dont decline a helping hand

all i do is write , make up stories about people i dont know
but here is the plot twist, i can make poems come true because i got you
hit my heart and thats kinda mad thinking of it
have a a list hand me a number and i geuss this mean we are eh , legit ?
like a modern fairytale how you make me feel like hotter then hell
just by that click and i know you off tour but whenever you feel like doing a detour
its cool and bring a friend or ten
im sorry for hype this but i never really expected this
better then a freaking make a wish
 how you slide in to my dm and became a friend
never saw that come but lets have some fun with this
and if i am a no show is because i want is because i cant , priorities with health
and tell i bet your partner will like me , mostly because i am that friends zone
as i am that girl label sick which basically means i am perfect
thats the coolest thing with this how you select somebody to be your friend
when she is about to heaven sent , yeah this friendship is quite crippled
but i also leared with time you should not decline a helping hand

pokemon go

i know my cirqumstenses
is not the perfect sitiuation
to lay the foundation of romance
but i might get a friend and thats my happy end
i know your postition and respect it as you get my situation
you that ying to my yang, that get me in perfect balance
it kinda cool how you make my legs who usually not my friends
give a sense of stability with your humanity
and is it weird that my hands dont function
but you give me the instruction
a manual to how to do
is that pokemon go

strickly come dancing ( in a wheelchair )

you the coolest person i ever met

on internet and it quite a lot profile 

that on the social so when you slide into mine 

i must been out of my mind for you to decline 

it just i got a bit starstruck at first but now i see

you just a human like me 

maybe people comes along for a reason or a sesson 

but somehow you became my writing session 

and i want to erase all the other chapters 

because this is pure happiness 

and i still recall how you transform me 

from that hospital gown to became a dancing princess 

in wheelchair but when the needle drop i can stand up

is like you give me that energy bar 

and that is the power of an superstar 

you can make me levitate even if i cant dance 

because my legs strickly not my friends 

and my hands dont work my way 

but i learned with time 

....lets do it MY WAY 

bombshell in hospital gown

you are too cool that is kinda cruel

got that personality that realize its all about humanity

kill my illness with your kindness

make me feel like an disney princess

put that Hollywood magic on me and make fly

go from ride to die to suit and tie

transform my skin to an attire , uniform

something that is in the norm

because i dont like to stand out

for the reason i do

 think you shall know if you only change one girl with your songs

instead of feeling like a mistake and heartbreak in coming

you made me feel like a bombshell in that hospital gown



( this song is everything ) the lyrics , beats ... yeah its one of my favorite from tim album

off the record

remember when i got that like it must been 1 year ago on the day
and i was like what a fuck i dont get notification by anyone
so how this one find me and should i add him ?
a bit of chat and chit with him and his friend
that also an add to me send on hangout
and i was like this dont make sense
i hardly have real friends but then i go and get people in high places
havent had friends since eight so didnt really recall how to be a mate
and HE IS SO COOL ITS CRUEL goes way out of control
a bit out of track but then he lay the track
and they say everything good does comeback
so did you , one , twice and like then ...
and i think i got a friend

you so cool its cruel because you make everything i say sound like a fool

you so cool its cruel
but you the kill m my illness with kindness
transform me to that hospital princess
sparkle that hollywood magic
over and slowely i feel myself recover
get my confidence back and get on track
like you do with your music , sample and beats
i just do it with hospital visits . fall . recover and repeat
and i think its kinda immitating by your apperance
but than i realize you cant judge the surface
it just you so cool it cruel and you make me sound like a fool
and i cant imagine i got likes by my fave idol
im sorry if i got a bit starstruck but now i see you as person
hopefully you dont see me just as a condition


( i got a lot idols but you defo one of my fave since that day lol )

and i do count you as friend .

i dont name drop for privacy reasons and person reason but i geuss i am obvious ? )

the pacemaker

you make me heart go out sync so much i have to operate a pacemaker

to stimulate it, to prevent a fit and its kinda funny that you gave me that heart

when i am been liking you from far since you wore this a big superstar

and its a bit ridiculous just by thinking of how much energy

and since that chat, i have been getting a power bar

filled with up the tank and i hope you do know what people you mean

that people like me who rarely get their dreams come true

it can be a small thing, an action but life have a funny way to connect

and it tells a lot about your mind, morals and intellect

how you reach out to a girl that is sick and basically on the way to extinguish

i guess it was i like most about you and why i have decide to make you my friend

know i tend to romance this plot line but seriously is to good to deny

off all the guys that have applied

to become my friend no one stick around but you seem to do

when they know the true, say they stay but it was all lied

but i decide to became to give you a chance

what is the worst that can happen

because all i want to be friends

an i guess you to ?



