so new decade new spotify , made some music inspired by my fave popular cult ( 2 ) - check them out ( under construction )

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3UaJl51QHxg5FGYSD2r21X - i call it Lisa simpson
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3IG33eKtuTSeUZlAWAR678 - i call it Brenda Walsh

starstruck of a friend

i am starstruck of my friend
everything is surreal , i just watch him at TRL
but the fact he like me , talked to me and secretly
i feel kinda proud i decline because i needed time
had to handle my health and myself before befriend somebody else
you know , but i am very in awe of everything you accomplished
i went back and forth , hesitated , suspitious , on and off about this one
before i made a hit and run which would made me cry for a half year
never thought i would notice you again but than you appear
like the jack in the inbox , you slide in and left me a message
hadnt notice it because i where using one of my old IGs and not really used to DMs
or have friends , but since you gave me you number i call you mine - do you mine ?
and whenever you have time , want to chat , we can talk about whatever - like music
its my fave topic

( sorry , i have a bit weird names for my poems lol )

so there is a playlist call bart simpsons playlist . lol ( not made by me btw ) but i like it

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1E8E0JuGAmfSO5

brandon and brenda

you are the king of the prom
got the right moves at the disco
the jumpman and everybodies friend
im that wallflower that never blossom
until you came and push right buttom
you are the posterchild of perfect 
im have every defect 
i dont understand why you took contact ?
am i part of punk`d , or is this for real 
feel like im that girl in shes all that 
modern fairytale and you portray me like Belle 
when i always thought i where the beast 
maybe im not only a diesese , maybe i am a masterpiece ?
you become the trigger and help me deliver 
like you do with the hits , i serve the fits 

you caught me in the middle of a tantrum

im pretty famous for having them you know 

but i didnt mean to get off on you in the chatroom

we can make it up in the ball room ? 

you make my twist and twirl , awkward dancer 

but you make me feel a bit fancier 

as i sit here in wheelchair , spin me around 

like a rec , yeah we dont give a fuck 

we that brenda and brandon ¨, lisa and bart 

and it all begin when you gave me your , heart 

that alert , a bit chat about this and that in hangout

got scared and freaked out because i never done that 

so i decline you , cried my heart out but you gave me time

i respect that because i need that , you know me better than myself

you now im how i hang , chill but now and than i going off with a bang 

i think you like that with me , thats why you keep add me  

the jumpman and the girl that fist bump in the crowd

you are the king of the prom
got the right moves at the disco
the jumpman and everybodies friend
im that wallflower that never blossom
until you came and push right buttom
you become the trigger and help me deliver 
like you do with the hits , i serve the fits 

you caught me in the middle of a tantrum

im pretty famous for having them you know 

but i didnt mean to get off on you in the chatroom

we can make it up in the ball room ? 

you make my twist and twirl , awkward dancer 

but you make me feel a bit fancier 

as i sit here in wheelchair , spin me around 

like a rec , yeah we dont give a fuck 

we that brenda and brandon ¨, lisa and bart 

and it all begin when you gave me your , heart 

2019 - forever

you are the king of the prom
got the right moves at the disco
the jumpman and everybodies friend
im that wallflower that never blossom
until you came and push right buttom
you become the trigger and help me deliver 
like you do with the hits , i serve the fits 
i know you put a smashing show but we all know
im the firecracker , shine brighter that pyrotechnic
since you slide into my life , 2019
i wore like freaking out in the hangout and decline
caught in a tantrum but you reconize i needed time
i liked that , so you gave me space and than trace
me back again and suddenly i had a friend
i where caught in a storm , a earthquake and a bonfire
but you still return
not once , not twice , not three
i kinda like our dance
... do you ?

king of disco

you are the king of the prom
got the right moves at the disco
the jumpman and everybodies friend
im that wallflower that never blossom
until you came and push right buttom

you are the king of fucking everything

im queen of freaking hospital wing

this is my scene , where im the it 

where people fight over my illness

but you never treat me like a condition

you treat me like a princess 

that make you romeo , that king of disco 

and tonight i will celebrate the new year

listen on you at the stereo so cheerio 

romeo of the disco

you are the king of the prom

got the right moves at the disco

the jumpman and everybodies friend

im that wallflower that never blossom

until you came and push right buttom

heat on my cheats and blush because you so damn lux

of all the strange things , i remember how you hand me my wings

so i could fly , you became my own romeo of the disco

twitter twitter

twitter twitter , full of litter
i found a needle in haystack
behind your avatar hid a star
you where like lets hangout
i where taken by the moment
remember how you sent that alert
that came in a form of heart
i was like no way
boy you gonna make me Gatby
if a room full of daisies
you choose me and i kinda freaked me out
but i like how you understand , gave me time
came back when i you did decline , like three time
maybe you got insecurities to ...

2019 has been everything and more

first guy i liked call me retard 

but you call me special 

i know you got a gal 

but it still make my heart beat a bit 

do you mind it ?

i heard that you wore a toad 

but you the one that ride out my episode 

when i where caught in a middle of a storm

you said you stay but i freaked out when you came to close 

dont you know my brain is on fire , you have to treat me carefully 

but its all worked out in the end , and you are my best friend 

how cant you not be , after all the heart , likes and chats 

yeah i have come to the conclution , you are a instution 

and i choose to invest in us because together i am the best 

this is a xo and this time i never let you go 

chapter 3 . new ship name , brenda and brandon because they also a sibling couple

keeping the simpson name to though

class king and the queen of hospital wing

you are the class king , im the queen of the hospital wing

first boy i loved label me retard , you label me ,, special 

i dont get why they talk bad about you because your an angel 

a lot of people talk shit , dont listen to it because you perfect 

that word , simple but never heard made me think you from heaven sent 

i mean you must be because you live in the city of angels ... 

