söndag 31 oktober 2021

maybe i am to punk rock for you ?

i remember when i met this guy at boarding school
who wore like listen to but i wore please you not even
pop punk enough to take me to seven heaven 
he wore like very destructive of him 
and i wore like dont bark at things 
if you cant bite because it right 
i remember how we look movies during the night
how i wore more into him to the film
how i  said i am like him 
which apparently wore the worst idea 
ever  , but maybe i am to punk rock for you


accidents are heaven sents

 i think i like you to much for my best , have that bang beat beating in my chest .remember how i saw you slide in like an daydream , never suspected this dm , i been admire you for ages , your talent makes me act like ... elliphant   and i like your accent , wonder if i can make you cum in my room x dont tell my mom  through , sorry if i am a bit complicated, but that is just who i am , i hate accidents , how i fell out my wheelchair into you but thats how you become my carrier and how i met my future , doctor 

kan jag gå dit ?


 du är min tysta minut och jag önskar jag kunde hålla käft , men du ser ut som du gör är det svårt och inte förstöra som jag alltid brukar göra . hur jag tappat andan när du klev in i rummet och hur jag alltid är en drulle , tar ansvar för mammas saker hon gör för att hon har ett visst ansvar över mig . Hur skönt det kändes att slippa henne , även om jag hängde med äldre men när man har en doktor student som ser ut som en ängel och hanterar dig som en  pojkvän men jag är inte ens hans , vän ( god , i wish ) hur jag föll av min rullstol när jag såg dig , hur du hjälpte mig upp som han tog upp en kaffe kopp . jag gillade det och hur du trolla tillbaks håret när jag hade inget . hur du sminka mig som en makeup artist och klädde mig som en stylist . LOVE IT . Hur dina händer blev mina vänner , hand in hand vi gick och allt jag känner är du  , hur fick dig mig ner på den där textrad , hur länge ska vi leka den här charad  . jag vet inte hur du fick mig falla på den raden men jag är glad vi har de här bladen . Du  är så jävla rätt . sötast . vackrast att jag faller ur min rullstol ,nästan som en akrobat hur du glider in och lyfter mig upp som en katt ,får mig spinna i din famn , sedan dess är du min , christian ( paxat dig . när du tar din student ) för jag tycker du perfekt ...

sorry i have no shame  

lördag 30 oktober 2021

The it boy

 he look like an GQ model , got an silhouette of the Gillette but he is like look like an an daydream but act like their something wrong with living in the reality , i am sorry if i am not live in the part of LA insanity  ,dont let this club party become an Halloween party that only include somebody , that got that god aesthetic of beauty , looks of beauty but always on duty . Such an cutie with an booty , he look exact like an  character from an movie , how he surround himself with , beauties and cuties , i am sorry if i am loyal as fangirl , that would go abroad for the on i love , how you always make me above ,  how i  always fall like ari , drop it like i am hot like that cardi , when i play you on the stereo and how it turn me on , how you are my CEO , how i follow you like an puppy , and surround you like the groupies 

the craft


i remember how i wear my illness 
like uniform , got my battle scars 
from emotional wars 
how love never wore my thing 
i wore occupied with this thing 
called living 
while other chics
looked liked princess 
had that honey boo boo - sweetness 
mean while i wore that alt 
that everyone did the best to insult 
just because i wore a bit out of the norm 

the rock bottom


you are more then your body weight 
fat-shaming  is just an part of negative world
i remember how fell off my wheelchair 
when i saw that carrier 
and was like , yeah - you become my next 
character , thank you next ! 
how i study every moment you did 
who and what you hang with 
this what i notice 
you wore loyal like fan
but prefer you as an friend 
how you got knock me out like star 
but help me through like an local star
how you help me up when i wore on rock bottom
wipe my ass when you shall kiss my ... bottom
how you style me like an pop princess
when i wore an fucking mess
that you swipe my lips , left to right 
like an make up artist 
and how you sound like an vocal artist 
 



fredag 29 oktober 2021

autumn season

 i been sitting under the oak , in my invisible cloak , came to the forest , to make my own nest , i found my own muse to invest , watching the lakes and thinking about happiness and heartache , in the darkest part of your heart , your pull out the art - scribble down an little poem and put  the initials of him in   the tribe and realize you lucky being alive , hearing the animals playing , reindeer jump around and chasing , how its time for the birds to leave the chest to move out , east but know they always comeback - its the autumn season , and i know you comeback for an reason , i know you did 

the hipster model

 i am not the best to function but i can make it work in this fiction  . how i fumble out life just to get pulled back , again ? isnt strange we met , is  beyond perfect and how you wore an doctor student , truth or dare  but i got an feeling you kinda care .i remember how you made me , fell out the wheelchair , just with one glance i lost balance and drop to the floor , how you pick me up like an kitty cat , stroke my spine and since that day you been , mine - christian ! the way you took your break by the corner like we starbucks lovers and how you help me with me food ( did you knew this is tech my first date , haha ) i think its kinda funny how i found you during recover - when it basically wore a bunch of elderly , of course i would begin to crush at hipster model that probably is an awesome kisser ... Yeah i like  the way you knee down by my bed and whisper : wake up and how you like help me , up , style me pretty when i felt so damn shitty - how you made me forget i wore bald , and how i got sold on his soul because it wore golden ( and i fear how many days i will write about him , but he obvious made me - smitten like an kitten 

för alltid vänner

 den första var william , men definitivt inte den största . hur det tog 3 år för att förlåta . honom , fatta jag inte var hans  ( aldrig var ) och hur du gav mig några svar . hur jag inte försvarar dig längre , för jag var " on to something better " but the better was  worse . Damn i think i am cursed when it comes to love ...Alltid har en sak för äldre killar , och för de som mig inte ... gillar ! Trodde jag inte skulle komma över dem men då mötte jag , Chistian Oh , MAN , kommer du att presentera mig för dina vänner , föräldrar ( probably not ) och hur du  stylar mig som en pop prinsessa , får mig bli en bättre poet och hur du smetar på mig makeup som en makeup artist ( hela tiden tänkte jag var i gemenskap av en ängel ) och jag hoppas ,vi för alltid kommer vara vänner x

torsdag 28 oktober 2021

how i fell for my best mate

how i fell from the wheelchair and how you slide in like an carrier , how you got me knock of the feet when i saw that face ,  and got me thinking how will i this place ever replace ?  How he help me up like he pick up his coffee cup , how i fell for him - and how he made me feel like an daydream , even if i wore bald , he made me feel like an supermodel . how he style me like an stylist , brought out that beautiful of palette , how he look like an silhouette model , hipster and probably are a good kisser . the way , intimacy came along  in every touch , how he carry me like an backpack , and how i hold your neck scared to fall but it wore already too  late , how i am fell for my best mate 

You rock

 once upon a time i fell in a daydream , jump in his eyes like they wore an kid jumping in fountain , how i wore jumping out of the sky without parachute , like a kid dancing in rain .  how i fell out my wheelchair , into that carrier and made  Christian , in the beautiful character. i remember how i climb your body like an tree , how you helped me , healed me and i think you is quite unforgettable , spine of soldier , grew up like an warrior but choose to become an doctor , i think you wore an great brother and i bet your mother and father is proud of how you recognize an woman , that you made the worst time , my best and how i choose to you , invest , become an new muse , of all the places i been i never thought , how much life suck there , you wore the person that - rock ! during that stay . how much i fought back there will now way i want be able impersonate , that time but i find you comeback , in every thought of my mind ( why cant i leave ya , behind )  

onsdag 27 oktober 2021

WILL

i am sorry if i am not perfect like her 
but God told me i wore an angel 
said i wore an keeper and saved me 
from the reaper 
i know my flaws , you dont have to point them out
but i also know what i am good at 
like survive and when you done that , you have an different vibe 
dark energy and i dont play with that - just people who have good aura
the though i used to adore ya is laughable , now i just ignore - ya 

close to heaven

i recall how i fall 
and end up in the hospital
how i wore in coma in a month 
how the surgery came cut deep 
just to keep 
how i got vip treatment at retirement
when i went there to recover 
and how close we wore to become , lover 
kinda sad those days are , over 
remember how i fell out my wheelchair 
when i saw my new carrier 
how  i climb up on him and in the bed 
how you made my checks , red 
the way you handle me so carefully
because you knew you have to be fragile with love
and how i got insecuries with being bald but you did  not care
so after a while you made me feel like an supermodel
it wore pretty awesome dude 
how you paint my lips like they wore yours 
and style me like an make up artist and stylist
i recall how you sounded like an recording artist
and how i kept my eyes shoot when you came to wake me up
because you have the greatest voice i ever heard 
how you deliver my meds like an bartender , like an entertainer
that i forgot i wanted go abroad because your eyes got that ocean eyes blue 
and i had no idea i when i came , i would begin to write about you 
remember how you made my favorite food of chicken roll - i consider this 
my first date mate , the timing wore not perfect but then again - for me it was because i got an friend   

