nothing to fear when you near

you feel sorry but i feel sorry about you
because you never see how happy i am
living for the day , never know if you fall
having a fit and if you will loss people over
just an other tantrum but at least im not pretend
that im not who im dont want to be
took me quite a while to get here and i got 99 problems
i fear , not the dms ,,, scared of the future , what if they dont find a cure
is this it , i guess life been lit - that was what i thought until plotwist
you appear and now i have nothing that i fear