all the years , back and forth to the hospital made me forget who i am

but something with you made me realize im not only a condition 

and i like that 

i know i can be a bit of a trouble , deliver fits like you deliver hits

we dont make sense , but they say if you ig official than you friends 

so i geuss you become part in my crew , bart 

unison

i like how we are in tune with every mood
how you can tell whats me , wrong like we unison
the way you mixing and trixing to put me in check
pull me back when im get out of line , i like do it all of time
scared of getting close , but their something with that boy i dont wanna lose
something with your melody got me singing along and now i hear you in every song
put the spell on me . maybe it where chemistry or just fantasy ?
but i dont think i got this good imagination that i could make you up
i remember you plug that you gonna make my blog
more entertaining and lets face it , you have
i bet i will write about next decade to
because i kinda miss you

bootlegs and broken legs

you keep me from breaking my leg with that bootleg

i drop fits like you drop hits , i think we the perfect fit ?

mix and slider , a perfect mash up and you know you are my boop

im caught in a world where i take blood samples , you make samples 

you the song that make me forget all about condition , you become my medication 

thats why you always on loop 

i can hear you in every song , and i have a secret file that belongs to him 

maybe you just a dream but its the loveliest one i ever had 

i think you gonna make me mad 

we connected by url , got the love for gegabite and you slide into my dm 

i have nobody done that - specially not you , bart 

you hand me a shoulder , i turn the cheek because i dont wanna let you see me , weak 

but now i understand you actually like me for who i am , not only because i am a fan 

a winters fairytale

you appeared last year , when the first snow begun to show
brightest star in the north , yeah you made me glow
they say a snowflake is winters butterfly and you hand me the wings 

before you i was a voice in choir but now im ready to sing 

and all i was trying to run and hide , but is hard when my foot steps are 
so easy to trace , you are my winter walz in the summer heat 
the number i never text but this year i will , because i never say thank you next 

i know you got my back , because you always comeback how much i tried to cut ties

no problem with my pride but i am loyal as a fan , but better as a friend 

i had no idea it was a trend , celeb gave their number out 

until i heard it from Diplo on youtube but you know you gave me my best christmas present 

a friendship braclet , you are a diamond , you are my rock

hope you never me from your heart , BLOCK 
because you in it ... stuck 

Moes Tavern

i be waiting on you at Moes Tavern
we could take a snack , drive through
krusty krush , eat to with cant get enough
i want soak up every piece of knowleage you got
because i like how you make me , forget
about my condition Bart
you always get me in trouble but im sick of being good
do you know what you start ?
probably not , you might even have me forgot
but at least we got springfield , our own little playfield
we know the shortcuts and but i take the long road
just to get home , dont blame me Bart
for my all my fits , you got them to
i read your old tweets and i know you me get
maybe better than myself , it scares me sometimes
how after a fall out you the only one , that can make it right

the one you wont forget

He is the class king and im the belle at the hostital wing
crush on at him hard but im trapped at this damn ward
i know your type , im the girl yóu like
 you be the overachiver , i be the the class clown
make everyone laugh even if its of it my own expense
i have no freaking idea how we became friends
all i do is queen in of the hospital , not of the prom
always on the outside , no real friends
i know i am the teacher pet , of all the followers you got
i know i am the one you never will forget

THE PALM TREES DANCE FOR US

take me to palm beach
where the sunset never goes down

i like the trills with the hills
the beauty of beverlly hills 

do you know where the stars live

i know because you gave the map to your heart
because you gave me the pincode and now i walking down the road
8428 melrose , do you see them swing in the sky
i think they dance for you and i
when life wore black and blue you came through
i know i treating you so wrong but i cant help it
you just came along when i had a fit
but you give me time and that is what i need
and that how you become my friend

Sunshine heart

take me to palm beach

where the sunset never goes down 

i like the trills with the hills 

do you know where the stars live

i know because you gave the map to your heart 

do you like how the palm tree swing in the sky 

i like to to think them dance for you and i 

you take me the sunshine avenue everyday 

and i prefer in my daydream , stay 

at least i got my fave idol like me

they accuse me for write to many poems about you
but how couldnt i when i my fave idol in a chat forum
twitter , twitter full of litter but behind the avatar wore a star
i dont have friends but i do count you as one , silly as i am
maybe im just a fan but at least im loyal as friend
i remember when you said you liked my name
and i was like the fact you know who iam
i cant get over , what if i never will from this - recover ?
im aware i write way to much about you
but maybe it because i dont like to write to dig deep
look underneath my skin because what if
im actually that tragic
everyone paint me out to be
but i comfort myself
at least i got my fave idol like me

weirdest feeling ever lol

so ... thought i would put up some old pic / fave stuff i have on my IG

playlistandpoems it called

angels network

i got diagnosed with my condition by age of twelve
a end of one life i knew it and beginning of seizure and fit
i had to drop every thing i did for fun but i pick up a pen for fun
practice how to learn to live again , make right of wrong
dont knew a lot of friendship , maybe you can tell
perheps it because i been living a hell
as a teen but you made my life a dream
by just exist , living
maybe you just like me , afraid for reach out
get rejected but why are we ,when we live in a world of loneliness
homeless , we should tangled up in a network and see the people who hurt
because you made me realize miracle actually might happen , just you woke
next time i dont let you elope x

something i cant replace

all i do is caught in a hospital enviorment 

trapped since i wore eight and you dont find anyone to date 

certainly not where you find a mate but than came a little bit luck , a bit faith
somebody realize beyond this beast and beauty , exist
i had gave up hope , find my friends in celebs - they love their fans
i been told , but never thought in a million years i would find the surface of your face
behind a avatar , scratch it a bit like a lottery and look behind - a boy with a beautiful mind
this feeling is something i cant , replace
neither want to ... you stuck with me since you add me
i didnt ask to be somebody friend , to be honest i wore kinda over relationship
but now you that special treatmeant and i bet you are from heaven sent