( never change ) 

the carrier


 love  dont look with the eyes , its more intellect and see beyond your flaws and accept you for are , thats make you an local star . how you treat me , with deepest respect ... i am in aw , the kindness of such a handsome man but more awesome how he treat me gentle and  fragile, because i my body wore an dangerous package and could be trigger of an killer , you wear your mask and decode my heart , push the buttons and wipe the button , like i wore yours . remember how i fell the first day out the wheelchair , when i saw a glance   of my new carrier and you swept in through the door  like an ambulance , i know from the day we would be .. friends  , every alarm , every personal ( god i wish it wore ya ) how you took your break by the corner in the common room   , with like your 6 cup of coffee , dident say much but enough to begin start , crush

moments with ya

 


today wore an fairytale 
how life wore an hell
but then i met king Christian
one glance and i fell out of my wheelchair 
how i fell for that doctor student 
basically became to heaven sent 
for the second time 
how you made the worst time 
the best , and you have an special place in my chest
i wore laying on the floor , when you swept through the door
in the white uniform , on the white horse and become the knew thing
... the new jim , how i climb up on your body , in the bed like an kitten 
by the middle of the stay , i knew i wore way to smitten
how you deliver my medications like you wore an bartender
such an entertainer 
how i used to vomit in your hand like wore best friends 
the way you put me on clothes and become my personal , stylist 
how you made me feel good about myself even if i had no hair 
how you did  not care , this why i like to announce you the best carrier 
the intimacy of have no privacy 
i begin to like 
how i could not sleep during the night 
waiting for you to slide in my room 
how i used to close my eyes and pretend to sleep 
because i wanted to keep you hear with me 
if only for a few minutes 
   

cooler then instagram

 today wore an fairytale how felt wore an hell , like everything wore so difficult . how you slide in just like an daydream , how you sat there by my corner - like we wore the hipsters taylor sang about in Starbucks lovers , one glance and i felt out my wheelchair , for that doctor student at retirement , how i felt so ugly being bald but you make me your bestie ! how you treat me with so kindness  , i pretty much forgot my illness , basically became to heaven sent , for the second time , how you made the worst tme . the best , and you have an special place in this difficult time , and i remember how he pick me up like i wore litter but throw around some glitter and glam , and christian , you cooler then my instagram, he look so smart , have an good  how heart and his soul , is graceful and peaceful  , so humble and clever - and thanks for know better to not judge people me 

new thing

today wore an fairytale 
how life wore an hell
but then i met king Christian
one glance and i fell out of my wheelchair 
how i fell for that doctor student 
basically became to heaven sent 
for the second time 
how you made the worst time 
the best , and you have an special place in my chest
i wore laying on the floor 
when he pick me up like an coffee cup
like it wore an FA CUP 
stroke me so i forget my freaking handicap
i could drown in your eyes 
they remin me of an fountain 
and how you made me forget i am bald 
how you you made me feel like an supermodel
style like an stylist , brush over the wounds 
and make me feel safe and sound 
yeah how i felt comfortable around 
you , the way you treat me like cotton
how you wipe my bottom 
like i wore an baby 
how you wore so handy
with the make up 
and became my own makeup artist 
with an voice of top chart ,,,artist
and , how you dressed me like an stylist
yeah how you became my new thing 
and remember how it felt 
... to living  

tisdag 26 oktober 2021

Gatsby

you make me feel like home
when all i known is the winding road 
how you pull me back whenever i try to leave
i try my best not , give in but you make the best poem
bend a few rules just to find my new muse 
drop a few hints to let you know who i not so secretly , love 
mom try to tie me up but you always pick me up , like an aupair 
thats how i know you truly care , remember how i fell out the wheelchair
when i saw you face , you made my dark days - unforgettable 
do you know your eyes is quite , irresistible ? 
how you paint me like an kinder egg , made me feel i wore stunning 
even if i had no hair , you just dident seem to care , how you swipe you finger lip 
over my lips , how you became the last person that touch it , god i miss it 
the feeling of your skin and how you smell like an coffee bean
model off duty but was in line off duty , such an cutie that wipe my booty 
how you became my makeup artist , stylist and sounded like an top charted recorded artist  
the way you treat me like an popstar , how you make me feel like an superstar 
when i wore down on the bottom , how you help me up from ... the bottom 
i not sure how your parents raised an character , fairytale like that
who end up to be ... just perfect 
fit for my poems 
i dont claim you mine 
but i dont have an best friend since i wore like nine 
would you please be mine ??

måndag 25 oktober 2021

måste jag dö innan jag ser dig igen

 du är en levande sagofigur , myten bakom mannen bakom masken , hur du fick mig på en flygtur , hur jag blev ditt lilla kräldjur - hur du plockade upp från marken , när jag kravlade på marken , hur du kom in som skyddsängeln och blev bästa vännen . du sa inte mycket men ändå fatta jag ett tycke , jag antar det var kemi - när det vart någorlunda , vi ? hur du gjorde livet till ett diskotek , hur du var stoltheten i ålderdomshemmet , hur jag grät tårar för att jag skulle vara instäng med dårar , men den ända dåren var jag som dömde ut det här stället för snabbt och vart kär i en kille som jag knappt , kände - men ändå , vet allt om för han är kioskvältare , kommer så väl hur vi satt och spela spel , hur du sa jag kunde vara i ditt team : ingen väljer mitt lag - så det var typ , yatzy  - jag behövde inte ens vinna för jag visste jag redan vunnit dig , nu följer du med mig ut - så länge jag skriver om dig finns du i mitt liv , hatade att behöva komma , hatade att behöva gå - hur ska jag dig nu , nå ?  måste jag nästan dö för träffa dig igen , jag vet jag inte är din flickvän men jag är väl en vän ? 

söndag 24 oktober 2021

you made me forget my illness


i wonder how you can fall in the presence of covid19 
when you cant be touch or be sent to , 7th heaven? 
i remember the last time i felt something 
it sorta felt like make my body became , healing 
how you help me up when i felt out the wheelchair
pick me up like an nanny , how your hands wore so manly
the way you lift me up like an cat and you became my ... cat daddy
how you look like an model of duty , line off duty and such a cutie 
the way you made me feel like i wore an beauty even if i  wore an mess
how you wrap my pampers so stylish , and wipe my lips -sadness 
just to replace them with happiness , this is how i became your princess
yeah 
you made me forget my illness 