ps . we both know who this is about and i feel bad for not texting but i will its just im very insecure an dont really let people in because i dont want to hurt them if they know about my condition but then i realize i am not with a condition in this world lol , and i kinda ship this friendship and think its worthy to keep and think if somebody give you a number i should probably call back . i hope you take this apology to your heart like i did with your alert x



also i have really weird titles on my poems . lol

i bet my heart we friends

i got a hold on a good feeling 

one of those that make you dance 

on the ceiling but don't confuse it with romance 

that kind that transforms my wheelchair to a Bently 

but please treat my heart, gently 

don't go and tear it apart because i didn't really know

 i had one from the start but don't confuse this with love

i got this good feeling, nothing makes sense an I bet my heart 

we friends, appear out of the blue and when i conquer my fear 

i will come through and i just feel a bit awkward in this hospital gown i wear 

i mean you look so cool that is kinda cruel 

for a girl like me who only exist in hospital environment

but then you came through with that pm and went into heaven sent 

i might not be a hollywood princess but i am a rolemodel in wheelchair

and since that day all songs have become ours and my poems become quite lame

but its my reality - life as sick and its kinda " sick " you went from consider yourself weak 

to hospital chic , just by one simple click x 

and this is how you change my life . 

clever news

nothing is more attractive

than a girl with a brain

that choose words before the appearance

intelligence

got that passion and spite fire

not afraid to tell the truth

even if it hurt

knowledge and love to spin the verb

to embrace your brain is a powerful thing

because than you can fall in lovin

cleverness

and realize life is not all about having the prettiest dress

american pie

i wear that white coat , wrapped tight
you tell me im a soar sight
for the eye and i be like cringy, maybe a bit needy
but we both know the truth about us
you got that jag and i got that ambulance on speed dial
and i highly selective who pick to star in my poem
but somehow you became that one with the dm
yes , i wear the hospital gown and you suit and tie
but together we better then American Pie

heavenly heights

i am a living earthquake and my hands cant stop shake

i love to dance but my legs are not my friends

every night i feel the nerves in this body become twisting

like tongue kissing except it, not a pleasure

knowing you live with a chronical illness

being known as the hospital princess

you really dont have high expectations on life

so if you did something right with yours

knew when you send that dm

you brought some happiness

and made me your hospital princess

for life , the dancing queen that chair bound

but somehow you gave me drop, and beat

 that make me safe and sound

that even get up and dance , get lost in the trance

if only for some minutes but for me its all

you bring me to heavenly heights and all i see is neonlight

and thats pretty cool how you make me in the center piece

and put the spot light on me , for once

because all i known as the girl in the hospital gown

stockholm syndrome

you might be a prince charming, king of the backstage
I might be the princess of heartbreak and queen of hospital visits
and sorry if i got a bit hard to commit it doesn't mean it legit
recall that request like yesterday since that day you become a frequent guest
in my poems because you gave me something to write about with your DMS
dont know what we are because i got a feeling that i just made friends with a superstar
when all saw you as top of the pop and king of trl but know i understand you are a real
human and its insane the only number i got is from you because i always been a fan
from the beginning and now i see you as a person, human with the most gorgeous heart
and seem to be very smart and knowledgeable and since the day you find your way
in the dm with your words that is better than my poetry ever been i pinching myself
if you are a dream, you better than those made up from the silver screen ?
and i know i been trying to push you away but i guess i am scared for the reason what if this is turn out to be more than a season, never realize you wore a blessing in a disquise and i couldnt make up this lies but there is a saying everything good comes back to you and i guess it true
because so did you

legency of us

i got the feeling that this friendship i mutual 

because i guess you dont hand out your number to any regular

and it make me feel quite special, like i am that on of a kind

and sorry if i haven't text but dont make me thank you next 

but when you queen of hospital visit , you dont really think you get a like from a " it " 

and it still mindblow how you can like somebody in hospital gown before those other cool chics 

maybe you see i am diffrent towards those plastics    '

i heard about in Hollywood and actully got some real problem or you actually do like me as a person 

see me as a human being and not a condition 

whatever it is , you my make a wish i never thought i needed but somewhere when you down

you know how to make this hospital girl transform 

from a being on the outside to become on the inside

because now i realize you accept me as a human being 

and i will give you the same decency and honor your legacy 

with leave you nameless and we going down in history

that the fault is in our stars kind and i still cant belive the beauty of a mind 

like yours that is willing to give a helping hand to a life like ours ? 

and i am gonna call back, i am just a bit shy because you that fly , but i am working on it 

you got your position and i got my situation but it doesn't mean you can be distance friends ?