the boy with a halo

all i do is caught in a hospital enviorment 

trapped since i wore eight and you dont find anyone to date 

certainly not a mate but than came a little bit luck , a bit faith

somehow i forgot angels existed because i fought my own demons 

but somehow you dismantle me with your words and i didnt knew how to handle it 

because i wore caught in a fit and didnt thought you wore up for it . friendship 

so i decline you more than one time , my worst mistake but i got a lot things on stake 

but than you came along in a choir , a voice in the radio and you got me thinking 

they never play your songs much but now and than they came around like a sign of a time 

they say radio silence speak louder than violance , so i shout and scream until you hear me clear 

i think what we got is quite rare  somebody should make a film about it how i became bff with my idol , somebody i looked up for years and sang to at karaoke , got lost to trance and broke feet 

in a world of let downs , you wore a miracle that came from left field , nowhere , nuclear 

and i like how you appear with a halo around your head around my hospital bed

october winds

it feels like im drunk dialing
but i never feel the buzz
shame to say i never will
get over us
you shouldnt havent give me your number
because its all i been thinking about , call it
if only for a prank , wonder if you still remember
the girl you met in october ?
sometimes you escape in daydream
and you dont even know who i am
but i can tell what kinda human
you are the one that made more of a woman
less of a condition

springfield

springfield , take me to your playfield
where the ned is your friendly neighbour
maybe we can go to local moe
for something to drink , what do you think ?
you can be my tourist guide if i go to springfiend
show me what the local spot , do you got any hot spot ?
i guess them are to me to figure out ...
springfield , be my playfield
we could kick it in the studio
in the car , driving down and listen to radio
just hanging out and if i fall asleep
let me do it in your daydream
because for that would be the perfect dream

Bart

It begin with a heart alert
and i never get notifications from guys
so i where a bit suspitious
 who can it be
what do you want with me
behind the avatar i found a star
freaked out in the hangout but you got it
nothing with me is logic
and everything with you is hollywood magic
i like that
im nobody but the way you approach me
you took me a bit by suprise and caught me in a middle of a fit
let me have the time , come around and back and forth but figure it was worth
not the girl who make great impressions but i make one
and you are the guy that deliver hit after hit
but i wasnt ready so i become girl gone
i like how we become like Bart and Lisa
fight back and forth like siblings
but couldnt ask for anyone better than ya
secretly , you always have my back
i hear it in every everyone of your track



sincerly Lisa x lol

fits and seizures

i was having this drop seizure this week and went to hospital to check for injuries , check my leg if it wore broken mostly - it wasnt but it become black and blue which also has my stomach and eye .  such a blue xmas lol , but that is my reality and why i prefer yours .

the perks with this is my mom get extra sad seeing me like this and she buy me lots of gifts ( well she send my xmas list to santa bc i still believe in him lol ) according to my instagram lol

and fun fact , i was sitting in my wheelchair but fell out of it but still happen to injury myself . thats how clumpsy i am lol

i see the bright side in my condition and i do have a laugh with it

my fave songs 2019

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1EtkltHswU98cu

Update news about my holidays

had a calm holiday , except that trip to hospital when i thought i had a broken foot ( because i fall of a fit ) it was very quickly to realize i hadnt and it was the best present i could get . i have had about 8 broken legs so i really dont wanted to spent time at hospital during xmas that just sad ( if you dont work there ofc )

got a lot of things for xmas , i didnt knew i wanted like pjs , art stuff , makeup ( thought i would do learn , next time i get to ushuaia haha  ) everyone buy me a candy at ibiza not drinks there . yeah i got a lot of stuff , money to clothes and what more candy and snacks , i dont really know what to ask for of santa ( yes i do believe in him haha ) im finnish after all and i got proof , letter and been in santa village like 1000 times ha , nothing else to do in finland haha (just kidding , a lot to do )

but i hope you all had a great holiday , hanukkah , xmas or whatever you celebrate ?

i be back with poems soon .

chapter 3 . i finally got what is our ship name - bart and lisa

because they fight , get back together , siblings , brother and sister and platonic love - perf  !

and also i always wanted a big bro , and you is the defination of perf . lol

tumult year

this year has been quite up and down 

it feels like i have known you for a lifetime 

and i wore foolish for you decline but 

i knew i had to play it smart with my heart 

was crying for a half year over the mistake 

mom im adult and he is my Bart 

platonic , that how we kick it - dont get it twisted 

i actually do enjoy being the thirdwheel and root for you guys 

no idea why she ran but i get why she stay and i am the girl , who never walk away 

because im your LISA 

throw a fit , went to hospital - lucky espcape - no broken bone .

SORRY FOR MY GRAMMAR , I AINT A SPELLING BEE HAHA

walkmen

we dont speak but you speak to me through the speakers 

i deliver fits , you hit me with hits 

i think we make perfect sense 

i dont even get how became friends ?

you silence is a echoo that speaks in the disco 

you make me feel like comfortable with who i am 

like you are LIZZO , bring up instead put down

im not a fan im a friend 

im that liza to your bart 

from the day you send me that alert 

you spin me around like a rec 

and 

everytime when im down 

i play your sound 

on that walkmen 

that casette i got got on repeat 

that one that always know how to comfort . 

