tug of war of feelings

i dont get why they ran but i get why she stay
people made it easy to cut ties
but i dont feel like saying goodbye
feeling cool with being lonely
not the best in others company
my words is a front
but you have me dismantle
the act i was put on , saw through masque
and realize it rain on my parade
but you still stuck around
how much i wore trying to cut you off
like a tug of war of feelings this year
back and forth , on and off
i just want you to know
i dont got friends because i attend hospital visits
not birthday parties and i never been a princess
but you make me feel like a It girl
if only im that chic from the hospital world