right and i cant believe you are the only guy that ever have my heart a send 

thats major . 

its

i got the feeling that this friendship i mutual 

because i guess you dont hand out your number to any regular

and it make me feel quite special, like i am that on of a kind

and sorry if i haven't text but dont make me thank you next 

but when you queen of hospital visit , you dont really think you get a like from a " it " 

and it still mind blow how you can like somebody in hospital gown before those other cool chics 

maybe you see i am diffrent towards those plastics    '

i heard about in hollywood and actully got some real problem or you actually do like me as a person 

see me as a human being and not an condition 

whatever it is , you my make a wish 

that i never saw come and nothing of this make sense 

i think we shall be friends because everyone deserve a happy end 

even a sick girl and you is mine - hope you don't decline? 

( ps . i will call it just i am very shy and awkward when I speak so i do text best ) 

i just encourage myself. like pumping myself up lol i am such a dork . its not very cool being a girl with a condition that is severe but positive, i get likes from the most unsuspected people ever 

unidintifited object

the way you came into like an unidentified object into my dm

hit that heart alert with a like and I wore like over the moon

when i just got liked and i was like heart , hold on this gonna be a bumby ride

and i probably never come down and end up in a hospital gown

a bit starstruck at first but then i realize you just a human as me

disguised as a knight you came across me in the moonlight

and i was like code red because i probably will end

up in hospital bed and i tried to protect your heart

so you wouldn't be hurt by the truth

but some people tend to come back to you for a reason

and i love that you became back, not once , not twice

 even when you Heard about my problems



ps , love this song and Music video .

everyday is for the future

i feel the comfort that heaven is our neighbor

the sky is full of legend when everything ends

the moon is our witness when we put everything on a 16 year old girl

to save this world with and sickness and basically it sickens me

how we treat her , shame and blame when all she want to inform

its discrimination on so many forms

age , gender, and condition

but than again do piss off an teen that been taken away her childhoods dream

hope and future

i should know because i had once dreams about having a cure

not anymore, i dont have a lot of dreams about a lot except getting treated by respect

and i would think the real life longstocking

would get the same kinda decency of adults

dont mocking her for stand up the passion she believe, fire and love

all she want to save our world and she even got a former travel blogger to reform

become more everyday is for the future because we have to find a cure

for our planet , our home - the only one we got

the cure for chronical loneliness

i wore just laying in my hospital bed

minding my own business

feeling bad about myself when I got that dm

when i become your fave hospital princess

watching how the dust became stardust

when you slide into my life like a knight, right?

just rolled around the hospital ward when you hit my heart

with that alert

so happy i already sat down in that wheelchair

because you spin me around when i heard that notification sound

its kinda weird how we came to met , on internet

because you the backstage king and i am the queen of hospital visits

does this mean we one of those it

- couple , that always end up in trouble?

i dont think so because i think people came through your life for a lesson

didn't know you would stick out for more than a season

and i really count you as a blessing

because i discover how to be a human being

not only condition

and that i always be grateful for because somehow you became the cure

for chronical loneliness, if that makes sense?

respect

had to protect my heart to protect my health 

hope you be man enough to understand 

might be a bit insecure about my future 

and all I want a friend 

that ride to die-type never thought you came around dressed in a suit an tie 

I know your position is fragile but so is my situation 

but let's handle this discreetly, low key but you seem that type 

that know I am in for a hell of a fight and understand I wouldn't act because you the person I do 

respect 

dont cancel my friendship

i was living my best life when you came and interfered with your flex
had that hot girl summer  that turnned summer time blues after that text
and you still stuck in my head
was it something i did , should have do or said
remember how you gave that number but i didnt got the hint
i find sign in captions and stars
but i get we are friends and i keep it low key
because i heard that is the key
even sign the NDA
and if you wanted my print in dna
i would be your bloodtype
that girl your partner will approve
because i don't seek love
more friendship but i really didnt thought i would get it
from the above
trying to the curage call or text dont want to be a thank you next
when it comes to friends because i have way to many left me along the road
but you dont seem like a toad, you seem like a freaking dream
come true so please don cancel me ?
just because of my shyness or because i am a hospital princess

how you become that one i let in

 you make me happy, a bit normal

which is strange because of everything with this 

abnormal 

which is kinda weird because of your position

and my situation 

but the thought of having somebody that like 

that platonic type 

doesn't scare me like it used to, is like i can tell my inner secrets 

and I probably will that regret but its like creep under my skin

deeper than my epilepsy ever been

... its kinda weird how somebody can make you feel like living 

i guess that is the power of love and i guess that is that you bringing 

no cure for a break up

falling for him would be a mistake

knew the rules , which ones not to break

letting him know would be my fault

we all trying our best

but we the other partner don't invest

everyone has to give and take 

but its a bit harder for me to invest 

in friendship as i am aware my of my future

when there is no cure for a breakup

just a plaster but you just met your master 

because  if somebody gonna break my heart 

it me , as i am the definition of a heartbreak

in making, that trouble maker and could care less 

about love because am that princess in hospital dress 

to be clear , just inspired about social media .