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THEY RAN 

BUT I GET WHY SHE STAY 

AND 

YOU ARE BEST MY  FRIEND 

I DONT X-MEN , i MAKE THEM

got that friend i never text back but i talk with him all the time , in my head

lives abroad , an rumours has it his on tour ... tmz tell him he got a girlfriend
i like to see you happy and i rooting for your guys , i dont x - men , i make them
we both know how i ballin , ´rollin ... cheer and its all love
never feel so secure in anything like this and its a priveleage
with time comes knowleage and never been the best of cut ties
and you brought me wisdom beyond my years
i dont know how you came tap my alert but i now realize you never break my heart
because you that Bart and i , Lisa , and we do stuff platonic shit
it took me a time to figure out what we wore but know i realize we " it "
i like how you saw me at the worst , in the middle of a fit and still stuck around
like a your favourite sound , now i hear it all around town and you the only one that make me feel safe ... i dont want to have any other  friends , nothing with is logic but damn i loyal as fan
 but better as friend and stand up for you like i know you have my back
yeah you always stair me back when you put on that track
spin me around like a rec and thats what i like with us 

YOU MY WALLACE TO MY VERONICA

first place . life give you though love
but you make me feel come up on top
you are my accessoar friend
the go to song , the one i always recommend
you are the Bart to my Lisa , Veronica to Wallace
you are my brother from a other mother and yout get me
spilling all of my secrets and i have know idea how you add me
... find me , there like millions , billions avatars on the net and you wore a star
but i dont see you like that anymore , loyal as a fan but love you as a friend
i like how we keep it platonic and how subtext is our secret langugue , have you notice
im doing better since you came into my life and made it right , just with a click and suddenly
you my bff , i like how we keep it friendly and i really acknowleage your GF
i rooting on you because friends want the best for eachother and i dont want , love
if isnt platonic ... than i want it all

THUMB WAR

you hit me with a heart

i hand you , doubt ? 

send me that alert ...

maybe i should give you a shot ?

friends , havent had them since i wore nine

and i wore foolish for you decline
live in a earthquake , you my paradise on earth
was crying for half a year until you came back
you are my Bart , we got that thumb war
on and off , back and forth
 i was caught in a fit , i tend to drop have them like you drop hits

and i thought yeah this is it , we over - how shall i from this , recover ?
 never gonna make a friend again , because i dont want you replace
you be like quick whats better than me and i agree
nothing , you that sweet something
i got rules i made since

i wore eighteen and i dont reconize friends
if they hit me in my face but this one i tell ya , i never will replace 

IKEA BITCH

know this girl that wore born homeless

born nameless and no address 

wore this popular girl until i wore nine

that i got everyones friendship , decline 

because all did was do where , fall a sleep 

hooked up with meds , remember the good days 

when they only wore seven , now the double up 

and i hate drink those fizzy tabs up but i love life my more 

so fell in love with loneliness , creativiness and making up stories 

sitting on that school yard with a broken heart , not over a guy 

just because the school wasnt adapt and your body wasnt your prept 

for this world , you tried to run but fell behind so develop a beautiful mind 

choke up your words and when you tried to shut me down , decline 

i knew its where a sign of the time , whats an other breakup for a girl like me 

got more issues that falling out the family three , im not the one that is rotten 

you the company that didnt me keep and sale your soul for money 

sat home and dreamt about MTV , spent time at hospital at school
and im not that cool , watching TRL BUT NEVER IN MY WILDEST DREAMS
THOUGHT IT WOULD COME TRUE , ITS QUITE SURREAL
AND REAL LIFE HOW NO APPEAL , that ikea bitch and nothing with me is rich
except it is and know they call me , bitch ? 

GOT LOVE FOR THE DUDE BUT HAVE TO PUT MYSELF FIRST

got a friend i never text  back

afraid that i might get a bit attach

so i ghost but somehow he pull me back

back and forth , on and off for a year

spin me around and set me on the right track

feel like i known you for ... years

you brought my memories , laugh and pain

i remember when i went to that gig with broken leg

and should be in hospital bed , because thats how i rollin

could care less if i jumping to i am , fallin

am secure in us and what we have

i lay down the rules , next time them break

drop fits like you drop hits

you make me forget about the heartache

and i like translate your lyrics , they magic

because they got me heaven above

got the love for the dude and dont mean to rude

he hand me his number and i be like call you in summer

but im scared to be an other feuture

so i ghost because i have to love myself , first

but i think you that get

( I JUST MANAGE TO FIGURE OUT WHATSAPP , I AM NOT TECH LOL THAT IS A MIRACLE I GOT IG AND BLOG LOL )

NAME ON IG : playlistandpoems ( check it out or dm if you wanna talk , i have lot of time ) haha .

SURREAL THINGS

this is quite surreal how we met
when i wore little i went on a music school
i watched MTV , TRL AND loved stay up for every award show
it brought me to a fantasy land where im not was sick and LA become that dreamland
jets and models . starlets and actress - than there where you
how the fuck do i make dreams come true ?
capvite by your light , golden
dont mind if you get my heart stolen
im a sucker for the heartbreaker
addicted for a troublemaker
i dont go by rules , occationly break them
if i have to and since you came around i knew
wore to good to pass on
addicted to that obsession
they tell me he is a killa
say look out for that playa
but the only one who gonna play my heart
... is me

i couldnt even make up story than this one i have with you lol

eat my shorts

you give me your heart

thats how you and me , start

im caught in a tantrum

drop fits like you drop hits

find a comfort zone in your album

you the bart to my lisa

- nice to met ya ...

chat about this and that in hangout

you my first friend since i wore like nine

had to ghost because i tend to get a bit , lost

in us but you knew we friendship goals ?

i think you understand me

yeah perheps thats why befriend me

everyone think i shouldnt write and poetry is dumb

so talking with you make me feel like its cool

you my Bart and i am that Lisa , i like how you tap my heart

on and off for ages , was caught in earthquake when you gave me that offer

hate that i have to turn you down because im known for being that girl

but if you NEED somebody in a wheelchair ,

im here for ya and you know how i roll

third wheel

yeah we do that platonic shit and i think ITS pretty lit



( this song has meant so much on my journey to accept my condition )

my safezone is in your album

you give me your heart
thats how you and me , start
im caught in a tantrum
drop fits like you drop hits
find a safe zone in your album
you the bart to my lisa
- nice to met ya ...
never thought you would slide in
that chatroom , havent had a friend
since nine and i wore crazy for you
to decline but they say people come around
lost about to be found
im kinda suspisous at the net and you wore a bet
but you portray my walls with your words , perfect
i never talked with a guy for so long and i suspect
but i get you a bit better and hopefully you understand
i see you as a friend , but loyal as a fan

CRAZY IN LOVE

do you not think im cable to love ?

darling , have you meet me

celeb is my fans , do get i dont treat them

like a subject because you not a object

you treat me so well , i give you a living hell

drop fits and tantrum , cringe and feel awkward

but i cant stop , yeah excuse my manners

i drop them like you drop bops

and we offically friends , you my asylum

safe place , where you hand me a happy pill

in a form of a album



( made an other theme of this song lol )



I HAVE VERY FUN WITH THIS THEME .