LIFE SUCKS BUT THE OPPOSITE IT WORSE

life sucks but the opposite is worst
yeah i would known about , death 
been playing games with reaper
since i wore like eight , so he kinda become a mate
but i kinda prefer God since he said i wore an , keeper 
i remember when i fell out of life , thought i would done for it
but apparently i got an guardian angel  that look out for me 
recall i wore in limbo for an month and heard everything but could not make an noise 
strange situation to be , and why does this things always seem to happen to me  
but after a while i started to find my way back , babysteps but yet 
i recall i could not talk , write , or sit - but i recover with help of music 
because it always been a big part of healing , make me feeling , better
again , i recall how i had an tradition with on of the staff and it wore quite an laugh
also how i though i dream when i wore awake about saw Zedd by my hospital bed
because he looked just like him , how i talked with sofia about my travels to get my voice back and how i wore focused by Jockes tattoos , but must of them i sorta like ,,, Martin 
how braid my hair , felt like he really care which is rare ( but then again , i dident met , christian  ) that really knock me out , fell out my wheel chair and i had the best time in your care , how you became my  own stylist , make up artist and how you voice belong like it should be on billboard chart  not reading an chart but i am glad you did , so i could make you into some kinda art  

met me by the shore

 i remember when i arrived to place , so bright and light  . full of angels and heavenly knights . yes i remember you clearly - how you pull me back and knock me down out the wheelchair but like an white knight , you help me up , pick me up - i will never forget that . how you look like an model off duty , but how you wore in line off duty - such an cutie and damn that booty , but i love your brain most - cleverness and knowledge , never judge people for being less , who not be afraid to be , heartless . You , love for the weaker kind , is one of a kind , the thing that make you - you and how i did not even miss going abroad because your eyes remind me of my love of Ibizas shore 

i know you gonna find a new but until that day stay


i like the way you put me your hands like now we are friends 
i chained me to you because around you i am safe , dont cut me loose 
like them other boys , done - dont make this an fucking sad end 
i guess you have a lot of friends but you make me feel like an princess
but i know you , one day gonna get an queen of an heart ( you can tell her this is just art )
how you read me just like an chart , how i fell off my wheelchair when i saw my carrier 
thought i would die lonely but i am happy i found you when i lost and it was not perfect 
i admit but for me , it wore an smash hit because you became my new character and favorite carrier . 

take your time with love


grown up on hospital wards 
kinda hard to know 
how friendship begin 
and where love start 
why nobody frankly 
never have made an manual
life would be so much , functional 
but all  i can tell , life is not an love story 
one of those books that we love to celebrate
but in reality there is nothing , real with it 
sure i would like an Romeo 
thought i saw one when i wore in Limbo
but that not life , when we get down on earth 
we realize what we worth 
that life is not a high school musical 
but God , i wish 
and i sorta prefer that la la land before my shitty lifestyle 
and how can i ever became hole , when i am broken ? 
i guess we dont have to be perfect , fine - just take your time 





BAD BOYS


i remember when i wore like this 
with dig myself and it begin with 
suppose to be an deadly kiss
but there wore no chemistry , there
it wore begin when i enter this boarding school
back in the days , 2009 though i enter heaven
but  apparently came to hell , 
how i always tend to to become attach by the boys
and when they say bye to me , of course i am kiss an tell 
thanks for label when i was not , able 
thanks for treat me like that when i wore not wore , cable 
play scrambles , watch movies and become friends 
if only in one direction and how you look after me when i took me medication  

crush it



i recall how i fell from heaven just to find myself in heaven seven
how i fell out my wheelchair when i saw " THAT CARRIER " 
how he wore born an warrior . treat me like an soldier 
i was like great , perfect this will make my heart skip a beat 
and probably make my legs , defeat but then again who cares from standing
when you can be helped by an assistent like that at the retirement 
and yes , you did made me fall out the wheelchair but who care 
i am better then , walking anyway . I recall how i climb up your body 
how you helped me in the bed , and to be honest i think you will be an awesome dad
because you already a pretty good cat dad , but first - hit the bar and become an doctor 
like you said you should because it would be awesome if you would . i have  huge respect for you , work ambition and sorry if it get in the way for my line of , passion 
- sometimes , how Garnisolen became the mansion , how you look so handsome 
in this light you look like an knight . how you always treat me just right 
how your breaks became my highlight even though we dident say much
i kinda felt enough to feel an crush 
an sorry if i namedrop you to much but some names just taste better then others 
and we all know it 

Friends like this


thought i would come to hell 
did not wore born to so say .. farewell
i remember how i felt flat for this place
how everyone treat me so ... well
i think the first one i met wore , Anki and Emmie 
usually hangout with Sussi , how she help with clothes 
made me like the fresh princess , just so i could find some new besties 
Elin and Christian , that came around the corner 
how he would make my makeover 
become my fave carrier 
so i choose to make him an , character
like king because make me feel like i wore living 
how you made me feel like levitating 
quite an achievement in this Environment  
and i hate i never talk with you anymore 
how my door miss ya
and so do my body 
the only thing i got is touch screen 
i want something real - face to face 
then again music is healing 
but i want that feeling 








his voice


the way he dance in the room like an popstar 
the way he notourious like big poppa 
how can he be so calm just sitting there with the cuppa 
when i am basically freaking out every time we hangout
wonder how he feels , touch and this is way to much 
for my head to think about , need to shout his voice out
but its the most beautiful sound i been around 
it make me so safe and sound

who cares about walking when you have the best carriers


sometimes i have an feeling that my life would be an perfect movie 
how i slide in like an thriller , a bit like an killer but how i fall flat 
how you slide in on red carpet like you wore Aladdin 
and how everything became such an lovely moment 
from that i felt out my wheelchair and into your care 
people like you , i do treasure because they are spectacular
and i do everything for an inspiration 
because i got like you , high ambition 
with life , i even went to limbo to find them 
once , its sort sat me in trance 
 who cares about walking when you have the best carriers 
strong and fit , perfect . who they get me i sync  
made me feel quite fond fond of it , from the doctor student 
at the retirement swipe my lips , like they wore his 
know i am attach to him for life , be your hospital wife 
more like patient because everything is better in that life 
when you got the feels , even ifs not for real 
ficton or real , but for me you are an big deal
the way you saved my life with your smile 
just slide down in the common room
sat down for a few minutes of games
felt like an eternity 
how  you dont really  have any privacy
during places like this but i dont mind
how i enter the doors just become yours
for how many chapters , who knows ?

lördag 23 oktober 2021

mine


i remember i wore half foot in the grave 
the next in retirement , which wore kinda like an rom con itself 
because i have the tendency to make everything sexually 
intimacy , ok not with the older people but with doctor student 
i kinda felt like there wore something but hey i been wrong before 
and do i have to 96 before he pick up the phone " lol " 
thought this poems wore hint enough that i want to become an item
but who wouldn't like to get seduced by poems  every day
erotic fantasies , daydream about what will get up to in the night time 
yeah i probably get out of line , but it just because i want you as mine 

you deserve to be written about


i know i am playing with fire 
when i am namedrop you like this 
and you might feel strongly about this 
even hate me for it but i got my reasons 
why i name you in my poems 
there people who make such great impact 
on me , who are pretty much perfect 
including you , you shine so bright 
in your uniform 
the way you treat people is not , norm
and you deserve to be written about 
that my reason ( that , and because i am kinda smitten ) 
hehe , but that is pretty obvious by know  
and its all love , ya know 

trick or treat


it wore like an trick or treat 
never would i thought you be my next suspect
but you wore sweet like candy , handy and so friendly 
swept me away by the first sight , head over heal so i guess this is , real ?
how you made me fall from the wheelchair and how you became my fave carrier 
i remember every details , mostly because i how you talked me so softly 
how your voice is so different like others which is kinda high pitch 
and how you got an heart that is pretty much , perfect 
nobody have really had that effect 
like you done , and thats how i knew you where the one
" to write about " but i really like when you took your breaks 
and came an sit down with me because it wore quite , lonely 
but 5 minutes could feel like a hour with you 

you and i


i recall when i got an ambulance to the retirement 
thought i wore gonna to be heaven sent 
again , kinda anxious about it all 
did not want to rise just to fall
but then i saw you standing in the corner
with you mask , i guess it wore the beginning of the all
when they had to dress the staff in mask , and me so calm
not even had to say anything , just by there ... standing
wore there an hint you being a show empathy 
for my situation , a bit of sympathy 
in your eye - cant deny , its where it become you and i 

