but i like the comfort of knowing familiar faces around me

dont really why you gave me your number in the beginning of summer

... i think i will text you before the summer but not in the february

because belong to the hearts month and i know you got a gal

and i know my place , in your face - you carved memories in my heart

now i cant them replace and it all begin with that ... dm 

  

to become a cameo

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?

with eyes like that but all i saw starlight   

the king on the billboard and on the podium

boy at the backstage , cadet in headset 

you got a neon heart and a beating drumset 

i forgot how mine felt but then you made me a cameo

and now my head is a disco  you got that beat 

that remember me how it felt 

to have a heartbeat 

ONE GOOGLE SEARCH AWAY

you are an beautiful distrection
where health have become your priority
that its something bad to have a disability
you become my shelther when everything fall apart
that stability , reguality - no casuality
yeah you know me inside and out
and i can do a google search to know
what you are all about but i wont
because i like the mystery in what we have

ps . i kinda like how you get me like billie eillish brother finneas ( ps . im obsessed with his songwriting to )

a sensitive subject and an hot topic

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty

that shine through the screen , an avatar or a star ?
all wrapped up in a dream ...
there is a reason why i never go for it 

commit
a kiss on the cheek will do than i let you go
i grab the memories hun , thanks for the good time
but i have your heart to decline because you cant get mine
 dont like to become the center of a joke 

if its not me telling it , im a sensitive subject 

and you handle me perfect , like you got it
are we still on , hold me strong
even though im not yours
tell me im a worth a detour for 

something you cant fix

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty

that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream

there is a reason why i never go for it , that everything fall through 

in the last moment but there comes you and slide in on that segway

to save the day and i could tell from that moment who you are 

a friend , not your label or status 

because i saw beyond that star since you me your plus 

i dont like to keep to up with lies but for you , i give it a try ? 

there is a reason why i dont hand my to everyone 

because i dont like to become the center of a joke 

if its not me telling it , im a sensitive subject 

and you handle me perfect , are we still on 

are we tight , are we in a fight or are we fine

i need to know if i should you ... decline

or if the stars in aline 

dont follow the stream if you wanna achieve your dream

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?
got that humble mentality and feel empathy 
even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty

that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

but i can tell you better then i am but you still stay 

most of the people search for love i just want company 

a decade of bordom made me quite lonely, can you be my homie ? 

wishful thinking but some dreams are made to come true , like how i met you 

but i know who you ... am  you are a superstar 

but most at all you got that all girls search for 

she wore crazy for left you and i get why she stayed 

you so damn perfect because you acknowleage who i am 

i know you are dream and whats make a star is not their

ackomplishment , is there passion and heart 

and im sorry if im a bit attach but i just think it make good art 

yeah you the couple i cheer on in secrety because everyone deserve 

love and if its not me , let it be her because everyone need some love 

and im cool with it me not being me , i am just happy you add me 

your qualities is dope and dont ever think that i am mad of you because im not 

because you told me a lot , self care , say no is cool and dont follow the stream 

when you want to achieve your your , dream .... yeah i think its funny how we met 

on the internet , modern tech always have my back like one of your ... track 

what if

sometimes i wonder what if never met this guys
the first one , that made me start my blog
way to catch somebodies attention
ladies dont do that because you will never get a snog
just a hug but look back i didnt really want that
because all you hand me insecuries of my body
and why did you have to label me with epilepsy
when i when i wasnt ready , its all i can think that i am
but then in brighton than i remember how to have fun
george , mile oak , bex , land lady and land lord
james and pete and bridget ,  sam , kev , and marti
this where i learned about acceptance and real friends
and it weird that people you dont think take in contact
will , its quite surreal - 10 years later and that dm ...
can you be starstruck by a friend because i think i am ?


ps .a shout out just and sum of my decade ... sorta

ps . i never wish i never met you guys - because you the best !

if its not me , let it be her ...

too young to know what love wore
but you been broken hearts since you was two ?

got that humble mentality and feel empathy 

even on the distance i can tell you got that sympaty

that shine through the screen , maybe you just a dream 

but i know who you ... am  you are a superstar 

but most at all you got that all girls search for 

she wore crazy for left you and i get why she stayed 

you so damn perfect because you acknowleage who i am 

i know you are dream and whats make a star is not their

ackomplishment , is there passion and heart 

and im sorry if im a bit attach but i just think it make good art 

yeah you the couple i cheer on in secrety because everyone deserve 

love and if its not me , let it be her ...