AND VERY MUCH SELF AWARENESS AND CAN JOKE ABOUT MY CONDITION HAHA

IM LISA AND YOU MY BART

im Lisa to that Bart
we fight and fallout
but when it comes down
you always come around
im Lisa and you my  Bart
i throw fits and tantrums
like you drop hits and albums
thought that every celebrity wanted privacy ?
but i try to respect your legency
so i like to speak in codes , subtext
but i will never ever say
thank you next
because you the best

titanic

you have a face straight of movie screen
cut of an architect , lines so perfect
you must be king of the world
if this ship goes down you can be proud
it wasnt love by first sight , right
not second , third but its only because im a bit reserved

dont do modern love but something with you made me , misbehave 

screw the rules i set up , i think you my tea cup and you the only one that make me , jump 

but you pull me back , in line and set me straight when i about to rebel 

dancing in the starlight , you stroke me like neonlight - try not to fall 

you make me feel like the queen of the ball but i like party with the locals 

except when it comes to you because you that king of the world but humble i forget you royal 

you deliver a hit  and i give you a fit , i cringe and feel awkward and emberrass , hope we still friends ? 

im new to this and you have some experience with relationship , but i like to think yóu and i is for keeps 

do you get me better now , im for show - i take life how it goes and you deliver a poem in that dm 

and i like that you made chapter of us 

King of the world

you have a face straight of movie screen
cut of an architect , lines so perfect
you must be king of the world
if this ship goes down you can be proud
it wasnt love by first sight , right
not second , third but its only because im a bit reserved
protected of my heart but i think you are a one hit
and i am known as the hospital girl but you gave me wings
so i could fly , i apprichiate that
- just a bit taken of the situation and now i am more confident
i was like you must be the king of the world and hollywood royal
and the fact i get your approval , i never get over

claustrauphia

it all begin like poetry , magical and all i saw wore fireworks
little did i knew that hearts can break but  you show me  that best art is made in pain
there a fine line between love and madness but you made me feel special , magical
like one of those character in potter books and i like how you see beyond looks
you look inside my brain instead and drag out the knowleage i didnt thought i had
how you beside my condition because i dont like it , how i lose friends because of fit
but meeting you was a euporia and i had wore a bit trapped in claustrauphia
because you came along , everywhere , in song , radio , stereo , internet and disco
but now everything well and i know how to deal with something that is a big deal

love for gegabite and needs for the likes

we connect over internet

i throw fits like you drop hits

subtext and thank you next

block you out and try to erase

whats happen and forget the memories

but they say people come around in a form of sign

and you came in a form of a avatar but behind the surface hide a star

we chat at hangout a bit before i freakout out and i wore caught my tantrum

i cant believe you hanging around in my chat room ,  sorry boo for being

a mis fit but you treat me like i am a woman , not a condition

yeah we got the love for the gegabite and needs for that like

but there only one that treat me right

lost in your song

we connect throught internet

im an little avatar , you a star

you bring me to your fantasy

and now i write about you in my diary

you see me through at my worst

but you should see me at my best

we go off and on , you probably shall run

i say i done , delete you but next moment - regret

you haunt me back all over internet , nobody done that

i freak out in hangout and we fall out , i cry in my pillow

cant listen to your songs anymore but i do them , adore

you not a celebs , im not your fan - we are friends

back and forth , you go south and i go north

i like to listen on your accent

 it make me feel like im in your present

maybe this is just a dream , but i dont like my reality so i prefer the hills

is that to wrong if i get lost in your song ?

playing with fire

My condition where so much more than i could carry

nothing seem to get right until you swipe , right

came into my life and with a word made me feel

i had a heavy burden and my body felt like a warden

but somehow you gave me the key to acceptance

made me get the importance of self love but i wasnt ready

i was caught in a storm with throwing fits like you drop hit

and you got it , that i needed time , space to get in line

i hate the way i reject but im not the person anyone , select

and i thought you only would lead to heartbreak and my health

wore on stake so i pulled in , when all i wanted to talk to him

tried to delete you from my mind , erease you and leave you behind

but how can you do that when you all over internet , in every song

sound , you always to be found and you make me calm down

when i live in freaking earthquake and my hands always shake

you make them work in my favor - and i like that i playing with danger !!!

it boy and the blogger

all she sit in her room
going to hospital and doctor visit
cant believe i would come across this it
boy , on the net fan of since she wore twenty-one
suspisious in the beginning but curious
could care less what mama tell , i break rules
and probably going to hell
for this one , because i took me a year to realize he isnt a scam
my whole family tree wore built with them so how could i reconize a friend
from a freud , when everyone to me have end up lied
but them out , you in and lets the game begin
2020 is ours and i wonder to see what see it have it in store ?