like an movie


sometimes i have an feeling that my life would be an perfect movie 
how i slide in like an thriller , a bit like an killer but how i fall flat 
when i see somebody i like i did at for example at , retirement 
how i thought i wore in an rom com when he compliment 
my dress , how i think you have the best hands and not even , angels 
talk like you , i am just sad with dont speak anymore , Dior 
how you took time to sit with me when i needed somebody most 
and i wonder how angels can become , ghost ? 
how you made the loneliest time of mine , the most 
beautiful so i wonder who is the real artist 
 

my heart is his


like oxygen to human 
you are important to make me heaven , sent 
tangle you in a world wide web 
but i am sorry i cant help if you look like an , babe 
that you my spark begin , draft up an inspiration 
looks like an Model off duty , cutie - that never forget his , duty
always deliver because he quite an overachiever
but thats what i believe in ,,, 
man who rock the white hospital rocks but prefer his assessor , the stethoscope
because that how he manage to figure out how my heart is ,,, his   

en grammatik lektion i kärlek

 du säger inte mycket , men du säger allt . Hur kommer det som att alla verb bara flyger fram , hur kommer det sig att , hur du beskriver allt som det var substantiv , hur du kallar mig , pronomen , har svårt att sätta fingret på det men du drar alltid fram rätt adjektiv , jag har ganska svårt att först preposition  men du får mig hitta rätta " emotion " men du och jag bindsamman som en konjunktion  , hur du får mig interjektion och hur vi är det perfekta räkne summan , ett plus ett och jag fattar inte riktigt , vad som skett 


the red thread

 the fact that Alec baldwin shot an staff in his new movie 

and when Selena Gomez , promote her music " hailey said she listed she listen on - i kill you of summer walker . I see an red thread here ... 

zombie kisses


i remember how i made an impact on the retirement 
how i fell out my wheelchair and got to heaven sent
when i saw him , lets call him ... Christian
because that was his name , that looked like an model off duty
that wore such an cutie , that hottie with such an ... booty 
kinda spooky how he got me wrap around his finger 
like he wore an famous singer 
i recall how rough it wore to be there , well for 2 sec 
then i was like saw his face and was fell from heaven 
felt like i wore in seven heaven at retirement 
how he stylish me like an pop princess 
said i look cool in that dress 
made me feel like i got hair when i wore , bald 
how i love that you the only one that really had said 
its okey for me to write you in this , diary 
how you swipe my
lips like them wore , yours 
and help me up from the floor 
when i bang bang myself half to death 
but for meeting you , it wore all worth 

sorry but i can cool down know 
because i think i i am in love 
with myself 

fredag 22 oktober 2021

fint som vin

 hur detta stället , blev de älskande åldershemmet , hur jag aldrig trodde jag skulle komma hit men upptäckte platoniska hjärtan , som rensade ut själen , hur jag trodde jag skulle bli något fint som vin , ibland önskar jag du inte så ut så där - så omöjlig att inte inte bli kär , i . hur kunde det inte bli vi , här lever bara brustna hjärnan men jag älskar att jag att har min , hjärna , fullt av brus medvetslös  och hopplös och full fullt ös 

 

mina läppar är dina

 dom kollar på mig som jag full av sorg men de fattar inte mitt bröst är fullt av love . och jag vet jag tender ramla ur kontroll , hur många kommer du se mig falla , vill inte att du ser mig falla , hur du fick mig att , falla ... konstigt ställe att göra det på dock och hur rockar din rock.  Hur du fick mig falla ur rullstolen , har alltid den kontrollen men du hit me like a star ,stardust is what you are ! hur du smeker mig läppar som de är dina och nu är de , dina . Jag offrar min vänskap för gemenskap och hur du klädde mig som en stylist , hur du är det enda ppå min make a wish och sista på  min bucket list 

svengelsa

 Gråter av glitter , skrattar bara så att så det ... smittar , någon börjar först men både av oss är  för , blyga så  det kvittar men   kärlek och tacksamhet , ärlighet , det är allt vill ha , När ingen fattar , men alla uppskattar " vad finns där " finns att hämta här  - jo du finns att hämta här ?  ville aldrig komma , ville aldrig lämna , hur jag börja skriva på svengelska , du blev en myth ,   karaktär jag , höll kär och en sagofigur , from that i knock out and until, i fell in you  carrier , who wore an perfect assistent that make me heavent sent ( second time around )  and will be an  brilliant doctor student , so thanks for my retirement make an star treatment 

God on speed dial


how will you ever forget somebody so sweet 
some that made pact with death , but wore like ... eh fuck it 
how will you ever forget a girl who met the reaper , he seem like great 
but he dont make my heart , so i wore like ... fuck it 
does my friends knows i got GOD ON SPEED DIAL 
because i have died a several times 
how i always tend to get attach to cute guys 
like doctors , i am cling on to limbs 
like the are hospital kings 
its just something i tend to do 
because i kinda ... admire you 



alt world

they ask me where do you live 
i tell them in an other galaxy 
can take there , just go by milky way
switch up with a notch by seven heaven 
and tell me you love me to the .... moon 
 got a bit heat in the cheats like you stay out plenty in the sun
i can tell you my nummer , promise call to end of the summer 
we can just lay here , just it wore ment - like where heaven sent 

torsdag 21 oktober 2021

min bästa vår ( var så jävla svår )

  jag gillar att du fått mig skriva på svenska , för jag brukade prata på engelska . hur får mig att låta som mig  , ja ... det är vad jag gillar gillar med dig . och hur får mig älska den här staden för den påminner om dina ögon , Berga slussar och hur du förmodligen fått för många pussar där , hur du ser ut som en konfekt , sött , ja allt me dig är pretty perfekt , din arbetsmoral , hur du ser ut som en  Model off duty ( with an great booty ) and is an damn cutie ) och kan inte förstå att jag hade dig som min , hur du alltid jag kände mig så fin , även utan hår ( är det konstigt att min bästa vår var den vår med dig även om det var , Covid )

Vita rockar

de kollar på mig som jag är sjuk
men vad gör de väl för med christian , känner jag ... hel
han är problably not intresserad , men jag är fascinerad 
fixerad , och du kan mitt brutna ben ... signera 
helst med ditt nummer , jag ringer dig nästa sommar 
när covid är över , och du är min Klöver 
Kung , hur du klädde mig som en prinsessa 
snälla , låt det inte bli skilsmässan
för du är ju den , perfekta ...
hur jag föll ner från piedestalen
gjorde larmcentralen till klubbhallen 
sos ,  det är sången om ... oss 
hatar att leva för fara , men älskar killar 
i vita rockar 



onsdag 20 oktober 2021

yatzy

  he got an thing for weaker mind  ,  i got an thing of your beautiful mind . how he never would hurt an fly and how he are way to " fly " that he made me flew out my wheelchair, i remember how must i like to there , nobody had such  an effect then you , how you made me fell from heaven and how i fell into , seven heaven when i saw you ! i know you became an soldier but choose the life of duty - i recall how i got knockdown out my wheelchair because you looked like an model off , duty ,  i know all the others chicks are pretty awesome but damn it you make me me feel pretty " awesome " even if i have no hair , nothing for show ... but the you swept in like an carrier , and i know - we both know how life isnt a fairy tale but i went to heaven to hell ( would do it again just to see friend ,,, i  recall how we played yatzy and i was isnt it crazy how i make more friends in hospitals environment and retirement ( but i never thought i would met an Model of Duty , line of duty , such an cutie , that he made me feel ... ugly   well that was an lie because you made me feel like an beauty queen in your hands , which no guys ever done before i like you character , morals privacy you kinda wore like won on ... yatzy - yes babe you drive me crazy  


angels on earth

 he got an thing for weaker mind  ,  i got an thing of your beautiful mind . how he never would hurt an fly and how he are way to " fly " that he made me flew out my wheelchair, i remember how must i like to there , nobody had such  an effect then you , how you made me fell from heaven and how i fell into , seven heaven when i saw you ! i know you became an soldier but choose the life of duty - i recall how i got knockdown out my wheelchair because you looked like an model off , duty , how you be the one that always priories your work first , that you understand that i am a human  and not only took me for my condition , how you got me recognize my self worth ( what kinda human ) are ya 


