if i shared my story ï would loose views

i dediced my life to guys that break my heart
but its nothing i would do than die for my art
i guess it make me a martyr ,
do you get me or think im pathetic ?
for writing about people i cant have ?
but if i shared my story , i would loose views
and all i want to share my side of the truth
demons become angels , angels become demons
strangers become friends and i like this story of ... ours
you make me a better writer , author
and i adopt you as medaphor and mentor