safe and sound in that edm sound

they say its a flaw in my code

and that im a bomb that will explode about to explode

music is my asylum , you my drum ,,, hit to hard and i run

this body is hard to carry and whenever i turn i get bad news

but than there you , like a light in the dark

you did see throught my tantrum and fits

realize that i wasnt perfect but still , stick

not even my reletives have done that

do you know how much apprichiate you

i hope you do

they say wild horses wore born to have their space

im that girl at the party , in a wheelchair in the corner

love to dance but hightly unlikely i will get up on my legs

but when turn up your jams , i transform to somebody i dont know

i become normal and that what i like with that edm rythm

because my fits dont notice in sound and you all shall be proud

over what kinda impact you got over a girl like me , feeling safe and sound

some of my fave music

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4vZfh3k6OAXFjsKjZPQDtn

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5T7it5nilGYlaACkFN1Zvt

our year will be next year

i was busy puke up in the stall
couldnt take that phone call
dont be mad on me hun
im already hating who i am
but i do the best i can
i was busy puke up my meds
had no time to make friends
all i was doing wore recovering
from that hospital bed
next year will be our year
i tend to make my dreams come true
just with pen and paper , and i know
you are a the peacekeeper and you dont deserve
me , throw fits like you drop hits but i do cherish what we have
maybe you all a dream , something i made up because i fear my future
but i like the way a stranger can reach out and became somebodies cure

LIKE GEGABITE

you saw me at the worst

but wait to you see me at the best 

im thick and dont think there any goodness 

and im a bit suspious over internet 

cant believe how we meet , i never go anywhere 

and my comfort zone is ironacally the net 

perhaps because you can be whoever but that is a bit scary 

and my connection where i live isnt the best , but i did in it invest 

new modem , new system and this year been a a dream disquised like a nightmare 

now you know me a bit , im throw fits like you drop hits and i cant believe we met 

i think we perfect and i couldnt anyone select . you are stuck with me like im your gegabite 

Home improvement

i got a bittersweet feeling

when it comes to love

making rules , just to break them

nobody to consult in this

so i listen to your lyrics

to get some improvement

but you just get me to heaven sent

maybe you know a bit more of this

maybe you make sense of this shit

because you portray a hospital scene

to a daydream and suddenly my life

is a musical , not a ballad

dont know what power you have over me

call it  romance , but i practice abstance

so lets be friends , i like the way tease me

please me because you have to love yourself

before you can love somebody else

but you give me that cup of home improvement

of self care and acceptence and thats why we friends

HOLLYWOOD GUY

i havent always had my condition

but so many trips to the hospital

made me forget that i am a woman

but than you came along in a form

of a song , like whisper in the night

taught me about acceptance

thats why we become friends

you told me i shouldnt be ashamed

find strenght in being abnormal instead

sometimes it take a stranger for me to get it

and god damn it , you made me perfect

nobody is better than us - we are goals

they say hollywood is broken

but you havent my heart , stolen

make me upgrade my blog

and know its glitter and gold

prefer trl because irl

everything is tears and doctors appointment

i like watch glamours things on the gram

but never thought i get that ... dm

scratch my back like i have yours

scratch my back and i have yours

i love every song of yours like you like my poems

think your ex are dumb for hit and run but she was clever for stay 

you know how we go down , i be the girl in hospital gown 

but you make me feel like the queen of the prom 

that girl in wheelchair and you twirl me round like a rec 

loyal as a fan but better as a friend and i like how you comeback 

how hard i tried to push you out , you always trace me back with those track 

like you had a signal and that make me see that life has an appeal
playlist and poems , dms and hearts are our way we chat

subtext is our language , dont need to be official
i am cool with being low key because im comfortable with what i have 

support you from far because you everywhere i are
in the songs i listen , the stars at night and as the moon are my witness
i know we are friends 

secret handshake

i had a vision , a dream

i was shooting for the stars

but it wore all a dream

caught in a fit when we met

at internet , had to protect

my health and thats why i reject

you , it wasnt perfect time when we meet

i tried my best explain it in 20 sentence

but i dont remember how to do friends

so i left without a bye , i hope you acknowleage

that that hello from you wore a privelege

people like me dont get friends but i count you as mine

cried for a while , my pillow where drown in tears

but than i recall awkward memories become inside jokes

between friends and i like to think every poem is a secret handshake

than you came back , find me in diffrent socials - i hadnt even give you details

it was like a freaking miracle , and i dont believe in them but your dm are one

that i cherish , not everyone is handle me but you saw through the fall out

and i cant remember how it is to have a friend but that i find one in my fave

i think is special , maybe for once the stars wore aline

in a world full of pain and bad news

you hit me with good and now im clued

everyone is scared of me but you let me be me

dont want romance , i like to keep it casual
its kinda comfortable to get that crew love
party like a local , but loyal to the royal
you realize that i am truffle , rare
we dont have this on the internet , share
keep in contact through subtext and lyrics
you send me playlist and i make poems
i like how you stay when people walk away
was caught in my fit but somehow you stick
i guess that make us friends
yes you are my happy end

nobody love me like you because you love me like i do

nobody can love me like i do and you better know true
love you but i love myself first , do you understand
i put my health first , i sorry if i sound selfish
but i need you to love me like i do
nourish to flourish
understand im a statement piece , not a wall flower
and didnt knew how it took so long but suddenly ¨
i became my own recovery ,find peace in the storm
happiness in a song , took me some time
 for blossom but you trigger the right button
portray the landscape and paint a hell like a paradise
nobody love me like you  because you love me like i