my fave babe

 i remember how i fell out the wheelchair , burst out and shout for the carrier . how he swept in like an ambulance , how i knew we would be friends , how you look so handsome in the light , almost like an Angel and i always though you had an graceful face ,moral values and i  know , its impossible to fall  in love an guy like him because he look like an daydream . how he treated me with star treatment at the retirement , brush up with make up , become my favorite carrier , and probably my favorite doctor when you take the bar , but in my eyes you already an star , for making me feel  like an ... superstar 

tisdag 19 oktober 2021

hypar dig för jag likar dig

vad finns det i din skalle , vad då för skalle ? min hjärna är paj , dry spell och how i fell out my wheelchair into that carrier , vi alla vet vem han är hehe för på det stället , han var en total babe , även kungen i staden vi bor i och hatar att jag måste prata i dåtid för jag ser ingen framtid ,. släpper dig löss , kanske , men alla vet hur jag håller hårt om mina karaktärer , som om vi hade en jävla kärleksaffär , vilket vi inte hade ( tror jag inte i allafall ) jag har ganska svårt och se om jag får killar på fall ... hehe 

the star treatment

 I dont mix with glitz and glam  , you would think i am by the pictures of my Instagram but an picture dont define who i am , i went around the world , twice but nobody though very much of that , been on the top just to be ... drop , feel my heart closed and almost died ... again , the reaper an i have become friends but choose god over him , laid in coma for an month , saw everything but dident be able to speak or write , but after a while i begin to make steps , baby steps to come home and i still remember how happy mom wore when she heard my voice ... again because she though i might never be able , cable to talk but i am known to be an survivor , warrior - she should know it by now . i remember hearing drop , beats and samples meanwhile i took blood samples it remind me of being on a festival 
it made me smile because wherever you are , i can be attached to an star 

Follow my spotify ( and listen to my awesome radio )

https://open.spotify.com/user/21ttdkwnqde2w52y6g2hekkci?si=cb5750b55e824f5f 


including swedish music , edm , kpop etc . enjoy your party 

MY BEST MEMORIES IS WITH YA


 i always look for an new chararter to enroll in my story , like i wore an archery , like i wore an archer , like he wore my target . how i fallout the wheelchair .when you came my way and its pathetic how much i do to make you , stay - here in my heart , never wanted to leave but then again , i never really wanted to come , How you made this place an home and you are better then an carrier , student - in my eyes you are perfect because you got so good  moral that it make me look like an villan but i dont mind if you portray me like that , because all my life i been the good but my best memories i got with you , isnt it funny ? 

FULLT FRÄS

jag tror jag är kär i ett " moment "
hur du fick mig att få , heaven sent 
ramla ur rullstolen , hur du satte på mig kjolen
de kollar på mig som jag är sjuk , ja .. vart det när jag såg dig - akut 
hur jag klättra upp på din kropp , hur jag dina ögon  ... åt upp 
han är den finaste , jag någonsin sett 
och han hanterar bättre än en doktor student 
klär mig så fint , tror att han är den vackrast 
människan jag någonsin sett och tycker det är lite . galet 
hur jag fann dig på ålderdomshemmet , så jävla fräsch
där jag satt och såg på Fullt Fräs - the intimacy of you wipe my ass 
awesome ,  hur du blev en karaktär som jag håller kär  
i min text , nytt kapitel , enda kritiker jag har ... 
han
hur du gled in i mitt rum , öppna mina persienner
hur jag låssades sova sova jag kunde ha din röst i mitt öra 
några sekunder till , vaknade upp och såg dig stå på knä 
som jag kan hänga me och sedan dess , och kinda like 
that you the one that have , me undress because your hands is perfect 
and i think you shall reconsider your line of duty and become an surgeon 
because you had my heart obv , won 

i en annan värld


 han växte upp som en soldat , krigade sig fram till toppen - hur han vart etta på svensktoppen men , skulle komma att anta världstoppen , en av eliten . publikfavoriten och hur han halsa , läkarspriten gång på gång och jag vet att det var något mellan oss var på , gång . kommer ihåg hur jag föll ur rullstolen när jag såg honom , hur du blev mitt nya kapitel , hur vi har ett hemligt avtal ... Christian ... Like NDA DISCLOUSARURE  AND SORRY IF I EXPOSED MYSELF TO MUCH AND I AM SORRY IF I AM NOT TRIED ENOUGH , hatar att behöva komma och hatar att behöva lämna och samma stan känns som i en annan värld 

Crille


jag vet du har börjat glömma mig men jag kommer aldrig över dig . du var där när jag mest behövde någon och trodde inte det skulle bli , honom . hur du gjorde mig alldeles knäsvag som du var en kändis " such an fangirl " hur du blev min värld , stjärna och idol . Du gav mig en känsla av behag , ditt hjärta är mitt - sweet , hur du gör mig en bättre skribent . Trodde aldrig jag skulle finna ett kapitel som är så perfekt , godaste konfekt och kan inte komma över du tagit mig om baken , hur du fick mig slita av mig ... tröjan och hur du klädde på mig , blöjan . hur du fick mig känna mig som Ingrosso , när du smeka mina läppar och hur du alltid mig , peppar - till att göra det bästa för du vill inte se mig som det sämsta , jag vet du kommer bli en jättebra , doktor i framtiden - Crille , för du är jättebra kille , ser ut som en model , sagofigur , förebild 

måndag 18 oktober 2021

MINNEN


så vår första dejt var på ålderdomshemmet
jag gillar hur du hjälpte mig upp från golvet
hur mina muskler var för svaga 
men du hade medicinen och fick benen , laga
hur jag gick , meter - kändes som kilometer 
i korridoren , i samma jävla ekorrhjul 
hur jag satt vid dig i hörnet , runt hörnet
där jag bor 
hur du drack ditt kaffe , hur du laga min mat 
tekniskt sätt , det var en dejt 
min första ( förmodligen enda ) 
när jag ramlade ur rullstolen ,  hur jag tappa kontrollen 
hur jag vart chockad av du såg ut som värsta supermodellen 
söt som karamellen , hur du passar perfekt för att jobba på serviceställen
men jag vet du har högre ambitioner , hur du vart min hjälp - och omsorg
och att lämna dig var något jag aldrig men igen , jag har dig i mina minnen 


Drömlika ställen


vart sekunden från att ge upp , vart sekunden att komma , tillbaks 
hur många timmar har jag spenderat på sjukhuset 
men allt skulle komma hit till ålderdomshemmet 
hur jag åkte in , ut och föll från rullstolen när jag såg Christian
värsta Supermodellen som skulle ta hand om mig . i mean - yes 
förlåt att jag lånar ditt namn men vissa namn smakar bättre 
och jag kommer så ihåg hur du svepte ditt finger över mitt 
jag tror där mitt hjärta blev , ditt 
hur du klädde mig Pampers 
och hjälpte mig på toaletten
din siluett påminner av Gillette
manlig , sexig och smoking hot 
och i vara i dina händer , var perfekt 
du blev min assistent och jag vart din patient
hur du gjorde att jag vart , heaven sent 
har aldrig var med om något sådant drömlik 
som på ett lasarett , det är kanske konstigt 
att jag gillar att hänga skelett och spöken
i taket hänger inga stjärnor men jag vet ställen
som är bättre än , Fredags kvällen 
typ när jag hänger med Christian 