patience

I am a fraud when it comes to being a human being

not an expert in every mean but you make me feel like a dream

you so perfect I am scared to make contact, too afraid for being reject 

but I give it a shot because I want to know what friendship is about?

I hope you take my apology to heart like i did with the alert because

I am known as bite my lip but I guess I think this worth to, keep?

it just I am a bit insecure about my condition but lately, i got a new self-reflection

 ....  more about the self-love and acceptance 

but just be patience 

I will call is not like you you got lost in my DMS 

its just me being shook how we became friends 

elevate this blog a bit

about that note, you wrote 

in the form of pm and wore a beginning of something beautiful

that made me realize life wore for the living, not dead 

it wore quite a bumpy road and I been kissed by toads of loads

equal one and getting over him wasn't that fun 

it took me like ten years of standing in the backstage 

but know I am aftershow, where the shit goes down 

realizing you can be uptown 

in a hospital gown 

and it must suck for you seeing me hanging out Ibiza rocks 

instead at working my ass off because i know you make a laughing stuff 

back in the days but now i sip champagne instead of beer 

and could care less if you reject me as i just got embraced by my fave idols 

since i wore like 2009 and that better than a kiss 

even it wore from you , sorry boo 

tongue twister

you say you like my name
honestly i always hate it
but now i learn to love it
since you said it
i like the way pronounce my name
how your ä roll of your tongue
and you say it all wrong
it make me smile a bit
when you said ít in that tweet

diamond carat tiffany

as the heaven lay over us like a blanket
the stars come out, twinkle
like that diamond carat tiffany
style and face is hard to replace
I think isn't life heavenly
how you can meet people of an accident
how people can make you feel like them
and you can become to heaven sent
just by a like
the feeling you get when people like something you write
somebody like you is to good to be true
but yet you do and not even my reletives like my poem
but you seem to like em because you said it with that dm

fan girl

all i can remember the guy that actually like my poems 

that actually follow me on twitter and sen me dms 

send him his number but i wore saving myself 

and was like protecting him so i wore like call you in the end of the summer 

the summer have has end and its not like i want him more then a friend 

boys tend to twist this up but its just .... priorities 

and insecuries 

i bet you got them to but that dem made me to heaven sent 

i will get over them i just freaked out because you that 

IDOL and the fact i actually can make my poems come true 

like when you tap that heart in a form of alert 

since that they it will be forever me and you 

because this fandom is my kingdom 

but it clear to say i became 

a bit starstruck that some of your caliber of fame 

liked and found me here, thats kinda rare 

( no name no shame ) 

Beards

its been a long road,  kissed some toad but met a knight

and a lot of hiccups and million break ups but this one i wont fuck up

it just takes a bit courage because look at me, i am low key mess

disguised as a hospital princess,  don't treat me like a patience

just be a bit patient because i really can need a helping hand

to guide me through, when life is dark and i fall apart

for like million time. dont put down

just because im wearing that hospital gown

because lets face it i disearve a crown

just for showing up

everyone know it - just not eager to say it

but this is a shout out those who do

this is a shout out to you

who lift me up

and not make an girl from the hospital world

feel less important, no you put her in yours

even if you on tour

not even my friends, make me feel like that

which is weird and they suppose to be my beards

but clearly you get more points of being a decent human

and you dont even know me

EKG

i don't like get dressed up in hospital gown

take my tabs, they like 120 medication

and i have forgotten the day when i became

my condition

i paint up lies, but you are not one of those guys

the only proof i of us is a number

and if somebody want it from me they have to scan my brain

because i am not giving, willingly

but you make me feel like a million bucks and dont care about how i looks

and i love how i can read your signs like the stars wore aline

how you make me feel fine

when i am crumbling and my whole world is chaos

is like you push on pause

and make me for a second

become better when i listen to that record

yeah i dont like child hood past and cant watch videos of myself

maybe because i know i lost myself

back in the day

 and couldnt save myself

for what about to come

but i love the fact i finallly found a home

within myself and being able to love myself

hope make me cope

your heart is neon, shine brighter than a star 

sparkle than a diamond and clever than an almond 

the confidence booze I need better than caffeine

just the thought of you give me that adrenaline 

pumping, heart jumping and you make me wanna become a better me 

kill the old so you can be on the new one, sold 

we probably never meet or anything but never say never 

but i like the word what if and hope is the best gift
a person can give to somebody like me