( random thoughts :
2020 i need collabs with this girl and dua lipa , amber mark , ella mai and mabel )

fear of your own body

i got probablem , its a part of being human

not like i drink , take drugs - never done

im the most boring person on night out

but if you know my wild side

you would always wanna hang out

i dont got friends so i look to stars

most be nice to be a social butterfly

and not fear for you own body

but yeah

i got problems  is a part of being human

but you are NOT ONE OF THEM

back and forth

dont do romance , the only love i preach is self acceptance

if you get down on one knee i will shot you down but i take the ring 

and go to church and marry myself because im a ten 

if i go to a party i leave with myself , dont need your compliment 

i already know im god sent and at least im the hottest single on spotify 

dont believe that signing a paper me make me a keeper 

no shade but bling bling , fuck that wedding ring 

i had to ghost when i became scared , went to fast , back and forth
had to sort of my life , health and reconize my own self worth
of all those who left i am amazed that you stay, treat you like shit
caught in a fit , i always keep a fasad but you saw through my charad

nobody inspire me like you

i drop the fits , you drop the hits
i like how you find me at internet
so many cool chics out there and im
 somehow you become my friend
... how you see through my tantrum
insecurites and broke down the wall
i tried so hard to build up but than with one word
you came along and dismantle me with your sword
isnt it crazy how two souls can met one internet
i tried my best to not freak out in hang out
but my hands shake everytime i tap those letters
but you make my legs feel better
do you know about my condition
there is no cure , just medication
i like to conider music one of mine
and i havent friends since i wore like nine
so i made up a fantasy world of stars
that inspired me , that i consider good role model
some of them failed me and some ... you
shine a bit stronger
do you know who i am , i am epileptic
fits is a apart of me and a zip of your music
make me get out of control , not proud of it
tried to get away but you pull me in
when everyone went a way you the only one that stay
that is what i like with stars , they treat their fans like friends
but i know the line but than again , never say never
i should know better because i got my fave celeb write a dm
once , twice or maybe four times - it must mean we , eh friends ?

the story of us

i wore caught in one of my notorious fit

when we first met on internet

it wasnt my finest moment but i will never forget

when you heart me , like no boy ever had

but the thing with epilepsy , we get overwhelm

and cant keep calm because im a mother f-cking storm

but dont let it overshadow what we have because you the only person that treat me like a human

dont see me like a condition , i like that , for you im not a stat fact . thats respect !

thats wore how it begin , in the eye of a storm and i wore trying to keep myself calm

but my body wore aching and i wore throwing fit , so i had to call it quit over a damn fit

i hate that but i hope you get i have to priotory my health before friendship , but yours i worship

like accient gods , when my whole wore collapse you came in pick me up and some how i survived

trapped in a body , the world is a cage - do you mind be my page ?

i wore caught up in a movie and could see the end

the feeling when you sick and your idol click

alerts and hearts with some hangout

there a reason for the fallout

but you see between the fits and still think cool

i been idolize you since i wore like twenty one

so i got shook by this and of course you become a poem

im a bit insecure with friendship and how to manage life

but you help me manage it right , i like your sound

it make me calm and forget i living in a storm

yeah

i try my best become the best version of me and hope it shows

and you are the lightbulb when a idea about to come

i like that



plotwist . didnt knew i was about to get a friend

as i have new followers here on my blog i thought i should mention what inspire me most ( expect you lol )

i like popular culture 

rumours 

and the thought of love 

but i like friendship as i got a severe condition 

but i like wander 

and i like labels , titles and etc 

but i dont really namedrop you 

i like how we met 

i try to be discret 

but you smart 

you figure it out 

i think our story is epic 

what make you a friend

you get im throw fits like you drop hits

you see me through my pain and ache

sugarcoat me like a winter coat

music is the best medicine

and you are my vitamin

against the winter cold

save me from that flu

that came out of the blue

hibernate in a flannel pj

and knowing about that

you on the way with soup

a energy booze that came in form teacup

that why you are my friend and no sickness stand in way

of our friendship , you see me at my worst but also make me the best

that what make you not a legend , it make make you a friend

THIRD WHEEL

dont do romance , you know

im not that type who fall in love 

i like the idea of you and me 

but my vision is clear 

not every guy get what im about 

but your GF have nothing to worry 

im the girl that people feel sorry about 

pity and sympanty but i like company 

hangout , talk about this and that 

i got no problem with pride 

got problem with cutting ties 

can you and i be friends ? 

dont see why your exes run 

but i like that she stay 

im rooting for you 

i like being the third wheel 

try to stay in my lane 

but you steer me wrong with that song 

and i become all whimstical and out of control 

but this how i roll

there wore something with your words

i thought that the conversation wore dead

cut you off to protect myself when i realize 

it wore my biggest mistake , you brought me ache 

more than my epilepsy did
i didnt realize what living wore until i met the guy on internet
i think we are goals , that why you get the starring role
in every poem since you slide in my dm
and make me feel less of a fan , more like a friend
i was crying for a half year , my pillow wore my tears
but than something i never in my wildest dreams
it wore like you appear from a movie screen
i couldnt by this time listen to your songs
because i hate myself for throwing fit like you drop hits
this is a out of body experience and their no sience
how to make friends and i guess im a bit complex
casual only homie , and how the hell did you make me fell less lonely ?

a guide to find acceptance

everything in my life is so much about dead

try to avoid to die and medication

been trapped in a cage , struggle with acceptance

hard to find friends so i like to celebs , because they love their fans

dont really want romance because i like the idea of you and me

we dont have labels , do you like my poems and playlist ?

you make me excel in my hell and i find you special

of all the stars you shine brightest of them of all

and somehow you became my manual

a mentor in life and over a night

you became my distraction , facination

funny how words from a stranger

can mean more to you than a friend

and somehow you became my helping hand

letter to you

you came along like your favorite song
i hear poems in them , light in the night
when i had tunnel vision you pour me
some inspiration when you like me
it so unlikely like that nessie
but you knew im your bestie
you quite mysterious but im curious
maybe we got something good thing
could care less where you living
i prefer the woodland than the hills
got that myth that lead me on right path
when im all tangeled you get me all figured out
you must be a part of that seven wonder
and i knew from the beginning you become so much more than
a one hit wonder , you would become a friend and helping hand
cant stop stare in your eyes , you make me drown
in your knowleage and i like that accent of yours
its better than any song i heard , did you knew i like guy with beard ?
are you my secret santa , it sure feels like that because you always present
i was wonder before you if friendship have a deadline and if i to old to get one
think we should exchange gifts in heart , would you like that , mind ?
i want to have somebody to chat about you but i dont
are you ashamed over me  like my fam
lately everyone is fake , its kinda the new trend
and i became shooked of you genuine honesty
are you cool with us keep it ... friendly ?
i like how you pull out my raw emotions
how you stick through the fits and tanturms
maybe if we lay the foundation to something
but for now its perfect as it is

when i met lochness

you came along like your favorite song
i hear poems in them , light in the night
when i had tunnel vision you pour me
some inspiration when you like me
it so unlikely like that nessie
but you knew im your bestie
you quite mysterious but im curious
maybe we got something good thing
could care less where you living
i prefer the woodland than the hills
got that myth that lead me on right path
when im all tangeled you get me all figured out
you must be a part of that seven wonder
cant stop stare in your eyes , you make me drown
in your knowleage and i like that accent of yours
its better than any song i heard
i like how you pull out my raw emotions
how you stick through the fits and tanturms
and it somthing with you that make me calm
when my brain is a wildfire and body a storm