ingen random kille

jag kommer ihåg hur jag föll från stolen
in i koman , hur föll ur rullstolen 
vid första intrycket , hur du gav ett avtryck
av att krigat som en soldat men jag fick ett intryck
att du var en kamrat , hur du lyfte mig som doktor student 
hur din hjärna är så jävla perfekt när min var i tusen bitar 
om du vill , kan jag bli ditt objekt - om du behöver en patient 
att studera , och jag vet att jag blev heaven sent ... again 
det bästa saken är du är den ända som sett mig , naken
hur du blev min stylist och makeup artist 
och jag fattar inte hur dina föräldrar fick en sådan fin son 
men jag hatar att  jag inte spela in din röst med diktafon
för den är ju ... bäst 
har gått igenom många doktorer i mina dar
som bara har gett mig mer frågor , inga svar
men jag gillar hur du inte drar från ... ansvar
det är manligt tycker jag , men fortfarande har en glimt 
av barnslighet , hur de första orden var herregud x 3 
that wore when the plot begin 
jag kommer ihåg det var i början av April 
och så jävla ljust överallt - ville bara bort 
men nu , ser jag bara killar  som försöker efterlikna , dig 
men ingen kan ersätta en kille som honom 
för han är ingen , random 

föredrar sjukhuset förre dansgolvet

 kommer ihåg hur jag låg på sjukan för typ tusende gången , hur jag såg dina ögon och försvann i dig där på ålderdoms hemmet  , undrar om vi någonsin kommer ses , igen - fan christian , du var ju min bästa vän , hur vart det så här ? tror jag gick för långt när , när jag börja om det där men alla vet ju att jag är ju vår variant av SWIFT , OCH EMINEM ( E LITE KONSTIGT ATT JA FÖREDRAR SJUKAN ÄN MITT HEM ) men det är här jag fann mina vänner , gillar hur du klär mig som en pop prinsessa och hur du tar av mig som rappare , hur du är så jävla intelligent att du är med i MENSA men älskling , all jag gör drop it like i am hot för jag faller nonstop för pop och du är så jävla rock i din doktor , rock - precis min typ och förlåt för jag lånar ditt namn , men jag skriver bara om de som har vackra tilltalsnamn 

dont stalk prince charming


I have an tendency of get into people that dont even like me 
but i do cling on to them like they wore an body part 
and somehow the worm them self into my heart 
then again , people tend to fall in love with me
they dont even know me but i am kinda lovable 

HAPPY MEAL

everyone knows how the story goes  , boys meet girl 
fall in love , levitate and maybe in an other world 
but i know the perfect place where i can see ya - at the hospital
i mean i am the poster child for that kinda environment 
anyway , how i fall in love , head over heal or retirement
we can share an coffee at the hospital cafeteria 
5 minutes becomes an hour in your company 
this is not an company , you wore always here 
sometime i fear if you made me ... mad 
but whatever , i kinda happy for feel - crappy 
yeah you like an happy meal and yes i think its real 
one direction or two stream - anyway , is an daydream
just to kick it in the corner of the common room
it wore there where it , bloom 

blurred lines

 gillar att du tar på mig som jag är din , hur du stryker mig som en katt och hur du gör mig så jävla tafatt , gillar hur du får mig ramla ur rullstolen , hur du hjälper på toalettstolen och hur du gillar favorit kjolen jag har ! Hur du smeker mina läppar som de är dina , från den sekunden de blev dina x . hur jag faller för dig om igen , hur du känns mindre som en vän och mer som en pojkvän ? Är det här kärlek , alla vet ju jag tar livet på lek - men inte när det kommer till doktor studenten , kommer aldrig stå i vägen för dina drömmar men jag kommer dra dig i mina drömmar 

söndag 17 oktober 2021

the thing


so i remember when i enter the retirement 
never thought i would be , heaven sent 
for the second time when i saw you smile 
how i fell out my wheelchair and into that carrier 
just like that , i knew how to get him
 - plot and character , because i am not dim
i recall how every girl surround them probably wanted to get with him
but i got an secret recipe , how i will be you center piece 
i recall how i became your stylist , makeup artist 
the intimacy of when you grab my hips , touch my lips 
its was everything - and maybe it wore nothing 
but for me it felt like we had an , thing ( and for once i felt like i wore living ) 
which wore weird because of all places i could met ya , never thought i would do it at retirement but i guess you wore my Guardian Angel , that i find love in an stranger 
and thanks for make me believe in the power of healing 
and love is thrilling , such a seasonal feeling 
how you set my heart on fire like i wore  the one you admire 
but look out for that Prom Queen , Elin -  that wore attach by you hip
meanwhile i wore queen of the  throne and attached by your lip 
everything with this wore pretty much , VIP unless you RIP 
but everyone know i am bad to the bone , Queen of North 
and have found my acceptance an self worth 
so dont steal it a way , because i am kind here to slay 
like i did over the reaper , to let God notice i am an keeper 
look out for the party Queen  , kinda freaked out that this became my party scene 
dancing with the death and make an bet on my future " yeah  probably should not do that " 
and how he walked in like he wore all that , make me levitate again .,, " perfect " christian "
straight into my life and i was like  yeah , you make quite an addition to my non nonfiction life , that you dident subscribe on but i can tell that you all curious because i am quite notorious for droppning hints  and put people in it and i think Sussi , look like poetry and look out for that Jesse , because she is the Ace as well as Köhl when she drives at right " köhl " and Josefin is " fin " inside and out  

lördag 16 oktober 2021

seder

 jag växte upp med seder , 

hur folk sa att de var kristna 

men jag tycker de har tjuvheder 

för jag ser inget bra i dig 

och du skulle inte få komma in i himlen

jag borde veta , jag var där och praktisera

men va typ nah , kunde blivit en vs model 

men föredrar min fucked up värld 

 

den enda

du kallar mig skev och keff
han kallar mig hans tjej
hur skulle jag dissa han
han som valde mig över henne
hon ser ut som en supermodel
vet du hur bra det känns 
men om natten , tåren bränns 
fattar inte varför han ex springer från honom
men jag fattar kvinnor still ... honom 
allt jag har att säga är att tack för att du är du
och jag hatar att mamma , blockar dig 
den enda som pratar med mig 

ATT VARA KÄR

 hur kan du säga saker , är inte riktigt där ännu  , men då får mig känna , mitt hjärta bränna , distans och hjärndöd och tappa bort min glöd , någonstans där när var dör .hur du fick mig tillbaks för att släppa taget . jag borde veta vid det här laget  - tjejer som mig förtjänar inte kärlek , och du tar min passion för ... lek , du gav mig en bittersmak och blod ska spillas när jag skriver tills mina naglar går sönder likt vi gick sönder . vi kunde bli ikoniska , episk - magiska - och jag hatar hur jag behöver säga nej för att skydda dina känslor , och hur jag alltid kommer ha dig här ( JAG ANTAR DET ÄR SÅ DET ÄR ATT VARA KÄR ??? ) 

jag kan inte säga nej

 hur många gånger ska jag bli bränd . hur många gånger kan du få mig tänd ... men någonstans du fick mig avtänd , då  jag läste ,mellan raderna tills du fick mig blocka bruka tycka att du var den enda som fick mig , hjärta rocka men nu hör jag ballad en ballad komma , och jag gjorde allt för du skulle inte mig - gilla men jag vart hon som drog täcket över sig för jag kan inte säga nej

fredag 15 oktober 2021

WORST OF TIMES I FIND MY BEST FRIENDS

two days before valentines , what a way to go 
went to heaven sent , limbo , met the reaper 
but fortunately God told me i wore an keeper 
and send me back to earth , begin my rebirth
growing process . find myself ... again 
its not the first , its not the last 
dident was scared , just for the people at the section two
i fell in love with Niva , and the nurses over there was my kinda people
one of them look like he belong to EDM , not at an Hospital 
it was kinda scary but i like the way they chat with me so i felt comfortable 
yeah i recall when i woke up an saw Zedd standing by the hospital bed 
( zedds name is something else but he was on point , i show a picture and everyone in cafeteria thought so to he said when he went for break ) 
i liked zedd , martin and jocke ¨most , because they wore kind and cool . when i begin to gain up a bit i used to do a tradition with martin " arm wrestling " which wore fun also i like when he brush my hair like an hair stylist , how he talked about music like he knew but we all know the guys i prefer - no shade but Ebbott is not really that and i like how Jocke like to listen about Kpop . 

