how can you heal yourself with a chronical illness ?

i was healing , but the healing never happen
how can you love somebody else
when you dont are your own priority

how can you heal your body if you got a chronical illness 

im sorry if hadent accept the situation of my condition 

and i know the way im dealing with things might not be the best 

but i choose to invest to myself over anyone else 

is that selfish , maybe but i like to think as you as mine storyline 

the guy that lay out hints and make the plot and not sure how i got caught 

i promise myself when i turned 18 to not fall in love but then you came and fit me like a glove 

it suck because i know my situation and its not right to put people in that position 

so i leave before you have the chance , but maybe we can friends ? 

i like that . 

it would be perfect