LOVE THIS MESSAGE

i wont destry this message with a poem because this mv make my cry

and remember some have no families so check up on your friends to

friendship goals

no idea how you met my on internet because my name is quite lame
i like to watch you write on the gram , it  remind me who i am
nobody notice me where i live but you did , i apprichiate that
you have to excuse my rant and vents its just i got fits like you drop hits
i think we quite similiar , yeah it something strangly familiar with you
 it scare me at first but im intreat , i got a funny feeling that you be my happy chap
 you know i dont look for love , to resolve any relationship - im more about friendship
when my life is full of bad news you came in like a miracle in mine
do you like what i write like i like your songs but i think the nr one 1 hit
hasnt been written yet , the song about us because we is friendship goals

sometimes break down but never cancelled

it started good , healthy by birth but somehow i got diagnosed epileptic

and fell in a spiral of self abuse , cut my skin because i didnt like body i wore given

bullied by reletieves , school mates and rejected of life but know i better

and i send myself this love letter , a reminder of all the positive things that about to come

when i find acceptace with myself and became to love my condition - not reject it

acknowleage it and feel empowered because it made me special

remember went to school sit on the bench , new in school and eveyone took me for a fool

and i started to believe what them said but than i got this friend in form of a dm

i always suspitious on people because of my fam history but you became my recovery

journey to discovery , love within myself and put myself as prio number one

health is the most imortant thing for me and relationship have to go

well , until you appeared in diffrent inbox - you are my charm lock

on my friendship braclet now and just because i am a no show

im still there with you because i believe our connection is solid

like wifi , sometimes it break down but never cancelled

crawl under my skin

somehow he came under my skin
deeper where my epilepsy where been
and let me tell you this
not the girl that usually go for it
im the one in a wheelchair in the corner
but you make my legs , friends
somehow you touch up my body like a rec
and i know you have my back like i fan
but i prefer us a friends , dont know
how you transform my hospital gown
to designer and make me feel like the queen of prom
because i skipped mine because i didnt felt fine
so many things in my youth i have to decline
but things have a way to come back in time
but never in my wildest dreams i thought it would be you
do you like how we platonic , keep it casual ?
i know you probably got a lot girls trying
maybe you feel comfortable talking with a girl
living , doing her best not dying ?
yeah somehow you crawl under my skin
and make a new story begin
all thanks to a dm

boys like you deserve to be written about

yeah . you probably think this poem is about you but is not ¨
i moved along like thousands drafts ago , but you was like no
cant it accept that i have i found a new inspiration , better collabration
that saw i deserved a better future and not being stuck in the past
i hate kill my muses because they mean so much
but i like you like wore a  celeb crush
because it means i probably not see you more at gigs , yeah its highly unlikely
that we met but than again dreams come true , i mean they did on internet ?

dedicated

do you know how hard it is

to not break apart

knowing you probably never get your first kiss

i protect you from a living wildfire and earthquake

because my body is trapped in one and you are my heartache

i hate how something can dismantle with words

how magazines portray the world so perfect

i cry alone when nobody hear because i dont want anyone listen

but i do fear my future , having a condition without any cure

is hard itself and i never got support from home , but than i met someone

and you make me find the power within , the strenght when i wore falling

30 feeling like 23

i like poems and playlist , do you get my hearts on the gram ?
you know im not into cell phones , more into devolep my brain
how we subtext throught my lyrics snd you by your music and pic
i try to upgrade my IG but honestly i use it more like a diary
got that  30 looking like 22  all going  for me , and i dont have friends
grew up on a hospital and thought you might this be the only one
that like me and accept me for who i am , hope you get im not your fan
im your friend and you know im there in mind and spirit
i l like to keep in contact with you by internet
so you knew what im doin , how i feelin
i never gonna ghost you but sometime i fear i lost ya
but than you show up , are you way to obvious or do i read into things
i like to think i am your little poem and i so glad i screenshot that dm
i never got a friend like that so you special and have become hell of a chapter
BUT YOU ALREADY KNEW THAT RIGHT ; HUH ?

some friends are stars

i like my friends as stars

celebs always love their fans 

i been told and i feel comfort in that 

is it cool if i follow you instagram like a star map ? 

like how the sky remind me of you , i stay up all night to watch the stars 

explotions of emotions , i never hate my condition until i met you 

but somehow you get me better than myself , maybe im not that good on express myself 

well i am trying but its hard to describe your situation in 20 letters , in a convorsation 

it always end up with misuderstanding and people branding , me as flight risk 

but arent we all and i think you make me , under control 

because you crawl deeper than any epilepsy been and let me be , me - i like that 

you got the pin code to my body , dont be afraid to use it
 because you the one that prevent a fit

every night i dance with only the stars as moonlight
your family never loved you and you cut ut from the family tree
all my life i  was wondering was wrong with me
why they liked their facebook things but not mine
loneliness is a lonely road but i then you came around
last year , october out of nowhere and it all seemed like a dream
because everyone had been so mean  and the fact you stayed
when everyone left is a precious gift
i never will forget