when i almost got ghosted

i remember how i always when i almost got ghosted 

drop it low and smash my head , break my moms heart 

when she notice me laying there , rang 911 got help from neighbors

the ambulance came fast but i wore already out of it , would i make it ?

mom sat up by my side and waiting while i went in for surgery 

i remember thinking when i woke up , yet an other injury 

diagnose said brain injury and two  lunginflammations 

i recall how the doctors change my medication 

and i got some kinda seizure when i woke up 

it went on for ages or maybe it wore hours 

truth been told i was only shaking for , seconds 

but i wore like dancing with death  

when you pull me back to earth

and  i am glad you did because i am really happy i you , met

is it weird that i find happiness in hospitals and retirement 

and i am sorry if i write to much about sickness and my illness

but its all i knew - i am not the girl that often fall in love