just woke up from my slumber to recover

it wore like i woke up from slumber, recover
when you hit that like with a heart in a form of an alert
and i know it wore just a like but when you being that hospital type
the most of your days doesnt goes your ways and is it right to say...
there you came to to make me feel special, one of a kind?
always felt like i wore to an low key mess
in a hospital dress
but there you came along with that heart, alert
take my pulse when everything is chaos
and i know i will rise
again
havent had a friend since i wore like hm, ten
but can you be my penfriend ?
share mixtapes and poems
and  dms
you can tell your girl i am the best girl to befriend
because i never wont act because of respect
and also i know my situation and wouldnt put you in it
but you sorta prevent my fit
and i figure if you get a number from somebody then they cool
i just gonna try to find the curage to it dial
because you kinda ... eh cool ?
and so are your girl

miracle cure

this is a miracle cure. blessed 

that you to me once, twice no ten times 

messed, but I know we just friends 

you got your own things and i got my shit 

but sometimes i am put you on repeat 

because i need you to come through 

you that calmness in the storm

the intellectual crush and maybe i am a bit much 

but girls like me never act of respect 

because we the sick girl but sometime we want some 

love, never really thought i would get it from the above

brighter then a star

forever in the feeling,
you always get me high
like I am dancing on the ceiling
try to replace to your face
but its kinda hard
when you shine brighter than a star
happiness is better than being on a down
you make me forget I am a hospital gown
and I know my place, in your face
but this is how I roll ( out of control )
dont really care how it comes through
because we both know the true
and lets face it this dont happen girls like me
so yeah, you made a sick girl feel like a miracle
and thats quite incredible

( so i try to be so raw , honest and truthful in my poems because i really want to publish a book based on my life ) hope you like them but seems like you do haha .

ps . i love zaras music videos in general. i try to find some common sense with the poem i write usually but i lack fantasy right now .

game boy

 boy , the first time i saw you 

i knew you when i saw you 

i wanna play that body 

like you wore sony 

but i now my limit 

cant let you have it 

you that mario type 

and you know excatly what i like 

turn your body into a fort 

because you give me that comfort 

i am that princess peach, out of reach

but somehow i feel this is real 

walking dead

walking hand and hand with death I sure could need a friend
never suspect it would it be you that made me appreciate life?
when you always been known as the hospital chic you don't really feel that chic
but in a form alert, you came around and it made me more safe and sound
isn't it funny how one person can make you change your priorities
go from walking dead, being that dead dont die and recover ...
just by a bump on your chest and you out of that slumber

countryside

when everybody leaves, I got a feeling you here to stay

we used to thick as thief and now we crumble as leave 

you go I want to follow but you cut me out

and we in the ring of fire, that burning desire

of finding a way back but that house built of a liar

even the stars can see it this isn't love

yeah you never fit me like a glove

but yet i cant seem to forget

what you done because once you wore my home

we wore thick and thieves, set in stone

and now i cant wait until you leave me alone

those cows they witness the jealousy

the love my nan had for me, not you

so green that you made envy

on you and you could paint the sky with your mood

because you always went around with that summertimes blues






( this is about my : reletivies )

you good for my health

you are the new addiction that makes me strive to higher heights
that obsession that lit the light for my fire and passion
and of the world's weights
you make me forget about my condition, that's the impact you got
yeah, you good for my health and well being
because you make me feel like an human
and not like an condition

x-files

i recall the first time when we broke up

but now i realize you the town i will always hook up

with, i was like we so over and ran for the hills

just to glance over my shoulder

and you wore my agent Moulder

that protect me from every big bully

as i wore your little Scully

that came to invide my heart again

now and then and suddenly you became a friend

not a another teen movie

all she has been known as the girl in the hospital gown

but suddenly she becomes of the queen of the ball

when he clicks that like she becomes chic 

when she transforms to that party girl

from being that dull, hospital doll out of control

when he cames around and in the form of a sound

from being known as the girl at a hospital 

and she becomes that chic, its quite a cinderella story

how the boy wins the  girl's friendship over the net 

just by likes and chats, talk about this and that

so this is the story about how to become less

known as the girl as the hospital dress

and become more known as the one who find the perfect party dress 

attire for a showdown but never really knowing what's going down 

became the girl of the town, wearing her broken crown

proud and confident like it wore always meant