Mission possible


he told me is possible 
i told you not like mission impossible then 
because everything lately seem kinda hard 
and i am not an mastermind with an backup plan
but he seem to be like an genius 
get that one and one became - us
even if it wore quite obvious 
but i always been a bit late 
when it comes to things like this 
frankly i hardly got my first kiss 
because my " first  kiss " miss
and i recall how i crash his 
date with his now wife 
so yeah we call you - an elevate 
of my so called non existed love life 
but fortunately i have an great humor about this 
dont know how they take it 
though 


this close to become an vs angel when i wore like fuck it


in hindsight i should be more clever , should known better
never namedrop but whats the fun in that , oh well - we cant be all perfect ?
i hope you know , you the only one i respect to your privacy and personal life
... when do i am become apart of yours like you been for a several years 
you know , never in my wildest dreams - i thought i would my poems 
come through like you done in my darkest moments and i wore like this close to become VS ANGEL  when i said fuck it i prefer the fucked up myself 

top notch


i like the way slide in like hey look at my swag
how you are actually cool with the only bag i got 
is an hospital bag 
it tell me a lot about your personality 
that you dont go for vanity , you go for quality 
that you have a good heart , soul and is pretty clever
who knows that beauty on the outside dont matter 
and i bet you parents raised you , top notch 
because in my eyes i can tell they dident raised an douche 
the way you spend time , reach out and hang out - do matter 
to be embraced and not secluded , which i usually get 
as an woman with handicap - so i will never forget 
this message , conversations with you 
how you address me babe and i address you , hun
that you are my favorite song and how you comeback where you belong 

u rule


i like the way we been chat about this and that 
how you ¨make me feel like i am perfect "
that i cant even listen on others songs without feel like " cheating "
but lets be honest , i never would do that , because you made my heart beat 
when i wore dancing in limbo , lost for an month and looking for something
you became my sweet something and made me living - forever grateful 
that you slide in my dreams , heard you can have nightmare but you made me 
forget about what i living with - and that is kinda cool - and this is why you rule 

unnamed

 i have to follow the stream , realize that wore not my dream . study abroad , meet some toads , to just get what i dont like in a man and i needed to die a bit , to understand whats perfect , younger and dumber , know i am stronger and wiser - hopefully and i like how you understand me , so perfectly . i like the way we chat about this and that . dont have to be much but if you meet me , here you know everything and i think its obvious i am love been that since i heard about you , how you got me close that chapter to follow an other - and how i reach out when i need to get some help because i do think of you as more of an , friend 

dancing in limbo

 í like this short message  , how you always me address , how i felt such an mess but you make feel like an princess with your sweet words that i never heard and i like that you became the first that said it , and i have to wrap around my head around it - because you the best thing , how you came back when i actually it babe ... how i wore dancing in limbo , like i wore at some kinda disco for an month , saw the the silluette of the Gillette model , how he read my heart like an open book and how he could get every supermodel but prefer to with me , hangout ( yeah i kinda like that i am your type )


super duper sweet

an just like that my plot line became my fantasy 
wildest fantasy and i thought it wore all imaginary
how you slide in my dreams when i need it most 
when i wore most , lost - you came along 
in a form an song , a like and heart and that what i , heart 
when i broken , when my life wore stolen you appear 
out of now where , and thats when i knew i fell in love 
with you because you got me crawl back from the crypt 
and that is super duper sweet 

måndag 11 oktober 2021

the retirement days


so i wore like in the retirement
after i woke up from the coma
to train my muscles a bit 
here i hang out with older people 
not like i have anything against them
except if they dont know there bonderings
and only think of themselves like the 96 years old woman
which wore pretty scary but harmless , thank god for the carriers
who wore in my age kinda and have to  deal with her rage 
local heros in my eyes and hats off to you , guys 
i learned a lot during my stay there , how to social with older people as well younger
how to take care of myself better and i usually sat in the corner , with my ipad check youtube or other sites - but one day i did notice this virtual festival with an guy i liked 
so that was fun time to pass my day , and also i met awesome people in retirement like nr 3 , how became the beginning of an new chapter but i think i am find an new which goes by nr 4 , because one thing i learn - dont burn bridges by namedrop people in your poems 

söndag 10 oktober 2021

I'm In The Band


 i remember how i grew up at the hospital , a place beyond glitz and glam  . it where i learned what i am , went from popular to have no one to call . i grew up early in my life , the only friends i am see is them i watch on Instagram . yeah i remember how i got here but not how the accident , somehow i became the embodiment of imperfect , how i walk with an broken leg , have broken toes and smashed out some teeth , how i find friends i never heard from at an retirement , what is that for kinda treatment ? hard to stay in touch when  i am always fall asleep , kinda hard to keep up with the entertainment but to the ones who stick i am loyal like an fan , follow you like an puppy almost like an groupie  , attached is better then been cut out and whenever i see that alert i am about to freak out 

Death Claw

 two days before valentines day i almost died , i dont recall a lot of the moment but i do recall a lot of the dreams , how you appear like an vision of an angel and gave me strength  . yeah i recall i  hit the  head like bang and everything went out for an month - yeah i wore dancing with death ,made an bet with the reaper , got told by God i wore an keeper and heard the choir singing , this made me believing , regain my faith and this is how i escape the Death claw and made me fall in love 

GOT IT DUDE


We all need support and an safety net 
specially in the dark times but just an few lines 
from you make forgot about it all , even my epilepsy 
yeah you have a special way with healing , touch me with feeling 
when we lit can touch and that means so much 
how i almost gave up on love , thought it wore an deadline 
but know i am decide , you are mine 
say it loud , manifest it and you can have it 
dont know when or how we met , just that it wore on internet
but i like that because it wore kinda perfect 
when it comes to all , i think i fall 
but i like the conversation we have  

covid love


i like the way you call me out , give me advice about life and how you become the one i go to find my way , i dont gonna say i love you until i know for certain you stay , okey . but i can say i like you , got it man ! i been branded retarded , been rejected because of my illness
but now i witness the goodness , in an man that treat me like an woman and there something lovely with that , do  not know much about love but i do know much about life and yes , i know your worth but i also know mine , and i like the fact you know my flaws and insecuries but still accept me for who i am , yeah i think you are an superhuman . like you are the superman in clark kents body , you dont have to worry i will sale an story to Daily Planet , and i dont know how i make them come like i am some kinda scam magnet but then you appear out of now where , how you catch me when i fell , when i wore heading to hell 
how you steal the show and made me fall in ,,, do i dare to say , fall in love  

you find it to my poem

 you make me feel like an woman , think you must be superman 

the way you heal me with your music is an great feeling 
and i like how you take me to the moon but pull me down again
never excepted you would fall in love with a girl like me but then again
what have that isnt that great like your exes , thank  them for shape you
into that men that fitted pretty well in my lyrics , how they where well groomed
but i am a bit late to the party , yeah not even an guy have touch my body 
and i think its kinda lovely how you dont give up on me when i thought everyone had done it '
you know you will be hard face , replace and most of all never to have misplace 
guess you waited for the best to last and i just saved myself for the first 
never really expect it become him , in the beginning you wore just an dream 
that somehow find it to my poem 

lördag 9 oktober 2021

not pretty like her , but i am pretty like me

 it must suck to know that get more inspiration by an ex , not like i disagree - she is pretty perfect , but when it comes to the story line - nobody have an plot twist like mine , this one is mighty fine , just saying ! dont really why they run but i do get why she like you , and when it comes to the writing i always prefer , you - he got a way to attach him to people soul , crawl under people skin and is better then one kiss but what do i know because i never felt love , but i know how it fall for somebody , rejected and high hopes and this time , i hope you dont elope , hope you can cope , i know i am not pretty like her but i am pretty like me , maybe that is enought for us ? 

