YOU BEAUTIFUL

i woke up over the night 

thinking something is not right

when all of my body parts 

fall apart there is some kinda heart 

i day without an seizure is the best 

but then again when i end up in hospital

because of an dangerous fit , is it weird  how much i love it ?

i dont like my insecurities 

when i watch myself in the mirrors

living life with conditions , feeling like 

an constent left down  remember you heaven sent 

and nobody can take back that your magic you got inside 

you are more then scars and your emotional rug back

trust me , life is more then being an train wreck  

but suddenly hit me , i am beautiful - even if i am an mess

in an hospital dress , i even tend to ... impress 

the doctor and nurse because i am survivor 

who cares about the material things when you been through hell

and back , when you got carriers that have your back when your unwell

when i dressed in pampers and feel like shit , yeah nothing with this situation is lit

but you make my story perfect , the way you swept me off my feet and knock me off my wheelchair , how you made me forget i hade no hair and felt like i wore an hair model

look like an supermodel when you style me like that and brush me with your fingertips 

yeah this are those memories i forever will keep , how you look at me and said without say it : you beautiful , and thats why always cherish the memories from the retirement because they holy , sacred and special like everyone there a force to be recon with , basically beautiful outside and underneath