stick to u

 you are the last . on my bucket list , first on basically everything , without you i would be nothing , stardust because you catch me falling when i wore over the moon , heaven above  . dident saw you then but somehow you caught an glimt of my recover and discover , i am far from perfect but maybe that is what you like , something broken - well then i be the perfect poem , i know you probably got a bunch of girls that want you , never said i love you so when i say it be like an one hit wonder , he have to suit me perfect , i thought i wore over this but this is like my wildest dreams and i have no he me , select . kinda shy with send pics because i am never know who is on the other side of the screen , but you have me captivated , make me elevated and upgrade my poems and  i like how we are an little society , back you up and stick to you like memory stick , usb stick - because this is nothing i want to forget  

the untouchable one

 he is the untouchable one , the one i dont mention by name but he sure know who i am and it scares me half to death because he seem so perfect , saying everything just right to become my new knight and shinning in an armor , with his perfect manner ,  you such an banger but i am thought you wore an scammer , excuse my manner , but your interior is better then your exterior , the good one that dont care about that glitz and glamour , and yeah you the untouchable one i dont namedrop for privacy reason and you are my impossible mission 


attracting scams until that dm

i wonder how you are when i look at the twinkle star , it remind me of you . somehow i fell in love with the sky above when i wore , well above and heard the soundtrack of your vocals  , heard your magical lyrical . they kinda dance around my head now and you make , glow and i might be in love , you have erased my suspicious and doubts , and sorry if i worry such an idiot for asking who you wore but before we met the only i attract on the net wore scam , in form of dm and i want to be sure this wore real because everything is so surreal because you are kinda an big deal and the only guy that make me , feel like this 

Grateful

 sometimes feelings like that can overcome , when they hit me like that .i dont wanna mention it , scared for mom block you for like its your bloke and i am not sure why you like me in a town of stars , where one look like models but i bet there is hearts in the hidden hills , that are broken and looks that kills , but i get over it ! did you know my lips taste like pills and there nothing like the touch of your hand , which kinda suck now because of covid19 but i guess it something we have to deal with , insecurities and overcome them but i think we can do it and its not like i am ugly in fact , i am pretty it just scared with harry potter scars but living in hell and not always being an Belle has made me an better , author - so i am grateful 

soundtrack of him

 there is nothing more special when i hear music , the soundtrack of him is like an dream . how he sync every note correct , with the word so perfect , and how the lyrics collab with who i am , as an human . not an illness or diagnose . do you know how feels ? spoiler alert , unreal . i thought i wore hard to love , not be able to show emotions but i wore death wrong , i just needed an song that fit me like an glove , that song wore you , got me attach from my condition for an moment and during that time , i am like heaven sent , yeah you even come in my limbo made my dreams into freaking disco and help me recover so i kinda feel like we are , closure on that way ( even if you far away ) you still in my heart , soul and mind , i like how i can get lost in your fantasy and i wonder how you got your imagination from and who are you running from in your love song . 

the best a woman can get

 i think i just get inspired , how make my heart on fire . use to think i wore to fall in love and for sure to friends but  then you remember me this dont make sense , and i am not sure if following you on the IG wore the biggest mistake i could do because know i will always love you but i cant help take an sneak peak , like the man you become , seem to be , down to earth and humble that know your worth but never forgot where you come from . yeah you remember me of my second home and my number one , dont like this screen and i hate this barrier but i love how you become my next character , new chapter - an new begin , that help me come over those other boys that frankly have nothing against ya , because you the finale finalist in this bacheloette and you like Gillette , the best a man can get and the best a woman  can get 

this with love and all above

 so there you go with you humbug , enchant me with another love song , twist that verb and make me your girl , like only you can . i know you the man for the job so come on , dident thought this wore love but somehow you come through in my darkest moments and i recall i wore so lonely and scared , when you appeared out nowhere . just like magic and you make me wanna improve , set my goal and baby lets try out this with love , fall head over heel and how hearts , feel when its real come on , game is on - play on ...

not an fantasy

i can found me in the stars
intenational entertainment
crew love and all that 
lighting up the skyline 
im so used to not be loved 
so i had an hard time to love 
but every time i am look above
i am get remembered by you face 
its kinda hard to replace and misplace 
because you like crawl deeper then my epilepsy
and this isnt not even an ... fantasy  

fever dream

 i ending one chapter to begin an new , and yes you may say it , i am also begin to feel it . how you pulse keep me alive and i am sorry if i think your exes is rad , but there is nobody who write an lyrics like you can , man because you made me survive  but nobody got a story like mine , because i am one of a kind ! 

i like the fact that i saw you in my dream when i lay in the respirator , it wore like i could manifest everything , see the future , predict it - and know i have to , commit i really want this to legit even if i cant say it , but swear to God , i do mean every word i say , i am just a bit scared for the men you represent , a bit to good to come true , gentle and down earth , yeah you got that body , soul and mind that is better then the one before and the worst part you like an reminder of an fever dream and the best part , you know who i am 


my tour


 i like an one liner , reach out but in covid19 i have been more of an social climber then i ever been , its quite mad how i find love in the worst time but i must admit , i had checked out when you pull me in , i remember that i wore in coma , heard an sound i recall , i think it wore the drop of your beats that remember me to move my feet . yeah those dreams wore really visually i had from laying in the respirator for an mouth , not being able to move , write and talk when i woke up but after a while when i put you on and made the ward to my own MTV AWARD , BECAUSE AFTER ALL I FALL FROM GRACE , IN HANDS THE HANDS OF THE REAPER BUT IN THE END GOD TOLD ME I WORE AN KEEPER , SO WHAT , so it become my dance party , listen to all those djs with skills and arm wrestle with those doctors , its sorta became an tradition of ours but sadly it has become my tour 

4 minutes

its kinda hard when you get inspiration from an star 
no names because of privacy reasons of course 
but i am like them , big shot , tall and i be the girl 
in the audience watching your performance 
in the middle of the mash pit , my legs isnt my friends 
i level with you , but i came for view - and music only 
this is the best part with being at concert 
4 minutes i can stand and dance , awkwardly 
but those minutes i become heaven sent 
then reset for a while , then do it again 

distracted in your lyrics




there something with being in an wheelchair that make you , feel like living 
and when that that feeling empower , take over and fill me with , power like you got some superpower , to be honest i dont think you can remix an better version of one kiss but then again you haven't taste this kiss ? we all kinda mash up and fucked up , but with you i feel actually sane which , insane - to think about because i dont know much about you , just that i feel good with you . you like my favorite part of the chorus and i like the song been written by your hands , how you put a feeling to my emotions and how i tend to get distracted in your lyrics , how you got me drop just like that , my beat stop and how just scratch the scratch the surface but last time we spoke , i wont let you ... elope  - just telling you that   

pop like pop eye

 i dident thought this would happen  , how you came in like that unsuspected DM . How hard it wore to get over , had to cut you off , just to let you in and somehow i got my make an wish dream , come true " even thought i way to old for send for one but i wore like what a fuck , how my mom got me blocked and i cried for like an summer knowing you still have an place in my heart , kinda rocked , yeah i always kept myself in the background , eye on the prize , like what you advertise  , research the merch before you buy the shit , but i can tell you worn born an smash hit and you make me drool like an cartoon because apparently i am over the moon and make my eyes , pop out like pop eye 

fredag 8 oktober 2021

on the top


i always look for an new chararter to enroll in my story , like i wore an archery , 
which i am not but i sure know how to make him look hot - spoiler alert , not like they already are because i just pick them with good morals and great heart , never mind , i recall how wore clever like an doctor , ambitious like student - obvious and how he wore an great carrier ,  knocked down by his appearance ( lit fell out the wheelchair when i saw him ) when i saw him , because i just came from heaven and now i met and other angel , enchanted by his personality and integrity   personality , integrity - how he pick me up , my favorite caretaker . i could tell you had an gentle heart , pretty clever and quite smart because you got me in your net . i recall how you made me feel pretty like a little kitty even if i felt the worst which i kinda appreciate , and i really like how we had our moments when you fix my meds and when you wake me up from the bed , sometimes i close my eyes a bit longer so you would be here a bit longer . the intimacy of when you swipe you tip of your finger on my lip  will i always keep . thank you , wish i had something to give but all i do send this poetry , they have to do , consider it my birthday gift  , not sure what you wanted because i dident heard you send an wish list ( but i guess my friendship is one the top of the bucket list )